would u think its funny
would u think its weird
if i tell u this

that i look at the sky everyday
to make sure nothing is amiss

i want to make sure the sun is there
the clouds are grey
and the rain is coming
and the moon is gay
stars are sparking
like they always do
every so happily
in the sea of blue

dun really think pple do that
until yingling taged me oneday
and told me to take a breather
and look forward to meeting again

for a while i though v hard
how many stars are there in the sky
dun u ever realise
that the more u try to see
the more u are unsatisfied?

for its not there when u dun notice
it does not make an impact to ur life
but if u do stop to take a look
you will see that all else is a lie

things are not just wat they seem to be
its just how u look at them
the deeper you go
you will soon see how much more wrong u can be

the more u study
the more u realise that there is so much u dun see

the more u see
the more u realise that u really need to study

to learn to live
and living to learn
its such a tedious cycle

perhaps u should be like me
stop and look into the sky
ignore wat the others are doing
count the stars u see
as though u are counting your blessings

the moment u start
is the moment u forget
that life is not all abt walking forward
its not abt getting ahead
its about who u are
its abt who u have met
its abt how that makes pple's lives change
for its not all fate.

she is prettier than me
got brighter eyes
walks slower than me

she's sweeter
and more gentle
and speaks not loudly like me

she's cuter
and neater
and she stands straigher than me

she's friendlier
she's funnier
and her figure's better than me

she's got dress sense
she's got the brains
the dean's list i will never be

she's my idol
she's my goal
she will never be me.

we have a imageing woman who said all nbs pple look like clones.. cos we always have black blazers.. the safest colour... guess wat.. when pple do buy other colours.. they go around borrowing black blazers.. cos they dun want to stand out too much for grp presentations.. lol well.. thats wat i call singaporeans

每个梦都得到祝福每颗泪都变成珍珠
每盏灯都像许愿的蜡烛每一天都值得庆祝

当年的你什么都怕怎么会变成了警察
你不是说永远不嫁暂时生了个胖娃娃
我们都在温柔的长大让简单都变的复杂
当初最简单的梦就别忘啦!!喔~鸣~喔~~

每个梦都得到祝福每颗泪都变成珍珠
每盏灯都像许愿的蜡烛每一天都值得庆祝

没有一点少数尴尬计较着彼此的变化
心烦了才是苦哈哈这一刻烦恼谁理他

我们还在慢慢的长大迟早会看见白头发
女生眼神的单纯不会氧化-----喔~鸣~喔

每个梦都得到祝福每颗泪都变成珍珠
每盏灯都像许愿的蜡烛每一天都值得庆祝

看不到成熟的辛苦听不见世界的忙碌
梦穿着无忧无虑的制服在心里长着一颗树

每个梦都得到祝福每颗泪都变成珍珠
每盏灯都像许愿的蜡烛每一天都值得庆祝

歌曲：都是你
歌手：光良

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

maybe its just zihui.. known for saying wrong things, doing wrong things..occationsally.. thinking wrong stuff... but recently i just feel that.. perhaps things are just different le.. the only sad thing is that i cant turn back.
人生不在于拥有，不在于占有。只要能 为他人的心房点亮 一盏小灯， 那也是直的庆祝的

one report down and... two more presentations and one more 2000 word report to go..

think theres no pt complaining the u FASS pple there right. u prob tell me that u have to write essays like that every week..ha.. poor thing

on my way to sch.. i though of many things.. though i can share some of it here.. 2 hrs worth. just some of it for u..

well first of all .. i though of the articels i have read on newspapers.. i am always attracted to the part where they say a particular sport/ hhobby helps u build character..take eg running.. cos i happen to see pple running along the road outiside ntu.. if u run like me.. run one km walk one km.. must ru with pple or else not motivated.. hey i dun think u have character.. i mean.. u must persevere right.. jsut bcos no one is pushing u frm behind u dun run.. thnk i am v like that.. no one push me.. i wun run.. wat a lack of discilpine
maybe thats it.. then i figured.. only dsicipline leads to sucess.. be it discipline in trying / working/failing.. it will lead to success..
and i took a mental note to put it down on my msn nick.. only discipline leads to sucess..stop slacking..

then i though.. its really time to stop slacking le.. i dun want to tabao this sem.. i dun watn,, i must do everymean to stop that from happening.. then i started frowning.. and one ah bing ge siting opp me stared at me..lol

and then i though,, perhaps pple are like castes.. and they are constantly visited by pple by other castes. these pple are ambassitors of other castes.. i have my own abassitors too .. my attitiude, by actions and my voice my tone.. we are constant accpeting pple's comments abt us.. we are also constantly being bashed by pple;s comments.. watever u get wat i mean
then in each castle there are secret rooms.. that contain our darkest secrets.. those with v few secret will have many brightly lit rooms.. but less dark rooms.. everyone have secrets.. those who are young at heart will have colourful rooms of toys in the castle . whil othere have more serious stuff like books.. others will have bertha mason at the hidden attic on the third story..lol
mean while there will be a room full of mirrors. ya. like in the bloody chamber. where the no of mirrors actually represent how self consious u are.. i figured.. actually if u are v self consious.. no amt of mirrors will be enough..cos u are always worried by how pple look at u.. but if u are no.. one small one will do fine.. ha. right?..

perhaps that why pple say u can tell a person's personality by their houses.. i prefer castles.. perhaps i liek fantasy stuff bah.. the prince and princess and horses and horizon stuff.. lol its jsut me dreaminf

was blog hopping.. and came across these.. long time nvr do le.. those who noe me well noes that my real blood type is A+, but the one on my IC is AB.. lol long story.. true too .. and here it is B..lol

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

yes.. and its quite true i follow my own rules in life .. and change often.. cos i think if there arent any rules which i live by.. i would go crazy by all the other rules set by other pple..

so wats my current rule:
THERE ARE NO RULES IN LIFE!!

stuck on my computer moniter is a bookmark that says:

learn to forget the tough times, but never forget wat they taught you.

i always though that the quote was rather meaningful, and tried hard to folow it, but i realised that i seldom did ,, cos i make mistakes as often as i can remember themm..
the another quote i have is
the only disabilily in life is a bad attitude.

i dun think i have one.. its just that the bad attitude emerges once in a while.. all these excuses.. why do i give them to myself?

last friday i wanted to go donate blood, when there was a blood drive in sch.. however apparently after a long heavy week of ssch, the nurse told me that i had too low a blood pressure.. and i couldnt donate blood.. i felt sad.. worse thing.. one week later.. i realised i lost my IC.. terrible. cos the last time i saw it was at the blood donation drive.. sucks.. terrible.. wat do i learn?.. dun try too hard when u noe things are going ur way..

this sem is going to be hard.. projects are getting on my nerves.. i hope to cope, i want to cope, but my spirits are not, my body is not.. getting tired easily.. i feel like a hopless person.. why is everyone in the world coping and i am not.. pple ahve to travel home after sch, and all i have to do is take a shutter bus back hall to only fall into my bed and collapse in tiredness.. lol howe useless.. and of coures not to forget. i can only get assigments taht my roomie have read through.. cos she would give 'some' corrections to make them readerable so my tut will think.. zihui.. u did a good job!.. arhh.. wat is this! cant even do a proper assignment on my own.. i dun always ask her for help.. but i am always grateful she offers.. thanks roomie. really really appreciate it .. even thouhg i do say it to u b4.. just want to tell u so again..

to all my friends.. exams in like less than one months time.. take care.. get plenty of rest yeah.. its a long journey and we need lots of rest to make it though..

4 more weeks, to exams.. or to my death.. i wonder.. and the next two weeks i will be packed down by presentations and reports.. tell me
how will i survive?

i need a break..(someting i am having now)
i need a hand.. literally something to hold on to..
i need more time. so i can actually get down to studying
i need a new roomie.. jsut in case my current one leave soon.. i will be very sad

who will i groan to when she leaves?.. who will i complain to>.. who will i scream at?.. and vice versa.. perhaps singlehooh will mould me into a stronger person.

i shold stop starting at pple on the streets.. i should not be turing green at the slightest thing i dun have..
i am becoming so selfish.. so competitive .. that i am ashamed of myself.

i was once confused of which voice should i listen to in my brain.. the first one?. the counterargue one? or just the mean and nice one..
now i noe.. the first one is who u are.. the second voice is always ur consiouse..
and which one is more powerful? of course the first one.. cos thats who u are.. trying to attain the ideal self and losing oneself in the process.lol..

there.. i just craped another entry.. recently read my past blog entries. .. figured i like the poems best.. those of donne and gothic.. i am so amused.. perhaps i should write some poems again soon..

roses are red
violets are blue
can u tell
i am thinkin of u?

the sun is setting.
homework still undone..
the phone is ringing
got hall stuff to run

where did the time go
where did my day went
just want to take a break
and never wake up again

u cant sleep properly
u cant have timely meals
u cant walk straight
and u look like a snail

u dun dress up
but u noe u care
and when u really do.
pple stare.

wats with the attention
i just want to be me
drop me a msg
and tell if u agree.

after the johari craze.. which somehing i took part for fun.. i wrote a v long post.. but as usual, blogger was not trustwrothy enough to post it

but the newest thing i want to introdure to everyone is this site

www.twochineseboys.blogspot.com

a must check it out.. and i would say.. they are much nicer that xia xue .. and they are damn funny
first time i say it was when some yr one played their video in a comp in front of me.. i suppressed my laughter till i died.. really they are v funny!! so when exams are near.. forward the link man...

they are suppose to be from PRC.. but they look a bit sg hor..lol that wat i though so in the first place.. but amazingly.. they are BIG on the web.. really

Known as the The Dormitory Boys or 后舍男生
try finding their videos online.. u will be so amused.. tong hua is v nice lor a start.. two drama king.. wat can get better..hee