(the previous post has been extrememly self-centered, pls excuse it)

today is good friday.. wat should i say.. happy good friday to all!!
i am here. in my hall. lamenating..
too fast too soon, i have got no enough time.. i need more time.
down with a flu too.. blown my nose so much that it peeled. not gone to any doc, cos the docs in ntu - medical center - is pathetic, even the teacher says so. think will be stuck around in boon lay for the next 2 weeks.. mean a bout three weeks in total i think.. how will i survive.. i canot imagine the exams starting. it will be the worse so far, and i desperately want to do well.. and i think its going to be real competitive, cos everyone is \doing great too. how can i be better?.. perhaps instead of looking at that.. i should ask.. how can i do my v best?..

aim for the moon, for at least when u fail, u'll fall among the stars

i am aiming for the moon. somewat unrealistic, i think i will end up in some black hole...

recently felt rather useless, numb actually always been like that. not that i have always been passionate or somehing.. (not talking aabt life) perhaps our ideals and views are v different, too different its temping to challenge, and deadly too to the r.s. but hey.. then u r telling miss yuan to keep mum. thats like.. wat else can she do?.. thinking too mcuh? that may not be a bad idea.. my ideas are usually noT 'appropriate' - politically speaking- why?? WHY CANT I BE CORRECT FOR ONCE?
perhaps there should be some end somewhere.. not happy why carry on? becos u need to? becos u are afraid to? becos there is nothing else to do? i am not angry nor am i sad. numb u see. it goes on and on in my head why is it like this. and no answer can be heard, or am i blocking it out.

happy exams to all.