29 AUGUST 11:57
HIIII!!
I JUST LOVE JAY!!
Ok..pple you all must listen to this song:

她的睫毛
曲：周杰伦 | 词：方文山 | 编：周杰伦
亲爱的总有些事没办法教 表错情的感觉有一点糟
赖着不走 会让人 很感冒 以上这道理我全都了
我将不该犯的错都默背好 仔细观察她的喜好
而我紧绷的外表 向上紧后的发条
等她的答案揭晓 她的睫毛 弯的嘴角 无预警的对我笑
没有预兆 出乎预料 竟然先对我示好 她的睫毛 弯的嘴角
用眼神对我拍照 我戒不掉 她的微笑 洋溢幸福的味道
有些是没办法教 表错情的有一点糟 赖着不走 会让人
很感冒 以上这道理我全都了 恋爱的方式无法拿笔来抄
也没有规则可以取巧 被动的缘分很不可靠
喜欢的对象要自己挑

她粉嫩清秀的外表
像是多汁的水蜜桃 谁都想咬
她嘴上亮丽的唇膏 有一股自信的骄傲 我看得到

(Rap:她的睫毛 弯的嘴角 无预警的对我笑 没有预兆
出乎预料 竟然先对我示好 她的睫毛 弯的嘴角
用眼神对我拍照 我戒不掉 她的微笑 洋溢幸福的味道)

this song is supperrrrcute!!
Ok.. I think I tell a lot of people liao, any way.. I thought this song was like the ye ye pao de cha…the way he sing it, very cute…: )

Yeah yeah.. today is teachers day, also left abot 13 days to prelims. Recently I have been really stressed. People are saying that I look stressed . I just I had tution, and my tutor just said I look worrying…hopefull that that is wat I look like to every one.
I think I am fine now really. I just realized, and I mean JUST that the coming prelims are not the real thing. For a moment I thought that if I failed the exam, I would die.
Yup the teacher said ,
results are not everything. Althought it is everything in the education system of Singapore, it shoud not be the value of yourself. Every one is different and every one is good at something, and not necessarily studying. In addition to that we must not fear failure, however hopless the situation is , never think of the words ‘doom’.

‘Expect the worse and hope for the best’

those was the words she sad. Dun let your fears paralyze you from moving forward. Failing you’re a’s (touch wood) does not mean that u have wasted two years, maybe literally. but look at all the other things we had gained

‘sharing your experencies, yours and mine’

true.. really had a great time in tj…found many great friends…amazingly…I pulled though. Remember the principal? She said”

you are all like marathon runner (something like that)
you are all running your last lap…the one that needs the most discipline and most energy to pull though.

We have come so far.. no point giving up not…stop dwelling on negative thoughts..think positive..haha..you are hearing from a person, who looks like a depressed walking zombie who haven sucked enough blood and is feeling sad that she didn’t make enough kills to feed herself..ok wat am I talking..
My tutor say..must plan.. he advise us to plan lah..not that he did…sian..thats the kind of advise u get from psc scholor..’

Anyway…happy birthday to you bro!!. hope u stay handsome and cute forever!!

Hey blog.
It’s the 24 of Aug. the time now is 2341 hrs.

I am 18 years and 1 month old. Haha, just noticed..i am not online, or any where near the comp, just lying on my bed and writing on a piece of foolscap. Zihui… how stupid can u get..how much more time can you waste..was that my alter ego?..if you are, stop bashing in like that..ok…anyway, its..Sunday night. Yeah..few more minutes, it would be 25 aug..time really flies. In a months time, another cousin will be getting married, in three weeks time, it would be the prelims, in 2 weeks time, I would be panicking , I one weeks time, me would be spending the last few days with my class mates plus my brother will be celbrating his 21st birthdae…mom said I was more excited than him..hey why not?..me really happen for him..although the age does not make any difference to his brain status..i am still happy for him..cos he gonna have a birthdae party at home…gonna be a big deal..an occasion to remember. I told him that I wouldn’t want to hold a party like him, too trouble some, quite sad to think like that hey.Yeah, I always have birthday blues…I have a good friend who shares the same idea as me. We both agree that there isn’t any big deal…but I get all excited when it come to pple’s birthday!!!. Dun noe why..think its easier to feel happy for others.

Me bought an post card today, says: Your attitude determines your alttitude., pasted it on the wall… does work, cos that’s my attitude toward such stuff..sian.i can only make my self look at it.
…

This are my favouite songs of the moment now...a must hear..the lyrics are so beautiful...

东风破
曲：周杰伦 | 词：方文山 | 编：林迈可
一盏离愁 孤单伫立在窗口 我在门后
假装你人还没走 旧地如重游 月圆更寂寞
夜半清醒的烛火 不忍苛责我 一壶漂泊
浪迹天涯难入喉 你走之后 酒暖回忆思念瘦
水向东流 时间怎么偷 花开就一次成熟 我却错过

谁在用琵琶弹奏 一曲东风破
岁月在墙上剥落 看见小时候
犹记得那年我们都还很年幼 而如今琴声幽幽
我的等候 你没听过

谁再用琵琶弹奏 一曲东风破
枫叶将故事染色 结局我看透
篱笆外的古道我牵着你走过
荒烟漫草的年头 就连分手都很沉默

晴天
曲：周杰伦 | 词：周杰伦 | 编：周杰伦
故事的小黄花 从出生那年就飘着 童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在 ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
吹着前奏望着天空我想起花瓣试着掉落 为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天 教室的那一间 我怎么看不见 消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍 没想到失去的勇气我还留着 好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开

刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐 大到我看你不见 还要多久
我才能在你身边 等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久 但偏偏 雨渐渐 把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天 但故事的最后你好像说了拜拜

okok
i know the colour schemme looks a bit weird, actually not a bit..i think i will try to figure it out somedae
any way ..wat was i going to say???

ah...its friday...less than two months left liao...everything is not in place
when ws anything in place in my life?
my donne poems, my much ado, my othello, my gothic texts, my intergration, curve sketching, differential equations, role of governments and fiscal policies.
I AM DONNE FOR IT!!!
HAHA NOT FUNNY...

Hey bloggy
How are you, haven written in you for quite a long time. I feel so sick.. that’s why I am writing in you now.
I just checked the calendar. Less than 27 days left to the first paper of prelims!!
I am so so so soooo not prepared!!i feel so frustrated that I just wanna cry my lungs out. Whats wrong with me??? Why cant I be like just a studious pupil and start putting my heart and mind to work?
Every time I take out my books to do homework, and I am talking about hw, I feel sleepy. I cannot even finish the assignments that are given to me , how am I suppose to start revising?
I cannot even do the the assignments given to me, how can i supposedly take the prelims in 1 months time, and now, even less than that?
Why is this going on?
What have I been doing?
I can seem to think straight, I am hoping that by writing in you, I can clear my thoughts out, I desperately need a way out.
Had an idea this afternn of going to see some school counselor or or some teacher to sort out my problems, why is it I cannot seem to remember the things I studied before, even if I have put my full heart and soul to studying them? I cannot seem to remember wat I have studied 2 weeks ago.
Do I have a lousy brain?
Am I wat my brother say: not suit for studying?
Then wat am I doing in tjc?
Did I come under luck? How is it everyone can do it and I can’t?
Why am I so lousy?

No use trying to self pity
No use trying escape
Its time to face the truth whether you like it or not
Even if you do not have the brains, u can put in effort to make up for it…
All this sounds like a truckload of rubbish.
Feel like giving my self a big tight slap in the face and throwing myself down a 100 storey building and tell my self not to waste my time away any more.
You have not got much to spare.
BUT you will have lots to regret later.

Wake up pls zihui…wake up…..before its too late...

rozie got a blog!!!
haha..after reading it, i realised that if our class trip doesnt happen this year, we can do it in 5 years time, think by then we would have enough money also, anyway we would be at the airport, we could go on a mini trip overseas for 3 days...coos next day holiday and still got sunday mah...good idea right..hehe..i also tthink so...might as well, since we all at airport liao.. can elope...

Hey bloggggie!!!
How are you?
This week have been a damn buzy week for me ..got so much things going on….at every other second, there are thoughts running through my head on wat I have not completed and wats need to be done.
True enough, under all this hustle and bustle, TJC life have practically flew right pass my eyes. Today during GP, we talked about setting a date to meet five years from now. The date was set: 08/08/08,1800 hours, at change airport terminal 2 – the meeting point.
The thought of meeting 5 years later is especially disturbing to me as I listened to my class discuss about it with a heavy heart. We have spent about 1 and 3 quarters years together, a period that cannot be considered too long or too short. Amazingly though our differences and similarities, we found a good friend in each other, someone we could relate to with our feelings and emotions , someone whose company we enjoy everyday.
Sometimes I find it quite funny that my gang actually chats on MSN, even after a one whole week of meeting each other in school. You never seen a much cheerful expression on our face when one says “ lets meet on MSN tonight!” Haha..we always had so much to talk about…from guys..to schoolwork…to teachers…to grad night…even football…fashion…and lame stuff.
Truefully, I have always looked forward to school, especially 3302 everyday, when I wake up. Despite, how much homework I have not completed, or how much problems I have on my mind, all my friends in 3302 make coming to school worthwhile. Even on Saturdays and Sundays, I miss the fun and laughter of the guys and gals having fun and look forward to seeing everyone on Monday, despite it’s the start of another grilling week.

True, Prelims will be starting in no time, soon we will all be busy preparing for it. I am sure that I will look back onto the time the whole class spent together, and relish the wonderful days we spent together and be hoping that we can have them again. The next time when I read this entry, time would have flied again. It could be one week from now, one month from now. Or even five years from now….looking back on the entires I wrote when I was in TJC and trying to recollect the memories that have somehow faded though the course of time.

How I wish I can turn back the clock to the time our class started and perhaps get to know the class all over again. Yeah, its not possible, just thinking.

Ok, now I must really get down to work….remember my donne poems and stuff….arh….must really go and write a time table….. mean time enjoy my last days with the class mates of 3302.

Todae is national dae..didnt do much at home…sadly..but I highlight of the day was watching NDP on TV. Really love the NDP even though i are not in the stadium, I can imagine the atmosphere in the air when every one is standing up and singling songs like ‘ stand up for singapore’.can u imagine how much hard work is put into all the preparations that have started since early this year. How grateful I would be if I can take part in the NDP, it would be more worthwhile too. Mean time I can thankful for all 20000 personals for making the NDP such a great event to watch on tv..even the world may think Singapore is just a small red dot, I am still proud of u cos you are the greatest!
Happy birthdae Singapore!

Me hear this on the radio: we should live like sunflowers, and always face the Sunlight positively.(zhuo4 ren2 yao4 xiang4 xiang4 ri4 kui2, yong3 yuan3 chao2 ze4 guan1 ming2 kan4 qi3!

hoho, today in a good mood
gonna write another entry!
its like this, that day i was looking for powerpuff pics to put on my blog...sickeningly, all the porno site poured out..anyway that 's not the point, i was reading through the character introduction of the powerpuff girls:

"I'm the leader of the group and I like the way it is. I love to wear pink stuff. No matter what the powerpuffgirls will protect Townsville. I love to read too"
-blossom
"I'm the toughest of the group, I just love to kick-but of vilain. I don't care if I'm dirty but I never surrender. The powerpuffgirls never lose!!"
-buttercup
"I'm the cutest of the group. I love cute animals. I'm kind of scare of the dark and sometime I'm even hardcore than Buttercup!!"
-bubbles

somehow i thought tha i could connect with all three characters of the powerpuff girls.
i like cute animals, i like to be tough, iwant to be the leader (sometimes), and i want to protect the pple around me and i love to read too!and yes..i think i am quite cute..hehe

sometime i think its my alter ego who is writing the blog...sounds funni..hi pple..you are reading the blog of zihui's alterego
this is who she is really like..all weird and creepy..all sort of crazy ideas...amd insprations that nevercome true..that;s why its crazy yuan

- the alterego of zihui signing off....'i felt younger, lighter, happier in body;within i was consiousd of a heady recklessness, a current of disorder sensual images running like a mill race in my fancy...."
Muuuahhhhhaaahhhhhhhaaaahhhhaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So cool!
Today I celebrated Singapore’s 38th’s birthdae with 3302 of tjc.
I think our class really enjoyed ourselves and was sporty in wearing the red and white ribbons. The celebration wasn’t very exciting but it was heart warming to be singing together in the hall at our top of our voices! Although there was no extra holiday this year, I am still grateful for the national day celebration, cos we get to let our hair down and have fun and enjoy ourselves unlike the other class…in comparison we seemed to be having so much fun and into the spirit of national dae. I see no point in wasting the celebration in school by being so quiet abt it. So to all 3302, I really had fun today, it wasn’t elaborate, but by taking part in it heart and soul, we enjoyed it to the full!

Happy national day pple!!

Yeah!! Tomorrow is National Day!!!
Why am I so happy? Cos got no lessons of course and themn can wear home clothes, but that is a problem too cos I dun noe wat I am going to wear…haiz..with great powercomes great responsibilities..ok doesn’t make sense. Anyway, its! Singapore’s 38 birhtdae..i dun think she is really old, quite a respectable age I think. Considering her achievements, the peaceful days she provide for the citizens, if I were Singapore for 1 day..i mean if I were to be this tiny red dot with feelings and thoughts, there would be much I want to say to the people of Singapore.

Firstly, I would tell the people that I am proud of them. Yeah, tell them that they did the right thing to creating Singapore into a world class city she is now. However I would also tell my people to slow down in their footsteps and look at the world around them. The world is so big, and we are just a small red dot, therefore our foreign relations with other countries are very important. True that sometimes we have to take sides in international affairs, but hey, seldom is there an absolute right or wrong in the things you do. The impact of world leaders’ decisions is often directly linked to their countries stand. One more friend means one less foe. In life, we are always making choices. Yes, they may not always be right, but people do make mistakes, whatever should happen, people should always remember ’forgive and forget’, except for those who do wrong things intentionally.
I always believe that people do bad things because they misunderstand the purpose they are standing up for.
Ok..i dun noe wat I am talking about..just though about how Singapore will feel that her birthdae is coming. I wonder if she would have any wishes to be fulfilled. People had always said that us, the generation y are unrealistic bunch of people and have not experiences the hard work of our pioneers who have build up this country for us. But I beg to differ somehow as in our batch, I believed many of us have seen how social unrest and racial disharmony have brought about many problems to our society. As the biotechnology is rapidly developing, many moral issues will also be on my minds in the amazing field of medical science. As computers are becoming smaller and handphones become more userfriendly and there are more and more nice shows on television, have the people of the world, not only those in Singapore stopped in their steps and looked at the sky, the sea, the people around them and wonder how much they have contribute to them. Everyday I walk on the streets, people are just smsing on their phones, listening to the head phones, deciding where to eat lunch next. The material life we are enjoying is of quite high standard. Isn’t it about time we start feeding our minds , not through brain food, but just understanding their point of existence in the universe and fulfilling their destiny or maybe just being a nicer and more understanding person and making life more easier for everyone.
Isnt it crazy, how the pts dun link…..doesnt matter. Why should it be? Human always have a thousands thoughts running through their mind at one pt of time…that is why they are often confused by their desires and needs.
Usually it’s the material desires which are most easily fulfilled achived first, then, like a cycle of unlimited wants, the human sees the need to be fulfilled one by one, so as to have a sense of achievement.
An example is a typical student, first he wants a d then a C then a B then an A. is that all about grades and exams? Crazy but ,that’s wat I think it is all about.

Ok enough abt the stuff floating in my mind…todae I played badminton!!! The last time I really had fun in the game as more than I year a ago, really enjoyed the game! look forward to playing again!
Our class is having problems with grad night tables…..sadly….our class never really had a lunch or dinner together..how is the dinner going to anymore significant? Our first and last?

Saw a world in a different view today while I hanged upside down (with some help). The sky was at the bottem while the sports complex as the ceiling. I felt as if I was in falling eternally, but I was held on tightly by my great friends. It suddenly came to me…how upside down my life would be if my friends and family didn’t hold on to me. pun intended. True that the sky was a magnificent backdrop to the sports complex. the cloudless pastel blue sky was a great sight, even upside down, our lives should turn upside down one day due to unsolvable reasons, the sky will still be there to cover our heads and remind us to continue on with our lives as the worls will continue revolving on its axis and the shy will always be blue to be there with you .

Haiz..today is the 4th August 2003 (Monday) (42 days left to prelims)
Monday..sunny..almost rained
Me drew some lame signs last night..the sweats..the snowman..the icecube..the crow..all that can be used to tell people that the holder had been chilled..apparently..those who used the signs are all great lamers themselves and enjoyed the use of them.

On the bus home today…I worried abt many stuff..some insignificant..some serious..and I came to a conclusion at the end of the trip.

Its time I face the truth that I can no longer fool around. I must set done to work immediately. I do not wish to regret about my 2 years of JC life. I will set done to work to do my school, my class, my friends, my family, my brother and most of all MYSELF proud!! There is not much time left to waste even if I want to and I dun want to. Only 42 days left, less than 6 weeks. To start, I have to pick up my determination and work toward my goal of at least 3 Cs for prelims. That may sound far far-fetch, but hey, as I always say, reach for the moon if u cannot make it, at least you will fall among the stars. I should not be contented with that kind of results either cos they are not really decent grades(I think)
I Believe I can do better!
Therefore I must tell myself:
I MUST!
I CAN!
I WILL!
Hey guys let work hard together, then we can enjoy the fruits of our labour happily!

(Do a pc on the dramatic presentation of your blog)

it somewat reflects the state of her life...the strong blue shows her passion for living and pehaps her liking of the colour blue but the eye catching combination also show her desire to be noticed..to be noted...for her entries to be read ..while the pale blue seems to reflect the lethargic state of her mind, bothered by problems faced every day.probably the 'lightness' of the words which just seem to flow out of her mind easily...

the title 'me just want to be me' shows a sense of 'pleading' of the writer of the blog, hoping to gain the understanding from the people around here and even herself. the lack of emotional expression in these words also expresses a sense of lost and loneliness. the uncompleted sentence reflects that the entries will be ever flowing....and that there will never be a definite end or answer to all her problem..and that they will continue too. the use of the words "me" twice further emphasis the writer's desire to seek attention to herself....
the bright green box at the top right hand corner is like the sun of the blog..bright..cheerful..and very important to her.Its where her friends' link are place and her cca's site..showing the importance the writer place on her school life and friends.
The archives are also placed there....reflects the writer's sedimental emotions that she will never forget about her past...

the entries are not of definite lengths refecting the writer;s unregular emothion..often not written in proper english showing her poor standard of the language and also that she thinks faster than she can type and the rush of dea and emotions also results in the inconsistent subjects. The regular use of dots(.....) shows the lack of ability to express oneself properly to use linkers or to connect ideas, and that much though and hesitation is reflected in the entries. the use of pauses also show the quick change of ideas from one to another...too fast to be explained.

basically..not much structure can be found in the website as the entries are often written under different state of emotions and the only similarities is the sudden increase in length in entries when the writer is feeling low.

no rhythem..only in the song lyrics
no rhyme.......
diction.......frequent pauses....sense of uncertainty strongly conveyed

pls grade this essay.....

Hello! Diary..todae (night) is the lst of august! This means I can go online liao! Yeah!
I just had a very beautiful Friday!How is it beautiful?i will explain..but I think it will be a short one cos I got so much maths tution homework to do!ok..must think positive.. i need to finish practicing my maths in preparation of the prelims…ok dun with the positive thinking lets get one with wat happened todae!

Ok todae was to be a short with many exciting events to look forward too: ). Firstly…not the most exciting of them of was pc lesson..i like that lesson partly becos of the teacher ms loong and the nature of pc.and I got back a marked ‘essay plan’!and got a b+..so happy!i think I can do well in lit if I better organize my answers but my ideas doesn’t flow until I write them out. In writing the essay plan..new ideas will often pop out..which is useful..but confusing cos I then to mix them all up..sad. Sometimes I think all the subjects I that I take ask for the same stuff in students (which apply to my life too!). In econs..it really works to write out an essay plan..often my idea flow when I write down the plan which I quickly jot down. It is also important to look out the keywords in the question.find out wat the question assumes and wat scope it require u to cove..all abt ‘unpacking the question’…yes..those are one of the very few gp lesson I actually think is useful. In maths….haiz..i think must be less lazy..and practice…then u will know wat kind of answers they expect u to give..that we will not need to think much when we answer the question. So wats wrong with me?
I think it my basic…my econs and donne and maths basics are horrible…a few more months to prelims..must make use of the time to brush up my basics..yeah..u see the problem..u see the solution that u can offer…so heres’ the ‘essay plan’! to help u better solve the problem! Go zihui!!

How to improve Zihui’s current results?

1)Keywords: how to, improve, current results.

2)Wat doe the question impy/assume/suggest?
(unpacking… my gp teacher will be so happy to see this although I rather her not…; ))
- The question imply that zihui have results that can be improve….
- Decide ‘how much’ to , ‘to wat extent’ will the solutions work on her…
- Wat are the factors that determine zihui results:.. perseverance.. hardworking-ness., focused state of mind…exam strategies…studying methods…lack of confidence…unstable basis…
- The time factor: how past experiences have lead to her current result…and what can she learn from them..long run and short run of solutions…
- scope of which can be looked into: daily lifestyle..attitude towards life…concentration hours....food she take…distractions…blog…

Ahhh!!!waaaat am I doing!! I think I am really going crazy!! ok I will just settle for a conclusion
Conclusion: there are many factors that contribute to how much Zihui receive for exams. They can be summaried to two main levels: the surrounding she is in and how is she perceives its effect on her and how she reacts to the effect. True that she is crazy at times…but with effort put in and help and encouragement from tutors and friends and family…it is highly possible she will improve. Yeah!

Hey pple wat u think?

Ok..i didn’t want to write the crappy essay thingy at first, just wanted to write abt my day..the idea just flowed into my mind and I sidetracked…so u see..not focused!

Ok lets see..wat happen to day!
Yeah..the lit presentation (shadow play on a john donne poem)was a great success!!! me so glad.. amazingly the lit cohort enjoyed it…I like this like of presentation.. dun need to speak one..: P
Today also got inter-house netball which me and rosie took part!
I want to thank rosie..u make the game this year much funner!.. last year was so boring and lonely…no one to talk to..
Anyway before net ball I had PE..sian..ironically .. ‘ I FLEW LIKE SUPERMAN’…in my previous entry..i had posted the lyrics of superman..and I flew the next day!! Anyway..me was running too fast…couldnt put my leg in front of me fast enough..fell(flew..or even glided )to the finish line on my tummy.. I think that if my knees were bent then..i could have rolled a few feet away..cos I was going at such a fast speed…I could stop my self….too thin liao!!!i suffered abrasions to my knees and hips…so painly..
The injuries did not stop there..during inter-house net ball(which we lost....sad..but it was fun!).. i sort of sprain my thumb when I was trying to block the ball.the thumb received an unpleasant concussion with some unidentified object and twisted in an odd angle. But hey I think I am ok liao..cos I am now typing a 824 word diary entry…hehe must be fine ..ok must go post it and go do maths tuition homework..or else not guai!