tell me why? tell me why?
tell me whiy i am i still here blogging?
arhhh
i always thought it was weird of my neighbour to use her laptop under her desk sitting on the floor.. wat do u noe.. i am doing it right now lor.. her fujitsu laptop.. stylo man.. so new.. so smooth, so compact.. and i just borrowed it becos my comp is down!!!!!!!!!! again.. sian.. so sian.. so to check some answers.. have to borrow her pretty little laptop.. yup
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sian arh
tomorrow first paper!!! i am so sick i can cry.. and then i am telling myself... why are u whining??? why?? arhhh i understand.. but i cannot apply.. why am i complaining ?? did i put my best foot forward?? only i noe.. did i do my best?.. i believe i did..but am i lying to myself?.. i cannot do anyworse... i am here blogging.. and i deserve a big tight slap on my face.. no.. that would be a wasteof anyone's effort.. am i putting enough affort to convince everyone especially myself?.... am i ?.. who doesnt want to do well.. tell me??.. everyone does.. but everyone have different expectations dun they?.. why am i imposing pple's expectations on me?? arh?? i said to my roomie.. am i pathetic?... and i replied later that its too pathetic to even reply to a person like me.... i mean pple can say.. got exam. must work hard ,study, mug.. and i do the same too.. with the max i can offer.. but thats like the min pple are giving.. i dun noe if i should laugh or cry.. maybe its just me trying to run away.. from responsibilities... for working.. from everything.. giving the excuse that i am not the type for studying..ha.. ya.. if i dun understand the concept behind anything.. theres not much use for me memorising it.. and why am i not understanding?.. if i noe the answer.. i would not be here.... conclusion... just do MY best.. its not the best.. but have to make do with it right?... now.. and i was hoping.. i could come up with a better and more motivated conclusion.. maybe i am just not enlightened yet...

jia you all ntu pple reading my bloggie.. all the best!!