i was looking on the past week's event and thinking. there were so many things.. i was one kang chiong spider.. which i really dun like and dun understand why.. perhaps its pms. yes blame it on everything. perhaps if that thing doesnt exist at all.. war wouldnt happen in the world. every man will be satisfied and happy..lol and no war!. but the world isnt perfect. so there are always disagreements..

last thing on the list. 12th JCRC election committee. looks like v simple job. got minor details to look at. but i think i will just any how..lol the way i do things.. prob no one will emloy me.. i am already worried.. wat am i going to do when i grad? mkt is definately not a typical path pple that.. how abt be an intern and do mis stuff for a half a year or two..lol get exp.. how to complete in the society
perhaps every man will find a way. if i cant find one. i will just make one.. haha .. there is aways the option of setting up a biz..haha.. right.?whose's in?
i just have to start saving money... ha..

i am ill
i am sick
i am pmsy
i feel terrible

tired from the wsc welcome tea. tired from running here and there to sell tics. tired of being a bz body. tired of dnd.
but i chose to do all these.. why?
cos i chose to. but i am tired
there is stil the election com stuff to settle.

i came back. bathed.
mom called.
told her not going back on sun. no pt. she is not at home. go home go hall. seems just too troublesome
time to pick up some loose ends.

went to mel's room to watch tv. felt so much relaxed.. dun want to think anyting.
guys jioed to go joggin. at the track. a place i dun like.. a route of no ending.. one that one can easily give up and walk away.
after much hesitation. with a blocked nose. i went anyway. i wanted to be in the companion of friends. not alone.
it was 1100. lights were out. i had night blindness. specs kept slipping down my nose. i took them off.

i was left with a blur limited vision of only 1m ahead of me. i could only vaguely see two white lines in front of me. thats all. no other stuff. just me and the endless lines. couldnt see. couldnt count. ran beside a friend. pushed myself to 10 rounds.
my first 4km of the semester.
still feeling sick. but better. but why am i pushing myself i have no idea. i just needed to do somehing to tell myself. ill gal. move on. move on ill gal.

tmw is just another hectic day. u might as well push the last drop out of urself b4 u start another day.

sorry for the slow loading.. but look the newsletter is up
special thanks to all rosie for making my little dream possible and the gals as well for the wonderful articles. i am really glad u gals like the final product and look forward to having another project like this again.. but not so soon lah
haha


today had bbq with the 3302 gals..
its been such a long time since everyone gathered and relaxed like we did last night.. i was so glad and happy that i slept like a log.. i noe got no link.. but i was just happy.. no worries abt going home late or anyhing, just us in the toilet size hut..haha.. small cozy.. wat else do u need with company is the best!
the food and bbq was quite ok..lol ants invades us a few times and attacked yl's cake.. i shall learn to bring zip bags next time!!

after the stayover. i took a cab down to JGS.. few pple as usually. if not for duty com.. i prob will not attend.. but i think it was fun today..
i think i am a bit over these days.. i used to be able to do things without grudges. nowadays..i it seems that my temper is getting on me.. getting impaitent easily..
planning to me. seems like everything... the fear of disorder.. the fear of failure..
seems that i have started taken to asking pple to do things.. thats v so not good.. bleah.. must do something abt it... sorry if i offended anyone..

finally get to rest le
but sch is starting on monday!!!
thats freaking toooo fast.
a dozen things on my mind- dnd, post foc gathering, photos collecting, settling down in hall, monday bash. getting textbooks, election com..timetable..ges overloading, gals bbq and newsletter..
my head is going to explode liao