I WANNA WATCH SHREK 3 .. I WANT TO LAUGH.. I WANT TO LIVE IN A FAIRY TALE STORY.. THEN AGAIN... THERE IS NOTHING SUCH AS A FAIRY TALE STORY...

KT TUNSTALL LYRICS

"Suddenly I See"

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

been looking all over for this song.. but still dun have it..(some one send me?)
first heard it in the movie 'the devil wears prada' which was quite a nice show..
but the song is nicer. so happy.. suddenly i see..

"And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see"..

12 midnight le.. should be sleeping soon.. there are so many should bes.. suppose to end work at 6pm.. but that never did happened... wanted to meet mel for dinner at 730 at jp.. that never happened as well.. suppose to eat dinner.. just ended eating old chang kee for dinner.. it din end up so bad..

suppose to come back home early to do more work stuff on the laptop.. ended up slacking in mel's room watching 'venus and mars' which is a nice show on men and women.. how life is imperfect.. and marriage is as well.. its about communication and trust in each other at appropiate times.. of course fate plays a part.. but one should always cherish what they have.. enjoyed mel's company thru the night.. even when i left the room to prepare to go bath together.. we ended up talking about work and pay(it seems so long ever since i lied down on the bed and have someone sat at the side and talk to me.. enjoyed it quite much.. feels theraputic.. like i am attended by a psychiatrist.. it felt kind of nice to have a friend who was popped by to chat.. makes u feel that life is not just abt work and sleep and eating..lol its abt more.. )and surfing shopping sites in my room for another one and half hr till her bf popped up on my msn questioning where she was..lol and so we went to bath.. and b4 i stepped out of the door.. kuan ni walked past and the three of us strike up a conversation on how dirty the toilet has been.. although less than ten gals use it.. cos the aunty dun even clean it.. being fedup.. i wrote a few notes and pasted it on the wall where the cleaners and supervisor could see.. apparently the notes worked.. the toilet is much cleaner.. lets just be grateful for that

and now miss mel just msn me that she is hungry..lol wonder wat she wats.. :)
may all things turn out well..

here is the song that we always here on the 9pm show venus and mars.. by redwan ali.. i think its pretty nice! click here

i belive in karma..usually.. i believe that one good returns another... be it indirectly or directly.. be it making a small scarifice to make things easier for others.. or really going all the way out even if it doesnt require u to do so.. my belief is if i can help.. i dun mind doing it.. then why not. some pple think that too silly.. some pple think u are just kaypoh.. some just can see from your point of view.. someone got to make this world a better place ya.. at least one more happier soul wouldnt mind that.. but would it matter if the willing person is happy to do it?

ironic i would say. one of the first interviews i got was a hr position.. regarding. recruitment consultant at recruit express.. now i am working at a small company that targets hr staff to provide them with a better solution for attendance management.. means no more manaul payroll.. less cursing and swearing every time a mistake is spot on the attendance systems.. helps the company save admin resources and $$.. in some way.. workers cant cheat le.. u cant work more OT then allowed... u cant ask ur buddy to punch ur card for u when u are late or early.. well.. hopefull the money saved is spent on something better... if u are a hr personnel who wants to know more how this solution can help u save lots of $$ .. drop a comment..lol

Life aint exactly v good nor is it v bad.. starting to settle down in the company. Today met andrew on the way to work while taking 199. he was surprise at my pay and was kind enough to remind me of the actual take home after cpf deduction.. diez.. there goes all my plan.. first it was poly pay.. now its worse than poly pay.. basically i am cheap labour.. lol well i guess thats wat i am ..

dun really how long i will work here.. been trying to stay positive.. and many pple have been encouraging especially mom, bro and dear.. maybe they can tell its not a typical uni grad job.. lol its a small company.. hopefull i can grow in it..or at least.. grow into it.. going to do telemaketing next wk.. dreads..

i am employed.

noted the lack of exclamation marks and emotions in the words above. it was a friend's recommendation. she was working in a company which required sales executive.. i applied .. went thru the first interview.. and then there was the second... after which i started work.. as a marketing executive.. i think.. currently the company is expanding.. and i am the first in the mkting departmet.. and will be doing telemaketing till more pple come in..the pay is low.. and sad.. stil on probation.. only $1600.. some say its too low.. some say its like diploma/poly pay.. in short its pretty sucky.. but i want to reduce probation to one month.. unlike the 6 month he proposed.. i am sure i will be able to do it..

got many friends also searching for jobs.. joanie got ntuc managment trainee le.. 2300+... bernard went for some pretty cool companys for job interview..check it out here this is too sad.. aint going to post ..

take care joan..

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

"Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.

You are exhausted, over stressed and you refuse to give in. You are trying to minimise the tension by being physically active. It would seem that you are experiencing problems with an existing relationship and try as you might, you find it impossible to alter the situation because there is no co-operation. There is an urgent need for proper understanding which may only be accomplished by communication. At this time you feel that there is no 'give and take' on either side. This is resulting in constant depression. You are irritable and it could be said by your nearest and dearest that 'you are hard to live with'. You feel the urgent need to get away from it all - even it's only for a little while. You may be finding it difficult now to make firm decisions - you are restless and generally uptight.

Anxiety and a restless antagonism, as a result of unfulfilled emotional needs, has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to overcome this by working and playing extremely hard - but at all times you have your future in mind. You are a worker and as a result of your inherent enthusiasm you cannot fail. "

perhaps its true....too true..

there were initally plans.. go taiwan with the hall pple.. then that was blown by the budget and other restrictions.. .. then there was batam or bali with the 3302 gal.. another blown cos of many commitments and safety and parent issues.. lol and as i sit here trying to be greatful abt wat i have.. i try not to think abt the pple going guangzhou,taiwan. hk, dubai, europe...and settle comfortable in bed to red my brown-edged harry porter and the order of phoneix book.. have already forgottne the story.. since the movie is coming out and the trailer looks entirly foreign to me.. might as well read it since i got nothing to do.. talking to my ex-colleguen.. he recommend me .. 'go sentosa also can' .. dots.. maybe my expectations have became higher.. i should settle for less.. i do have a grp of friends who jio me to go sentosa.. but i was bz then..well thats my own fault..

yesterday when out with the gals.. had nothing to wear.. was looking as lok kok as ever.. v sian.. how can i look better.. sad n ashamed to say.. i dun put and (i dun noe how to) put on nice makeup.. my excuse.. let my skin breath... but i better do better.. b4 my pale ugly face take pple's breath away.. went.. tm to look at some keyrings..but could buy anything nice.. saw a nice leaf pendent at chomel.. but din buy.. was worried i couldnt carry it off.. i cant dress well .. 50% of my clothes are black and the they udn exactly match..bleah

went out with the 3302 gals today for a short gathering.. ate a breeks at marina square..only $8.90 for main course ,soup,drinks and desert.. wasnt such a bad deal and the company was as usual great. to me.. a very pleasent afternoon. there was dai dai. yingling, hamidah,rosie,joan and me.. missing were jasmine, shuhui and gunni.. yup.. thats nine of us.. a pretty big group but prob the only bunch of friends i actually kept in touch with thoughtout my v long sch life..
the gals were pretty much the same.. daidai still v cute and funny.. hami still drama.. joan still complainy.. yingling still motherly.. rosie still easily irritated.. it felt just like yesterday.. not really 3 yrs have passed.. really dunnoe wat to blog.. really quite sian.. abt my lack of ability to find a job.. i noe its still early.. but just cant stand being bored...zz

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i am still bored. i noe i will prob hate myself for saying so but i dun want to slack at home.. feeling so useless.. am trying to immune myself to mom's nagging.. trying to appreciate her more... trying to decide which job to apply.. trying to figure out whether some opportunites are meant to be past and which are not...whether to sell my books.. whether/when i should move home offically from hall.. sianness..

job searching sucks..