Thursday, July 5, 2007
10:45 PM
10:45 PM
let me go..
posted by crazyyuan
i am angry i am frustrated. i am very restless and v tired. for the past few days have been trying to blog, but the stupid internet connection at the company.. or the lack of it has allowed me to do nothing. i am no surprise how reliant i am on internet now.. so reliant.. i am ashamed. and perhaps i have switched back to ie 6 or something. i cant login to blogger as well.. so i am now blogging from home.. hoping to vent some frustration out..
its been some times since i have moved back home. yes.. i no longer lived in ntu hall or hostel now.. no more complete freedom.. ok i am ungrateful .. but i really miss hall. but it so happend i am so dumb and stupid.. and did i mention it.. i was so dumb to have packed my room keys into one of the boxes and couldnt find them when i was moving out.. so will go back on sat to return the keys again...
work is not getting better. i am running out of luck.. and probaby a more important factor.. interest for my work.. telemarketing... yes i am lazy... every other hour i am contemplating when and how to quit.. quite sucky right.perhaps and i would think it is true.. but i am getting to yaya for my own good..but still i am getting sick of picking up the phone to do the telemarketing.. its so easy to tell others to do it .. suck it man... they will feel the same way too eventually...
another horrible thing is that ever since i have moved back home.. i started snapping at my mom as soon as she start nagging at me. i noe its her concern.. but the ways of 'this is for your own good. i am asking for ur opinions but i prefer u to listen to mine and why i want things this way' attitude which i have successfully avoided for 3 years is finally coming back to haunt me and making me look like any ungratful , spoil child that can apprechiate all the love and concern showered in the most untoleratable manner to me....so i snapped back... I HATE TALKING IN THE MORNING!! STOP TRYING TO CONTROL ME! STOP ASKING ME FOR OPINIONS IF U ALREADY KNOW WANT U WANT ME TO DO! IF U WANT, THEN JUST DO IT! GIVING ME A CHOICE AND THEN NAGGING YOUR WAY THRU IT IS GETTING TO MY NERVES!!!!!!!!!!
pls.. some one get me out of here...
i hate work.. wat am i going to do... how many marketing pple out there is doing marketing?.. pls raise ur hands.. higer pls... higher!! i still dun see any... >.<
let me forget to be humble once in a while, let me be rude for once.. let me speak my mind.. let me shout at u..let me be myself for once..let me ask for things i really want!! let me get them!! let me not be hypocritcal.. let me no pretend that material desires dun matter... let me not cry to sleep each day.. let me..
its been some times since i have moved back home. yes.. i no longer lived in ntu hall or hostel now.. no more complete freedom.. ok i am ungrateful .. but i really miss hall. but it so happend i am so dumb and stupid.. and did i mention it.. i was so dumb to have packed my room keys into one of the boxes and couldnt find them when i was moving out.. so will go back on sat to return the keys again...
work is not getting better. i am running out of luck.. and probaby a more important factor.. interest for my work.. telemarketing... yes i am lazy... every other hour i am contemplating when and how to quit.. quite sucky right.perhaps and i would think it is true.. but i am getting to yaya for my own good..but still i am getting sick of picking up the phone to do the telemarketing.. its so easy to tell others to do it .. suck it man... they will feel the same way too eventually...
another horrible thing is that ever since i have moved back home.. i started snapping at my mom as soon as she start nagging at me. i noe its her concern.. but the ways of 'this is for your own good. i am asking for ur opinions but i prefer u to listen to mine and why i want things this way' attitude which i have successfully avoided for 3 years is finally coming back to haunt me and making me look like any ungratful , spoil child that can apprechiate all the love and concern showered in the most untoleratable manner to me....so i snapped back... I HATE TALKING IN THE MORNING!! STOP TRYING TO CONTROL ME! STOP ASKING ME FOR OPINIONS IF U ALREADY KNOW WANT U WANT ME TO DO! IF U WANT, THEN JUST DO IT! GIVING ME A CHOICE AND THEN NAGGING YOUR WAY THRU IT IS GETTING TO MY NERVES!!!!!!!!!!
pls.. some one get me out of here...
i hate work.. wat am i going to do... how many marketing pple out there is doing marketing?.. pls raise ur hands.. higer pls... higher!! i still dun see any... >.<
let me forget to be humble once in a while, let me be rude for once.. let me speak my mind.. let me shout at u..let me be myself for once..let me ask for things i really want!! let me get them!! let me not be hypocritcal.. let me no pretend that material desires dun matter... let me not cry to sleep each day.. let me..
1 Comments:
At 10:00 PM, July 06, 2007 
said:
First, it's perfectly fine to don't like your job and want to get another one especially when you just start out at work.
Second, it's bugging to have parental guidance ruling your life or anyone's, for that matter.
Third, you can be free, and yourself in everyway. HOWEVER, don't act irresponsibly. You are saying things and acting in a way that hurts “her”, if she ever know how to surf net and read your blog. Most importantly, you don’t mean it in a way to hurt.
Like all your friends, I don’t want to see you crying to sleep on any night. How to be your savior? There are two pressure points you face; perceived lousy job and family relationship. Both are something you had to go through daily causing you to go into this state of frenzy. You conceptualised that freedom is what you need to control your own life.
Job: It takes a lot to put positive thoughts into our life and work. If you don’t like it already, work on sourcing for better jobs in terms of environment, distance to travel, scope and material returns. It is also better to have options at hand.
Family: You have been there for 20+ years. Don’t stock your vengeance. Once in a while, fire and forget. Right now, I am sure there are many people you can share your woes with such as your siblings and your partner. In a few more years, you will be moving to your own place starting your own family. The word is “cherish”; it is difficult if you are frustrated.
Freedom: You do have lots of it. You are all on your own in this big big world now. It also means you have to realise that you must be independent. To have a second in opinions and guidance is a blessing, regardless whether we take the advice or not. Moreover, you will be the one advising your parents soon enough. Does the lack of Freedom really exist?
Sorry I am not pro-you this time.
That anonymous again.