its like women and their sexuality
since when and why is it a taboo for women to be comfortable with it?
why do we have to be the infeior one?

and to be straight i need more gal friends.
that alone sounds funny
at least i noe more than one person who is more comfortable talking to guys than gals.
dun u think so?guys purely see pple around them like fellow men or their men. thats how they rank their friends. in some way or another
for gals. clase friend, not so friend, ok friend, bitchy friend, shopping friend , hi bye friend. so many who is not confused sometimes i am myself. i have two categories
gd friends 95% and not so gd friends 5%
i may not talk to u often . but if i smile at u . u are my good friend
if i only noe u for 2 days, i can tell which category u are in if i am telling u dirty jokes
its hard to get into my not so gd friend category. u must first backstab me. then wat i dunnoe. perhaps the first pt is enough. then where do this 5 % come from? ha.. u backstab me by being the friend of whom backstab me. ha.. thats enough.
dun u think its tiring? i think so..
perhaps thats why pple think i am weird. i can talk and smile and crap with pple whom i dun noe.. thats not gd in someways.

things i want to do NOW:
- get out of hall
- sleep
- do my tut
- buy a mag called 'play times'(anyone seen it sold anywhere?? its not porn..)
- own driving license
- sit in that suv again.. it rocks.
- be more independent
- stop feeling guilty for the breakup
- make more money so i can give my mom and dad an early retirement