Just received a new huggie from my dear , its a baby Eeyore!
just about a few years ago during internship i bought a eeyore head bean bag for fun as a cushion for the chair.. then b4 then i had this towel material eeyore softtoy bought from the charity during v day from myself..lol and these cuddly stuff often lay arund my hall room or at home.. and to much of my amusement, pple would ask ' who buy for u?' and i would say i buy for myself..lol interesting i would think.. why cant i buy for myself? lol

the eeyore in my memory is often that of gloomy and sluggish. and blue.. but always trying hard to get things done.. espeically when it was for his friends.. in some way. that personality appealed to me much more than the other characters.. pooh was too popular.. piglet was too pink and cute and scary, tiger was too bouncy.. thought thats wat i would really like to be.. but i think i would be quite irritating.. then again.. being friends is able understanding and tolerating each other..
then i went to research on eeyore on the disney web.. and this was wat i found!

Eeyore is everyone's favorite delightfully dismal donkey. But Eeyore doesn't see himself as gloomy -- he just has low expectations. He expects nothing from anybody, so whenever his friends do come to his aid his expectations of the worst are overthrown, and he is sincerely grateful. Eeyore's tiny bright pink bow on his tail, the one hint of color against his gray, is a perfect symbol of the kernel of joy that occasionally surfaces in Eeyore. Though he may pretend he's helping because there's nothing better to do -- make no mistake, Eeyore is always there for his friends.

Debut: 1966 - Winnie the Pooh and the Honey Tree
Role: Melancholy stuffed donkey
Hobbies: Constantly losing his tail, moping about
Favorite Phrase: "It's not much of a tail, but I'm sort of attached to it."
Note of Interest: The design of Eeyore has remained faithful to the original book version

after reading that.. i like him even more.. especially that eeyore lying around on both beds, keeping watch on us!

check out the poster i made! >.<
yesterday i went hay goat farm!! there i learnt lots of new things..lol

- male goats are called buck, female doe and the young ones kids!
- both male and female goats have horns
- to give milk, female goats must give birth first, afterwhich they can give 6-8 months of milk!
- they have the life span of 10-12 years, but the females retired usually after 10 years, or else the baby born may not be that healthy or even become a still born..thats sad>.<
- goats milk is alkaline while cow milk is acidic!!
- human bodies are v close to goats, both alkaline. hence when all the goat are too old or dead, they are used in laboraties by scientists, thus we never eat the goats meat from the farm. they usually end up on researcher's table
- goat meat is called chevon ( i think )
- goats milk taste better with chocolate..lol thats a personal comment

surprised to see ya tag gal.. its alright.. perhaps this speaks a lot of my personality.. that i am willing to let my personal feelings rule over wat i want to do.. i will be hard for me to go back and face u.. cos it will not be the same again. however sad that may be..i still look forward to seeing rspid updates.. individual news on trainees are especially delightful.. seeing mandy making little but important improvements make me really happy.. that her teachers are really making a great effort.. and also mandy must have been a good mood that day.. lol.. en guan still sounds as cute and the others like sherra and che sze and sharon and karmil and kok hui are still as adorable. seeing projectid a sucess is also heart warming. i see u becoming more brave and taking up more responsibilites.. that really good.. was happy to see u really so active. perhaps i really got no reason to comment on ur life.. but i am happy for u.. and do not hope to make things difficult for anyone by my stubborness.. all the best gal..

post no 501 had problems appearing.. so i am trying agian.. i am really bored.. v sian.. dun want to work.. sianz...

post no. 501

happy birthday to me
happy convocation to me

22 years ago i was born

to those who remembered thanks v much.. to those who dun.. i dun blame you, there can be quite some stuff on our minds once in a while. its a simple one this year, spoilt by one. remembered by some, forgotten by many..
lol just kidding.. once u leave sch its like things get a bit quiet.. but i am still grateful for the friends i have gained over the years.. was glad to see a few of them today.. there is pri sch (a handful), sec sch ( a bunch), jc (a crowd), uni ( a batch).. but the pple i would miss most would be the 3302 gals i would say.. the care free days.. the complaining abt each other days.. quarreling and withstanding each different personality..lol

love all u guys.. hope to see all of u once in a while.. mean while keep in touch!

FINALLY I CAN LOGIN TO BLOGGER!!
JUST WHEN I THOUGH ALL HOPES ARE GONE.. AND I HAVE LOST MY BLOG..AFTER NOT BEING ABLE TO LOGIN FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS.. FINALY..

IF U HAVE SIMILAR PROBLEMS LOGINING INTO BLOGGER... AND U KEEP SEEING THIS BOX THAT SAYS "Click here to continue" AFTER ENTERING UR USER AND PASSWORD, RIGHT CLICK ON THE "Click here to continue" AND OPEN IN NEW WINDOW TO OPEN UR DASH BOARD.. VOOOWALA!! BUT I AM STILL DISAPPOINTED WHY GOT SUCH AN ERROR... ANYWAY.. LETS CONTINUE

its been days.. weeks since i bloged.. been quite some time at work now... calls are coming along fine.. appts getting fewer.. becoming less sensitive to comments by mom and boss.. somehow they are v similar.. wants many stuff to be done. THEIR WAY.. if not they will just keep asking why u are not doing so.. so far for escaping.. voices yelling at me for all waking hours.. current in the midst of preparing for convocation..

my convocation will take place on the 24 of july.. the u-noe-wat day.. wasnt very excitied.. dunnoe why.. perhaps i dun really see the impt of that date other than meeting ur friends for the LAST time.. hopefully not and taking pics in ur big blue cape.. with colourful trimmings.. ya. mine will be a weird "Orange edged with light blue".. how nice right.. down right not my colur.. but dun think i can do anything abt that.. at least everyone in nbs bus will be stuck with that colour.. anyway.. some matters abt convo

1) one grad can only have 2 visitors to attend the ceromony .. additional tics will only be given out a few hrs b4 the ceromony..
2) on the day of convocation, certs will be given out in alphabetical order, not in order of merit.. (that would mean miss yuan may have to wait even longer than if it was given out in order of merit >.< just imagine: 1559 pple....-_-|| bleah

another thing abt convo is photo taking..lol wat i mean will be a grad portiat.. which me and bro planned to get.. a family one.. so i did some research. online and offline.. apparently if u are thinking of getting a good one.. DUN consider serangoon broad way..lol (pls dun sue me.. just personal experience) but this was wat i did..

(for SB)
- Called suzy at serangoon broadway, she was v friendly and said that it can be collected ANYTIME.dun have to wait until 17 july or anything, best to go down and try out for the gowns urself
- reservations can be made for the phototaking, but sat and sun are quite fully booked!
- for photograph services, its either individual (1person) or family (>1 person) and pricing is set by size of photograhs, taking photographs there means that u do not have to buy the gowns as they will be provided free of charge.

thats the good pts so far.. but by google searchs online for good graduate photography services.. they do not exactly come up even near the tops.. which is why my family will be considering gloria.. muahaha

a cousin of mine even claimed SB to be HEI DIAN - BLACK SHOP - they will not stick to one package, but keep wanting to upsell and keep adding additional charges to misc stuff..which made their wedding photo taking a disaster.. hmm should sad and i am totally put off by the idea of a hei dian.. i can imagine.. ' these students/family prob come once in a life time, lets hack them clean and earn as much as possible'.. well thats simply so sad for SB.

dear Anonymous,

as much as i like ur frank opinions in the comment box.. lol thanks for for taking the time to disecting my problems and arranging them out in such a simple way that in now i am looking at myself from a third person's pt of view.. the person was just feeling lousy.. i was just feeling lousy.. its just a stage/phrase teens (if i can still be considered to be) go thru. the change of environment suddenly from hall to home, from student to employee simply made a good enough impact on my mental condition. i agree.. pple now a days simple rant out their frustration online like nobodies business. i hope my post have not affected ur day in any way.. for now i am actually feeling better already. i have learnt to move on and not focus on things that makes me unhappy. i guess pple do tat once in a while. dun u too? sometime u just want to well up in sorrows ..and burst out in tears.. its not a call to pple that hey i want attention or pity or concern.. perhaps if u are feeling lousy.. look at me! i am feeeling lousy too! if u are feeling alright abt ur life.. be grateful for the good things u have and sensible blogsense u own..sometimes crying out loud makes one feel gd.. for a moment its like feeling ur emotions let loss.. yes it doesnt help much with the problems... but at least it release the dam of emotions in side u..

read in the papers another day about this graditute book where u have a diary where u write down things u are grateful for everyday. wanted to do so.. but now maybe not.. just wanna say i am thankful for surviving the stressful period, the loving family i have got, good collegues, new office place.. good readers whom leave meaning comments which i can feel where u guys are coming from. thanks guys...

i am angry i am frustrated. i am very restless and v tired. for the past few days have been trying to blog, but the stupid internet connection at the company.. or the lack of it has allowed me to do nothing. i am no surprise how reliant i am on internet now.. so reliant.. i am ashamed. and perhaps i have switched back to ie 6 or something. i cant login to blogger as well.. so i am now blogging from home.. hoping to vent some frustration out..

its been some times since i have moved back home. yes.. i no longer lived in ntu hall or hostel now.. no more complete freedom.. ok i am ungrateful .. but i really miss hall. but it so happend i am so dumb and stupid.. and did i mention it.. i was so dumb to have packed my room keys into one of the boxes and couldnt find them when i was moving out.. so will go back on sat to return the keys again...

work is not getting better. i am running out of luck.. and probaby a more important factor.. interest for my work.. telemarketing... yes i am lazy... every other hour i am contemplating when and how to quit.. quite sucky right.perhaps and i would think it is true.. but i am getting to yaya for my own good..but still i am getting sick of picking up the phone to do the telemarketing.. its so easy to tell others to do it .. suck it man... they will feel the same way too eventually...

another horrible thing is that ever since i have moved back home.. i started snapping at my mom as soon as she start nagging at me. i noe its her concern.. but the ways of 'this is for your own good. i am asking for ur opinions but i prefer u to listen to mine and why i want things this way' attitude which i have successfully avoided for 3 years is finally coming back to haunt me and making me look like any ungratful , spoil child that can apprechiate all the love and concern showered in the most untoleratable manner to me....so i snapped back... I HATE TALKING IN THE MORNING!! STOP TRYING TO CONTROL ME! STOP ASKING ME FOR OPINIONS IF U ALREADY KNOW WANT U WANT ME TO DO! IF U WANT, THEN JUST DO IT! GIVING ME A CHOICE AND THEN NAGGING YOUR WAY THRU IT IS GETTING TO MY NERVES!!!!!!!!!!

pls.. some one get me out of here...

i hate work.. wat am i going to do... how many marketing pple out there is doing marketing?.. pls raise ur hands.. higer pls... higher!! i still dun see any... >.<

let me forget to be humble once in a while, let me be rude for once.. let me speak my mind.. let me shout at u..let me be myself for once..let me ask for things i really want!! let me get them!! let me not be hypocritcal.. let me no pretend that material desires dun matter... let me not cry to sleep each day.. let me..