yupp.. this is my 240th post.. wats so interesting abt this no?

i was born on the 24 of july.. i was first enrolled in 2402 when i first went to tjc during the first three months.. and when i was in pri 2..my class was 2/4..lol.. thats all.. enough crap.. lets get to serious stuff..

well u all know that my comp is fixed.. well.. why have i not been blogging.. there is only a few reasons to why crazyyuan will suddenly disappear from her blog for a long period of time.. one of them is that due to the breakdown of my computer, causing me to be inaccessible to technology.. and another reason is that i am in a bad mood. hence i need to calm down before i sprout any rubbish i would regret..and another reason would be that i am extremely busy..
well the qn here is .. wat have i been busy with.. since my comp is up and running again.. and i believe my mood have been ok all these while.. i wonder what i have been buzy with..
seconds by second.. minutes by minutes, hours by hours.. time is ticking down and disappearing into thin air.. air that is thinner than me.. just when i though i was thin.. there is somthing thinner than me and that is swallowing up everything everyone is trying to hold on to... back to wat i am buzy about.. actually i have no idea.. i am puzzled..thats why i am here to blog.. to come to terms with myself.. maybe i can find some answers here...perhaps theres no need to.. its staring right into my face.. PROCRASTINATION.. LAZYINESS..

sometimes i want to believe that i cannot do things.. so that there will be no expectations.. sometimes i just want to believe everything is fated.. everything happen for a reason.. every event is a lesson from which u can learn from.. life is a real classroom from which u really should lean from.. but ironically.. i fail terribly in my duties of living (studies) in my attenpt to study life.. and then another qn arrises.. if u are learning from life.. why is it that u have yet to realise that everything u have should be cherished.. or it shall be taken away from u one day eventtually.. yes.. why be so stubborn and lead a life that pple worry for u and have to make sure they keep an eye on u while u wander carelessly else where... in search of an answer that does not have much importance at this moment of time?
have i grown up at all?.. can that be measured by the fact that i am now in university... that i am now 19 yrs old.. the experiences i have and how i have overcomed them and understood them .. my thoughts, my maturity, my accomplishments..
the papers i have got, the results i have achieved.. the ability to take care of myself.. to gain the trust of fellow adults.. to be able to take on responsibility and be responsible for ur own actions..wat are those?..

wat am i blabbering?.. does it matter?.. i dun think so...
well... at least i am an average mind...