recently my computer came down with some kind of virus that causes it to shut down itself i have used it for approx 5 mins...hopefully the problem will be resolved soon quickly..but i somehow realised that it does not matter that much anyway..as when it starts the countdown of 1 min into restarting itself..i would realise that i am actually realise that i am not doing anything of great importance...so after the computer is restarted..i would not go online anymore..so u see..me hardly use the net nowdays...for sometimes its really sad to see no familar faces online on msn or irc or icq..so tired of that me simply not sign in to any of those programs sometimes...

sometimes i think..how nice it would be to settle with a 'dun care' attitiude..but i realised that when u do actually have that...you would be just a nobody to speak of..you will not have family and friends for those relationships are bulit on the basis that you care for one another...but when u do stop caring about the pple around u... it means that u do not care about yourself either cos that is the time that when nothing matters to you..why should u matter to any one?

A level results will be released real soon..i am reminded of it ever since the day before the release of O level results... i do not dread receiving the results..i just dread the reaction i will get when i receive the results..haha..which would most likely be no reaction at all for that would mean that what i have always been expecting (the worst) have come true..

never read newspapers nowadays...probably explain why i feel that i have lost touch with the outside world when i flipped open the straits times this morning...
i have been running around in my little world of watami, citylink, home, dream land, mrt carriage..all month that i hardly notice wats going on the outside..that i am just an insignificant little being that is smaller than a grain of sand at the beach when compared to the solar system in the universe.... but somehow i realised....me.. the tiny little organism is trying to figure things out by day dreaming out of the world stuff and going to work everday to pass time and chatting on the phone to find out wat the other little organisms are doing...something the hundreds of billions of pple are doing everyday..more or less...how interesing...the little difference we try to make to our lives everyday in this dog eat dog world where pple are trying to pls their bosses..teachers are trying to teach naughty children...toilet cleaners are trying to keep the loos clean..mothers trying to keep their children quiet..pilots trying to fight for their rights..singapore trying to get more FTA and more babies for the aging population..everyone trying to get a better life...for the greater good....watever crap.... suddenly i feel like an ant living in a high tech society...even though we are all connected and linked together by the greatest commucation networks..we are all not communicating with each other..and the greatest sadness..not communicating with ourselves...

loft house always said that my ideas are disorganised....so true...but since when do pple have time to sit down and think though all this crap?....wat a joke..

Hello there..actually wanted to come online at 9 plus…got caught up with some old friend on the phone..now back on the computer..sort of forgot what I wanted to type liao..let me try to recall..

Ok.. these days have been quite interesting days..made a new friend from friendster..very nice person..a bit odd but interesting..actually told me off within a few minutes of knowing each other and criticized me..and gave me a very bad impression of him to be quick to make judgements but made me realized that I was quick to make judgments on him too..very crappy guy..haven come across someone like him for a long time..wonder how long this crappy friend will last..

Went to work today..found out the company gonna cut costs and cut our working hours…my pay for this week which was supposed to be three hundred bucks was reduced to two hundred and I have to work half days for the rest of this week..which I think is terrible cos with half of the day free for myself..me cannot seem to find anything to do..except walk around the library..sleep at home and wait for the night to come…boredom..suddenly I have free time for myself which I have beem yearning for but I am now dreading it..cos I know I am wasting it away..

A conversation with a friend enlighted me suddenly on wat is really on going around me..
I will going to uni in july..hopefully ntu..and since my brother is already in there..the burden of having two kids in uni is really gonna be great for my parents…I had not realized how great the burden will be until now….the only thing I can do is to work hard and earn enough money for my own allowance so as to lessen their burden… this have become my new motivation to work..how nice…

And one thing…haha.. a small thing I am also happy about..me bought a new bag!!..a very cute one!!..is a grey sling bag..the funny thing is where I bought it…its of the shelve at big bookshop among the hello kitty and powerpuff girls school bags…dun worry..its just a grey bag with a beri bear embroidery on its cover..very kawaii….the moment it caught my eye..i knew I had to get it….and this does not happen more than twice in a year..so u can imagine…on $15.65..good buy..

sunday morning..all alone at home..have to go to work later...called some friends..most going out ..cannot chat..that leaves me alone on the computer .

just when i though that yesterday would never end..its sunday already..another week have passed...sometimes i think that there is nothing to say..sometimes i just think that some things are best left unspoken about..but it seems to be that when u do say it out..most of the time someone will feel hurt...most of the time its u yourself..and then..its the other party...

read jia dai's blog just now...read her description of wat she saw at the resevoir while she was jogging..i was touched..and grateful and happy that there are pple still there to appreciate the finer things of life like simple family gatherings which are made up of purely love for one another and giving each other a little of your time and attention..something i am gulity of...its been to work in the morning and and dragging my tired legs home everyday after work..my mind is now filled with nothing except trying to find ways not to go into conflict with the boss , finding a knee guard cos my knees cannot take it any more after about 3 weeks of kneeing and banging on the wooden floor..and trying to find time to do some homework on which U i can go to..instead of which i want to go to...and of course finding some one to speak to..to complain to..which i rather not ..so as to not strain other's ears..and finding more time for my family and friends..

hello..
me at my workplace now..so bored..cos no one at all..just a few staff slacking here and there...sian....anyway..thinking of quitting..actually..most of us thinking of mass quiting...shit..will be back..need to go do stuff for my papa and ah kong...my 'family memebers ' in watami..and i have a big brother as well..zhong wei and didi, small brother..andy..cos he and me supposely looks alike and customers kept thinking we are brothers and sisters and that the resturant is a family business..long story..my pap is the sushi chief and my ahkong is the main chief here..all very nice..cos sometimes they will bring us out to eat..cos they in the f&b industy for more then 30 years liao..so experienced....will comtinue..

Just went to read ying ling's blog..to say the truth..after reading her entry…I can totally understand her situation…for mine is more or less the worst…
This is because watami only have siting capacity of 44 indoors. and other 40 - 50 outdoors...when I comes to the dinner crowd..pple starts gashing in…and there is only 3-4 service staff will be outside to ‘entertain’ them..first get then seats then tea..take order serve food..clear plates..take bill shout into kitchen to hurry orders..explain the menu to custmers..explain promotion to customers…with no specific station to speak of..and the outside seats…you must have them at the corner of your mind what ever happens..when something crops up in the kitchen and the food cannot be served on time..costomers start complaining…and those whose orders have not arrived will start making friends with each other and come after the service staff personally…everynight u will hear : '(captain)zihui..table 4 wants to see you... (captain)zihui..table 13 said u took their order but have not received yet..u go and settle...(boss)zihui..tatami room tea..zihui next time u must check whether thir food got come out or not...(boss)zihui...clear the plates once their empty..(customer) zihui ..i made my order so long..where is it..why is it talking so long..
Imagine--- having to walk pass a row of tables and having pple staring at you as they are waiting for their food..and one guy wants ice water..one family want baby chair..a lady wants more wasabi and one guy wants to have his tea refilled and the menu and of course another would want to take order and the kitchen bell will be ringing behind telling you to serve out the food and this old lady will want to add another order of shishamo and this family want to ask you why their order is not out yet and you realized that there is someone waiting at the door and the table is not cleared……you will end up fearing to walk out of the kitchen everytime u walk in…one thing is one will go crazy..and the other thing is that one will cry…for this happens every other night when there is a shortage of man power…and the helplessness does not end until everyone have their food of you will be busy refilling tea..checking on the guests outside..checking that everyone have wat they have ordered and whether they need to refill their tea and that empty plates are cleared as soon as possible…haiz…

Happy V day to all I must say…at least I hope very one will be happy on this everyday and everyday…but of cos..for the many of us who are still unattached..we will still go on…

Me have really been busy ..been doing full shift from the whole of this month..feeling very tired lliao..so tired…that I dun even want to complain…so tired that I dread the coming of the Saturday and Sunday..the coming v dae…no plans no nothing..just work work work..

Received joan’s msg….sent out a msg out as well…most pple replied within 5 mins…really happy…really glad..:P but a bit sad..dun noe why..

Haven not written blog so long..dun noe wat to write…

I just hope all thhe lonely souls out there have a happy valentines day..for the day is not just for couples..but for singles who are willing to take the step out to allow someone into their lives…wat crap..

Hello pple…how’s life..me just woke up from a 4 hour evening nap…after working split shift for about..5 days…it’s the first time in these few days that I am feeling…my battery finally charged, but not fully…but here I am to talk crap again….me ate a very early dinner before the nap..now 12.37..munching on left over CNY goodies cos I hungry liao…

These days everyone seemed busy…haven been in contact with many friends except joan…whom I talk to in the wee hours of the morning once in a while..and having saw Eunice yesterday at a esplanade shop which I was in..when she happened to walk pass…

Haiz…I dun noe wat to say..but me really sian..but I know myself..me have really been pissed of when pple tell me tat they are sian..dun noe why,,but its like….i am having a conversion with u..why are u telling me u are sian?..like I can do anything to help..cos its basically your own mentality that u are having …but I finally understand liao..when u are really sian….its really sian…arh…must find something to do to occupy myself lah!!...

Recently..due to the lack of sleep…me broke one sake cup, and one glass cup and spilled a cup of miso on a customer…nearly tripped on my own leg and fell to my death twice and gave a bua song face to the big boss and risked getting fired…

Dun think me will be blogging for the next week..that is if I survive the next week cos the stupid restaurant have fifty percent discount promotion..and we are expecting tons of pple…I am expecting me half dead by the end of the week..mean while pple take care ok?..my next off day- 16/17 feb..pls call my no. to make reservations…haha..just kidding..

hello..pple..me now at my work place..they recently installed a computer for pple to surf net with..haha..me now can update ny blog now..but of course not for long..see yah around pple!..