yupp.. this is my 240th post.. wats so interesting abt this no?

i was born on the 24 of july.. i was first enrolled in 2402 when i first went to tjc during the first three months.. and when i was in pri 2..my class was 2/4..lol.. thats all.. enough crap.. lets get to serious stuff..

well u all know that my comp is fixed.. well.. why have i not been blogging.. there is only a few reasons to why crazyyuan will suddenly disappear from her blog for a long period of time.. one of them is that due to the breakdown of my computer, causing me to be inaccessible to technology.. and another reason is that i am in a bad mood. hence i need to calm down before i sprout any rubbish i would regret..and another reason would be that i am extremely busy..
well the qn here is .. wat have i been busy with.. since my comp is up and running again.. and i believe my mood have been ok all these while.. i wonder what i have been buzy with..
seconds by second.. minutes by minutes, hours by hours.. time is ticking down and disappearing into thin air.. air that is thinner than me.. just when i though i was thin.. there is somthing thinner than me and that is swallowing up everything everyone is trying to hold on to... back to wat i am buzy about.. actually i have no idea.. i am puzzled..thats why i am here to blog.. to come to terms with myself.. maybe i can find some answers here...perhaps theres no need to.. its staring right into my face.. PROCRASTINATION.. LAZYINESS..

sometimes i want to believe that i cannot do things.. so that there will be no expectations.. sometimes i just want to believe everything is fated.. everything happen for a reason.. every event is a lesson from which u can learn from.. life is a real classroom from which u really should lean from.. but ironically.. i fail terribly in my duties of living (studies) in my attenpt to study life.. and then another qn arrises.. if u are learning from life.. why is it that u have yet to realise that everything u have should be cherished.. or it shall be taken away from u one day eventtually.. yes.. why be so stubborn and lead a life that pple worry for u and have to make sure they keep an eye on u while u wander carelessly else where... in search of an answer that does not have much importance at this moment of time?
have i grown up at all?.. can that be measured by the fact that i am now in university... that i am now 19 yrs old.. the experiences i have and how i have overcomed them and understood them .. my thoughts, my maturity, my accomplishments..
the papers i have got, the results i have achieved.. the ability to take care of myself.. to gain the trust of fellow adults.. to be able to take on responsibility and be responsible for ur own actions..wat are those?..

wat am i blabbering?.. does it matter?.. i dun think so...
well... at least i am an average mind...

yup.. friday is tut day..
i do my tuts on fridays.. despite tmw is a holiday.. i am still in hall.. cos i got tons of tut to do..lol.. including a lot of readings.. so selamat hari raya to rosie!! my dear muslim friend and to everyone else.. hope u all have a good long weekend.. yeah. take this time to relax if u have been bz and take this time to catch up.. if u have been playing..ha.. i sound so studious.. i realised that i did something familar done by someone.. ha.. that is to spend a lot of time recording down wat one should do and organising stuff.. but not doing any..lol..i should get to work.. well shall start tmw!~

hihi.. i am back again.. about the previous entry..hmm i spoke to the person liao. and apologised of course.. of course he is not so petty as to bear grudges with me .. but i still feel bad.. well i guess it just teach me not to flare my temper at people again.. thanks yingling and roomie for the advices..

my computer is back!! yup i think u all can see.. that why i am blogging.. can u imagine having to go to a public computer to blog.. when everyone is looking over ur back to see wat u are typing?.. just kidding.. its not so bad.. its for pple to see anyway.. well life is back to normal.. school is rolling.. and i have started to skip lectures too ..lol.. not all.. the wednesday 830 one is just too much for me.. i couldnt even open my eyes.. how do u expect me to sprint down all the way to sem room 6 that is all the way at the other side of ntu?.. chances are i will be knocked down before u could even say 'ntu'.. had blk supper two nights ago.. it was good.. i think candanian pizza is not bad.. i took ONE bite.. hmm taste not bad.. the chew kuey..haha.. never took a sniff.. and the chickenwings?.. they took off by dozens, flying out of the tray like they have got wings..but all in all it was great.. a good start to a new year..

quite sian sia.. i have got tons of readings to catch up with.. and i really mean tons.. they are like piling up.. and i am ever procratinatng.. well if i never get started.. i will never warm up and start going.. so will be starting soon.. but tomorrow is hari raya. siao.. have to bring the books home...haha can i rent a cargo ship or something?..

Megafest is nearing too.. ha.. next thurs to be exact.. JellyCity.. wat do u think of this name.. i came up with it for out store .. we are selling jellies!! and since we are from publicity, i guess its only right to call it jellycity!! and i even thought of a tag line.. "very steady!"..lol.. pls dun bang ur head against the screen...lol..

life goes no.. there night cycling to look forward to and then theres talentime..haha.. do u think i should go test out the judges ears to see how good their judgement are?... how i envy those who can stand up on a stag and show no fear and entertain pple... too bad i guess.. everyone is good at something else i guess..

"Our minds are like parachutes, they only work when they are open."
-my biz law tutor

i did something bad.. and it has been bothering me.. i cannot remember the details.. but i think i made wrong judgement and was quick to blame the one person. my temper exploded then and for a moment, i did not care and actually spoke my mind, tacklessly, the words that came out of my mouth was unfriendly and unpleasant. i am regretful for flaring my temper, but i guess the person will not understand. when was the last time i raised my voice at someone.. when was the last time u did something like that. Should anyone have the right to do that? can i assume that pple will understand that sometimes, people have moods and certain events trigger ur emotions to the extend that u feel like shouting, for a moment then, i felt like not caring for any conseqences that my follow. i dun think so.. i would say that even if u are not in the good mood .. it gives u no right to talk to someone on top of ur voice. i did wrong and my thick skin is in the way of saying 'dui bu qi'.. three simple words of ' i am sorry'.. cos for a fact i think i is angry.. he should be angry.. i would be angry.. wat should i do?.. i have no idea...

同类 by sun yan zi
曲：李偲菘 | 词：易家扬 | 编：Terence Teo

雨后的城市 寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位 它空着在等谁


我拉住时间 它却不理会
有没有别人 跟我一样很想被安慰


风 停了又吹 我忽然想起谁
天 亮了又黑 我过了好几岁
心 暖了又灰 世界
有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类


爱 收了又给 我们都不太完美
梦 作了又碎 我们有几次机会 去追
不晓得为甚么爱 又稀少又昂贵


云在半空中 被微风剪碎
回忆也许美 可是正在飞走对不对

They say a person needs just three things to be truely happy inthis world:
someone to love,
something to do,
and something to hope for
Tom Bodett

well.. i am not sure if i agree with this quote, but indeed.. i do find it rather interesting.. can u imagine, if u got noone to love, and if got nothing to do and u have not nothing to hope for, how miserable life would be?


sometimes, i hope that life is just a simple thing, maybe it is, its just pple and your relationship with them, haha.. begining to sound like OB, organisational behaviour, a module i am taking this sem, and something which i find to be of quite commom sense, just that pple actually bother to write them down in black and white.. ha.. no lah.. all this is impt, we make too much assumptions in our daily lives, we have expections and sometimes expect others to follow them , to live up to them or even understand why such expectations exist, we judge pple, we place our own standards on others.. there is nothing wrong this really i think... everyone does tat.. its just how often u do it.. and do u realise that u do it? i try not to judge, i remember a nice quote.. which goes something like.. if u judge, u forget to love,.. something like that.. guess that when we judge pple, we forget to see them and understand and accpet them for who they are.. haha
wat am i talking?... got a tut at 230.. have to go.. will continue~

wow.. have not posted since Jan 8... hmm actually its not a very long period of tme.. but since my comp is down.. it does feel like a very ling time.. my roomie and i agreed that we miss blogging, and me especially miss blasting music in my room, ha.. THE SILENCE IS DEAFENING!!yupz.. wat else.. life is great lately.. i wanted to say that i have finally come to terms with my terrible results.. but i cannot.. cos the impact has not hit me unitl i realised that i cannot take any GE other that in the intersem periods.. lol. wat am i to do?.. and just last night.. i realised that i have three tutorials on monday!!arh.. buz law and econs and OB!!! seminars all on weds and acc tut on tuesday with the other two lecs.. that means that my week is generally over by wed afternoon... :P

Went birdpark today with WSCRSPID today..the parrots are so colourful, the kookabaras are soooooo big!! and the vultures and menancing looking and the eagles are huge!!!!eveyone should go down there once in a while !!

and a picture speaks a thousand words~



SIX HEADS ARE BETTER THAN ONE!!





No.. we did not take this at the birdpark...





the million dollar qn:why am i so happy?

and the answer is simple... i have got my ..




FRIENDS




AND FOOD



AND MY DEAR~

hey pple.. anyone interested in coming down to Zouk this wed?.. yeah its this 5 Jan.. me will be selling bash tickets~ $16 which included two free drinks~. its ladies night.. so ladies get free entry after 1030.. come anyway yeah!..if interested contact me!!

sad news.. my computer is down again.. haiz~..first it was the ram now its the graphic card.. now thats school is starting.. i have no comp to use.. ha.. wat am i going to do?..well.. wat have i got to say.. i just wanna say that i am very grateful that singapore is not badly affected by the tsunami..the rest doesnt really matter.. just want everyone to be safe and sound.. take care to everyone~ Have a safe new year.