recently my computer came down with some kind of virus that causes it to shut down itself i have used it for approx 5 mins...hopefully the problem will be resolved soon quickly..but i somehow realised that it does not matter that much anyway..as when it starts the countdown of 1 min into restarting itself..i would realise that i am actually realise that i am not doing anything of great importance...so after the computer is restarted..i would not go online anymore..so u see..me hardly use the net nowdays...for sometimes its really sad to see no familar faces online on msn or irc or icq..so tired of that me simply not sign in to any of those programs sometimes...

sometimes i think..how nice it would be to settle with a 'dun care' attitiude..but i realised that when u do actually have that...you would be just a nobody to speak of..you will not have family and friends for those relationships are bulit on the basis that you care for one another...but when u do stop caring about the pple around u... it means that u do not care about yourself either cos that is the time that when nothing matters to you..why should u matter to any one?

A level results will be released real soon..i am reminded of it ever since the day before the release of O level results... i do not dread receiving the results..i just dread the reaction i will get when i receive the results..haha..which would most likely be no reaction at all for that would mean that what i have always been expecting (the worst) have come true..

never read newspapers nowadays...probably explain why i feel that i have lost touch with the outside world when i flipped open the straits times this morning...
i have been running around in my little world of watami, citylink, home, dream land, mrt carriage..all month that i hardly notice wats going on the outside..that i am just an insignificant little being that is smaller than a grain of sand at the beach when compared to the solar system in the universe.... but somehow i realised....me.. the tiny little organism is trying to figure things out by day dreaming out of the world stuff and going to work everday to pass time and chatting on the phone to find out wat the other little organisms are doing...something the hundreds of billions of pple are doing everyday..more or less...how interesing...the little difference we try to make to our lives everyday in this dog eat dog world where pple are trying to pls their bosses..teachers are trying to teach naughty children...toilet cleaners are trying to keep the loos clean..mothers trying to keep their children quiet..pilots trying to fight for their rights..singapore trying to get more FTA and more babies for the aging population..everyone trying to get a better life...for the greater good....watever crap.... suddenly i feel like an ant living in a high tech society...even though we are all connected and linked together by the greatest commucation networks..we are all not communicating with each other..and the greatest sadness..not communicating with ourselves...

loft house always said that my ideas are disorganised....so true...but since when do pple have time to sit down and think though all this crap?....wat a joke..