.. that is just one of the nicest thing u said..

probably to address some queries too..ha..

"i always thought zihui is a strong gal"
" how come u cry so easily now"

some things are easier typed than said.. rather than said than done..

i was a strong gal.. some of my friends who have know me a long time have hardly ever seen me shed a tear or two.. unless a sand were to do into my eye.. of course.. its harder then cos i always wore specs.. and once in a while.. i still do. perhaps being with u. i have learn to let loose and not be so 'tough' anymore.. there was no need to stand up to anyone.. no need to try to be someone else.. but sometimes i guess its just pms that i am really moodly and the slightest unhappy idea/message/intention on my mind trigger tears .. and no matter how i try to stop then.. they just dun stop. perhaps i have become sedimental. like a weed grown fond of the fence it has been leaning on.. once the fence is removed.. the weed falls... too easily it falls.. for a moment one could understand wat they mean when they say they wun bother if the sky were to fall on them as they had each other..

its only in front of the closest pple do i shed any tear.. still the tough and garang person i hope am.. be for my parents .. not being a good enough filial daughter, for my whole family.. not being a good enough child .. for my dear.. no being a good enough person for u.. but i will try my bestest!! lol .. happy 5th month in advance dear~