nothng.. really..
i had these thoughts and i shared it with my roomie and i am greatly heartened that she understood...

it about having control.. having power... which of course gives u responsibilty.. have been thinking about this matter for quite a while now.. but i can never eem to make the sense out of it.. it just so happened that xuemei's father was driving me and my bro back to hostel.. and i was thinking.. why i never took up driving.. one reason was that i knew that if i was the one behind the whell.. i would be a bad driver.. one that would be emotional.. well.. if i see someone speeding pass me above the allowed rate..chances are i would not stop at contiuing my normal legal speed.. well.. dun really noe what i would do.. but one think i noe is that i may be evil and out of anger.. running down pple would not be out of the qns if i am really angry and irrational of course.. well figyre thats wat will happen if i am give power.. or control over something.. the abilty to command the direction of a machine that can help in transportation may just end up to me another killer weapon to me... well it does not stop at driving anyway.. it doesnt even start at driving really...

coming to Uni.. i am pretty amused to the many friend i made in the block i live in... well of course a great some is contributed to my brother.. cos i had got to known his friends as well..and then me got many pretty friendly camp mates and neighbours as well.. and as the result of that.. pple asked me to be the block rep.. partly contrtibuted to knowing my gl who is a block rep as well.. well no big deal really.. but to me.. it seems that BIG.. dun ask me why.. just the name scares me off a bit.. no want no lime light... not that there is going to be a lot.. i hope.. so i am still thinking.. should i go for block supper tmw night?..its then when they will vote for their block rep.. pray i dun get voted... watever...
well to share an incident that happened recently.. having the hall committee gathered in my rrom to talk abt the movie night event we were planning and giving us instrucions to go ahead with the event.. i was truely quite fresked out.. cos maybe the responsibility they entrsted in us or watever stuff.... me never really conmfy with that kind of..'i believe u will go a god job' stuff or ' ok.. the events is in our hands now'...yuck.. thats why when pple come asking me hey.. are u going to run for block rep?.. i usually try to avoid thw qn... am i rude?... i am just not comf...

okokok enough of heavy stuff!!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!
yap yap yap!!.. 39 years old liao..haha.. singapore.. cannot really say me a patriotic person.. but i pretty like u for who u are.. well admire u in some way.. cos even when u are small.. and are looked down by many others.. u stood up strong and showed thw world wat u could do!.. believing in ur pple and although they are your only resourses... u all fought hard through crisis after crisis... and although pple say we are a nanny state.. and we listen to watever the govt tell us to do.. the pple are also gradually standing up against the world for themselves and tell the world wat we can do..
as a 19 year old.. i cannot say that singapore have not anything for me.. haha.. other than a very tiring route of education.. which have given me some edge or another over others... i am pretty much contented with my family and friends...

well i miss national day in primary and sec and jc days..!! days we all wore red and white to school.. or even.. red and white ribbons to school.. sing out loud 'where i belong' and 'chan mali chan' n ' we are singapore' and ;stand up for singapore' out loud like primary school kids.. no matter how old we where.. be it that u really love singapore.. but i am glad there is this where everyone in in red and remembers that we are all singaporean... and no matter wat.. we are one pple one nation.. one singapore! :P