Ever got so frustrated with urself until u dun know wat to do? like a kid who is forced to make a choice between getting a new toy or going on a holiday.ok bad analogy,but cant seem to find anyway else to put it.
given a choice..(and budget) there are so many things i would want. who wouldnt u would think.. but understanding the reason being needs and desires .. i try to make do with wat i have n wat i have not. making do and being grateful to stuff..

sometimes when giving a choice to having somehing.. i question whether i deserve it..
with nothng much to begin with in the first place..sometimes.. even the smallest stuff are luxury to me..
- being able to go out(doesnt matter where). having great companionship(doesnt matter when), having a new wallet(doesnt matter wat brand), able to oogle at pretty stuff(doesnt matter if i can buy them),eating my fav foods(doesnt matter even if its once in a while), being able to talk to u abt how i feel (happy or sad)and u being there for me always.. i am grateful..

i aint good with words. i aint the type who asks for things..but it so happens tat someone manage to read my mind once in a while and see the stuff i really really really dun mind having (means i really like..lol.. but its just not me to do something abt it). and like a little fairy u fulfil the tiny wishes i have. this got nothing to do with physical items. just that u are everything i always wanted it to be.. really..(except for the million n one pple b4 hand..lol and no chase..)

luv u very much dear.. happy first month!~