haven been blogging for a while. trying not to let it take up too much of my time. but as days past, u tend to ignore matter, as time flows over you, events not archived are just forgotten and that day becomes an any other day. celebrate life, celebrate the time u have on ur hands, the pple around you, cherish them, remember them, archive ur memories.. blog today..

lol advertorial right..lol..

it was tough at work again.. but i am sure its the same as anyone else, not hitting my kpi for connsectatively a few month isnt good, not enough effort, not enough focused energy, not enough hardworking ness, not enough peservenance , not enough everything. there goes the possiblity of commissions, there goes the possiblilty of seeing a minumal raise in the paycheck... that means.. days of avoiding the mall, avoiding fav food hunts, book marking of more nice food websites that i can drool on, walking into the stall and telling myself ' i got no money, i dun need this', and then i wonder, wats the point of all this..then i figured.. it must be that time of the month again.. true enough... so i made use of my erretic energy and made green tea and chocolate chip cupcakes for the family, whom was always nice enough to say they were nice.. i am grateful!

moto for the month : be more grateful for wat i have.

i randomly put this kitty cat as my desktop back ground .. and she looks charming.. quiet and calm.. wise .. and so i did a bit of photoshop. i did not take the pic, but i really appreciate the photographer for her efforts.

yeah!! my dear is going to bring me to icecreamchef!! waiting for him to come pick me up now.. hopefully all goes well (dun get too lost) and eat some nice icecream!

was thinking of getting a list of things to do / places to visit up.. but i think its too much trouble.. but mean time i got some new things to look forward to!
so just as a reminder to myself
- return my rented books to book affair in cs
- go visit brabasah one day to buy some cook books!
- look out for some nice dress (gasp!)
- perfect my cupcakes
- attempt to make buttercream
- and eat them (right now.. i dun really eat them.. >.<)
- prepare x mas cards (is it too early?)
- organise another 3302 outing/ pot luck! (to get rid of my cupcakes..lol)

there! lets hope all goes well!

was blog hopping and i came across this.. http://www.tigers-deluxe.de/ if you are a KITTEN-LOVER / or simple love FURRY, FUZZY,TINY, CUDDLABLE STUFF- its a site not to be missed!
here are some pics to share, hope they make u feel happy too!


oh its just another sleepy day. why do i have to wake up mew~ ?


how abt this? lets go shopping? mew~ i got my bag ready! whose coming?



i am still waiting!! meows.. bored.. the word looks weird upside down >.<



yawn! i think i will go back to my kitty nap!



zzzz meowzz


ANOTHER THING.. I WANT TO GO ICECREAMCHEFS!
http://icecreamchefs.blogspot.com/

SHOCKING ! BREATH TAKING! UNBELIEVABLE! BUT FEIZI'S GETTING MARRIED!

when i saw her blog, i was just confused by the picture of the 0.48(not 0.4) carat ring from tiffany and co (and she though we could not tell) and her " How do I know he's the one?..I just know........." lol.. seriously.. i am happy for you gal! yes mr barney is not getting younger, and ur ever youthful looks will definately come in handy down the road. my god.. i cannot imagine u in a wedding gown gal!! and lets not forget the sword cermony with tons of handsome young pilots!ooo.. u better practise walking ur high heels right now!

feizi, you always been the nicest person around, and sadly the type i would bully and tease at, but i do stand up for u once in a while right. not to mention how could me and miss blur ever get thru uni without you reminding us of all our datelines and projects.. u ever paitent, organised, neat, hardworking, quiet, simple, contented person (all opposites of me i noticed) .. how lucky of barney to have found you and taken care of u.. you must be happy k and should he bully u, you know who to look for! looking forward to more of ur good news!

BZ WITH WORK. BZ WITH OTHER STUFF.

ITS 2 AM .. I SHOULD BE SLEEPING.

simple minded. not being it does not mean u have to be complicated. for a moment i was confused. for a moment i dun know whether i was thinking too much, thinking too little , or i was not thinking at all..

being ur own boss.. i always thought it takes great courage to be ur own boss. later when i started working, i thought one needed great vision to be ur own boss.. now i saw something else, the desire to fulfill ur dreams.. and the passion to maintain it.. be ur own boss.. start a biz, have a vision and just do it

passion purpose and drive. how many of us have all of those?

found a home cupcake workshop! anyone wants to attend cupcakes workshop with me? >.<
Date of Workshop : Friday 21 September
Time of Workshop : 7.30pm - 10pm
location : somewhere in marine parade
will be making these :Oreo Cheese Cupcakes, Boston Carrot Cupcakes, Expresso Cupcakes with Devilish Expresso Frosting >.<

http://creativehomebaking.blogspot.com/

pls ignore the following..

i am feeling materialistic.
i want good food. i want to go out.. i want to spend $$ happily on myself and friends and love ones.. i want to be able to justify things i do for what i am.i want to eat nice icecream, i dun want to feel constrained everything i step into a shopping mall. i dun want to stop telling myself: i have no money, i dun need that. i want to spurge! i want to buy books and dresses. i want to look decent. i dun want to spotty face.. i want to go spa and buffets and facial.. i want to pamper myself...i want to be a clown and make pple laugh!! hahaha... the most impt qns is..who doesnt?

i am bored. hence i am wasting time. but heres some cute stuff to share.. wonder if one day i can make something like them!

all pics courtesy of http://mypapercrane.com/

pple who noe me know i like to make/mess up/cut up/sew up stuff.. and once in a while, when feel its necessary to (my own necessity, not urs)..i will make something for u.. maybe its just a little card for ur little injured thumb (jill in 2402- accident in chemistry lab) or mel for the fever ( who couldnt get out of bed for a day) or its ur special birth-day (a card or pushie) or just that u are feeling sad (work pal yanni whom i gave a little cloud on knowing her for less than 1 week to cheer her up).. or maybe the big red bright calender for bombers 07 or the newsletter for 3302 gals 5 yrs anniversary.. or just banana cupcakes for my dear..

it started out with paper collages.. or watever u call them lots of pieces of colourful paper on each other.. then came felt from the spotlight in tamp.. then for a moment i wanted to take up digital scrap booking cos the physical ones where simply too exp.. but of course that din take off cos my comp did not have space for all the pretty stencils and paper prints from the net..perhaps the best i could do was a photoshopPed card for a friend or two once in a while..



wat i am trying to say here i am not clear myself.. just that as rash as i am.. more often than not i do things without a concern for others 's perception (feelings are already out of the question)..lol thats all.. so if u ever felt weird that something i gave you was out of the way, out of the blue, out of the world (not very often) i would like to say.. ' hey i spent time doing it for u.. i enjoyed the process.. so i hope u like it too'.. cos there is one person i never make things for.. that s me..

Ella蔷蔷
还记得你喜欢咬着我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球
要我陪你玩丢丢
你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁
没有烦忧 在梦里遨游
好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妈咪这么久
你并没有离开我
是搬到天堂生活
蔷蔷你要记得我
你不要走丢
快快找到天使
在天堂给我保佑
蔷蔷不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中

mtv: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLHqAgN1j6M

woke up this morning to this song blasting from my bro's comp.. distintively i could tell its ella from her low husky feminine voice, singing abt something called qiang qiang, which i though was cockroach.. but later to my sadness i found out it was a song she wrote in memory to her pug whom passed away due to a life of illness. v nice and touching song, could feel her sadness.. and in another way, could tell that ella wants to teach pple to be positive no matter wat happens. hope u like the song too!

last night was caught up with this few thoughts:
why does the letter L usually associated with negative words (by me) such as
Lazy
Lousy
Loose
lan lan (dialect)

i guess thats just goes to show how lousy my vocab is...

oh yes i made cupcakes on this weekend, but i forgot to put in the nuts in the state of fenziness.. so its just banana cupcakes.. eatable, not poisonable yet..so i guess its still safe. and my dear is sick.. couldnt do anything to make him feel better.. tats pretty lousy.. makes me want to rethink my own worth to the world again..other than creating refuse, exhaust and wasting energy, wat did i do today ??

do u look forward to going sch everyday? do u wake up every morning with zest knowing that u are going to make THE difference today?

i have a boss who have a paperweight rock that says Accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory.. more often than not, i feel like throwing the rock at him when work gets out of hand. then again.. i do see a lot of motivated pple around me.. who knows perfectly well what they want to do with their life and where they want to end up at.. wat abt me? wat abt someone who has no ambition but that of getting a pay that would allow me to have an allowance that is more than that of a jc kid? tell me!!

well there are always things to look forward to this weekend . TGIF!!
- BAKING MACEDAMINA BANANA CUPCAKES
- GOING TO TIMES BOOK FAIR AT EXPO
- SLEEPING IN ON SUN AND SAT

finally its over, the heart aching week. in terms of work, i am glad i got something out of it, something satisfactory for a time being. for every weepy moment, i was glad there was a shoulder i knew i could lie on..funny how life starts and ends within each of us in each menstrual cycle.. ok maybe i am blunt or v blunt.. but perhaps its just me but its wat causing the world to turn on its axis, thats wat making women pmsy and frustrated and thats wat make men go bonkers to why can some women be so irritating..

life is like a batch of cupcakes, you never know wat you are going to get..
a few weeks prior to this post.. i was actually quite fanatic abt cupcakes.. and of course i wanted to make them.. simply looking at the blogs and online pics was not enough.. how can u resist something that looks like this?



then again.. thats like the most dangerously looking cupcake i have seen.. tempting one to sink her teeth in it!
and ambitious i was, i made my first batch of cupcakes.. and here i present the most pretty looking one!!



as u can see.. they dun exactly fill the cups.. cos i din add in milk as required in the reciple. as the result, they came out not as fluffy.. any everyone complained that it was a little dense.. as here came the second batch.. in short i did put milk this time.. it overflowed...



they are pretty ugly.. but they do taste good. and i think there is something wrong with the oven, cause they all rised in one direction.. >.<.. and overflowed in the process.. hopefully next time it will be better.. :>