Hey I wonder if u guys got the booklet from smu..
Must say, after reading it, me feel like going there, but the only thing stopping me is their American style method of teaching, where u must let yourself be heard and is not allowed to sit at the back of the class. The sound of that scares me.

In the booklet..it mentioned about investing ur future in SMU.haiz..it occurred to me that its gonna be a real big decision to make which Uni u are going and wat course u gonna take. Its ur future we are talking about. Something u gonna invest in for approx 4 years which sort of determine ur career directions. I have older friends who advised be to start thinking now, if not start gathering information on wat u want to do or wat the courses provide. For when u get your results, u will not be in the state of panic of wat to choose.
I dun noe wat to think really
Sometimes it feels that one is being thrown into the deep end of the ocean and left to fight for oneself. But instead, one should also feel that we are all quite fortunate to be able to have an education route all lad out for us, we are only required to make a choice which we believe is the best for us. At least we were taught to swim and was shown the directions toward different shores. All we have to do is decide and swim on, braving the dangerous elements along the way…

We ask ourselves who am I to be brilliant , gorgeous, talented and fabulous. Actually, who are you not to be?
-nelson mandela

just flipping though my mind

was just thinking of the days where:
- we rolled our eyes in almost all of her comments about our class
- we sat in the canteen to drink ‘three in one’
- ate samosas and currypuffs and hashbrowns for brunch
- went opposite to eat roti prata and not forgetting to chop places for each others
- the mulitcoloured mountain high ice kachang
- meeting online to play i-sketch
- waiting for 3 periods for a gp lesson on Thursday
- running to lucky heights for pe
- hanis and his sars rap
- miss leong and her ever –eyecatching slippers
- trying to finish the econs tys before econs lessons
- bring the tys to school time and time again as miss leong forgets to go through it
- talking to mr kwan about his wife, baby rui chong , his pay, his car, his brick
- sneaking into weird history lessons
- sleeping in the library between lessons
- trying to copy maths tutorials and econs essay plans at the assembly ground early in the morning
- eating mee goring at el café and waiting for the pathetic sevice
- talking about Beatrice and Benedict’s witty banter during lessons and lunch
- eyeing reeves in the much ado movie
- amused by how explicit angela carter can be in snow white
- sleeping during Chinese lesson ..while sitting in front of chen liao shi
- doodling on my Chinese texts..plus drooling on it
- reminding shelia to wake up at the end of each lesson
- CRITISING EVERY OF MDM GOH’S WORDS DURING ECONS LECT
- Jiadai’s AIR-PORK (wat were the other two?)
- Cramming before exams..doing essay plans that never came out
- Remembering quotes ‘savage sensuality’ ‘beast with two backs’
- Shopping at the bookshop,buying chocolates and fruittips
- playing cards in the student’s lounge..heart attack turns bloody when someone stabs engtat
- Turning up in ethic costumes on racial harmony day
- Talking about jingjing and ah ming ge in Holland V
- Cozying up in miss loong’s room for lit lessons
- Trying not to tear our hair out when we get bottem low marks for our essays
- Never having a proper class outing except for miss leong;s treat
- finally seeing the nice side of miss lim after so long
- fussing about grad night stuff and great after-A-plans in our leisure time
- trying not to cry on grad day
- taking a few thousand photos at the lobby
- missing each others during the holidays.

Went to a children’s home home today near kovan drive…
It was quite a nice place..supposed to go there to interact with the kids..play games with them…
When we got there..saw many muslim boys and girls of age mostly from 7 to 14..most looked really cute and friendly..through the introduction by one of the social workers there.. we got to know that the children had stayed at the home mainly because of 3 reasons: they were either,1) beyond parental control 2)under protection of the juvenile court of Singapore due to home abuse 3)or that their parents do not care about them anymore..
They had pretty packed timetables during school days..with include prayers everyday and tution twice a day three times a week. ..i felt glad that they had the home ..at least a roof over their heads and had people to care for them…
I do not really know what to think of the visit…prrbably that we are all very fortunate people and should cherish wat we all have now. Really. When u look at the angelical faces of the little girls and the hyperactive boys who cannot wait to lay their hands on the new toy we bought for them..it make one wonder about their background and wat sufferings they must have gone through mentally and physically on their little bodies.

My mom asked me about the visit… I was real pissed off. I had shouted back at her twice today..for I felt I could not stand her views that I was a utterly useless person. Her view are as always. ‘u do not help out at home..haha..and u went to the old folks home and children’s home to do volunteer work?..who will believe u?..u dun even do wat u are suppose to do and au go around helping others..haha..what did u do? Went to clean up after them?..’ hearing these words really make me feel very sad..very angry too…

Maybe I should really concentrate on being a good daughter and a sensible girl who help out around the house..be very filial to my parents and good to my friends before I even start helping people I do not know..it not I really contribute a great deal when I went to the home.. Confucius once sad..that one should be good to the people around u before helping others ..can I do it the other way around..i mean..i dun really care whether my table is neat or not..cos I noe however I clear it ..it will never be up to my mom’s standard…I would only be doing it to please my mom..which I rather be doing in other ways..for wats the use of making ur table speckless just to please ur mom.. when u know u will still be getting a scolding after u have done it..
Wat a trival matter to talk about. I should be glad that I have parents who care about me…
Why are people always complaining?..
Why can’t people be contented with wat they have?.
Why does one only understand about cherishing what they have only after wat they have lost something?

hello hello everyone…ahh….fingers very pain..cannot type too long…anyway,
Merry Christmas to everyone!!

hows everyone?..gd?..me have been quite busy lately..never update my blog…so..gonna talk crap today..
as I said ..i have been buzi lately..looking for jobs..got this hamper packing job at noel gifts international..quite a fun job…cos can turn ordinary food items and toys into pretty and beautiful hampers..but the bad thing is the pay is very poor..max $1.5 for a hamper..so must do until siao to earn enough to eat..but have to make do with it..cannot be jobless..no money means that I cannot go watch movies..like LOTR!! Mona lisa smile…very long time never step into cinema liao..haha..maybe I should try not to watch any movies..save the money..dun watch wun die…must psycho myself that

ok…I received Xmas cards from xuemei, sharmain, jovin, peiyu, yingling, meiqiang ..thank you for the greetings…today Christmas eve liao.. and sad to say..or should I say..i am guilty to say that I have not made ur Christmas cards yet…sorry : P... me just run out of ideas and of course the great p- word, procrastination ..haiz..i swear I will try to give u all my hand made card before the new year!

I just think Christmas is weird this year. There is no new school year to look forward to..no new clothes to consider buying..u go down to orchard,..taka..dun even hear and Christmas carols…feels a bit solemn around here..no Christmas spirit…true..everyone is busy.. but there seems something missing..i dun noe wat..but maybe a sense of loneliness which I feel when I walk around town..no one is smiling….everyone is just busy..preparing for Christmas…me haven even seen a turkey yet..maybe I should go ntuc for a walk tmw..food always make one feels better…
But of course..i am still grateful for wat I have now wat I had and wat I will have…wat rubbish….who noes wat will happen at the stroke of midnight to Christmas…maybe I will wake up and understand wat this is all about …
(just read joan's blog too..haha..maybe i should get a bf too..life getting a bit sian...hehe)
It must be because I have not write on my blog for a long time..have not picked up my pens for like ages…dun even think I am typing English…must type more..for the next 6 months…for my mind will go rusty…

Ok that’s all for my blog today..boring entry right?..haha..if u are reading this..i got a feeling that u are pretty bored too…but I can only say..thanks for visitng a chapter of my life! and may u have a very Merry Christmas and a great Happy New Year!!

PS: santa…all I want for Christmas..is for everyone to be happy..

i do not know wat to say..
but i am glad its all over.
i have quit my job at chubb..haha..and that is even before i even start working..stupid right..? who can be a more stupid person than me.
But just now when an ADT (company's rival) persona came to knock on my door, i slammed the door in his face..me not gonna be nice to pple nowdays...

i dun noe why..but when i am nice to pple..pple always misunderstand me..i must always keep up a 'i am interested and listening' face..or my sian face will give me away to be a bored and troubled person..haiz.
i dun noe wat to say..but my colleagues are really nice pple..some are so nice to u that u will be surprised..but somehow..i dun noe..things are suppose to turn out right in the end..but i cant see any of that now..

i dun really noe if i have been living for the past few days. true..i wake up to go to work and then return home at abt 12plus..and straight to bed i go...i did not even keep track of the date..only if it was sunday because we work longer on sundays... it was only today that i realised that it was the 18th of december..(because i was checking whether i was reading yesterday's papers)..the first thing that came to my mind was :LOTR..not much excitiment abt it though...dun noe why..but saw a book on gollum at kino..thought it was rather interesting..and then..there was christmas...the cards...pple...i'm really sorry...me not really in the mood to make cards..been really troubled by some stuff recently...haiz...

lastly ..the year coming to an end...thats enough for pple to reflect on..

into the second day of work...been complained by an irratiated customer..met police(believe me we did nothing wrong)..got our ids checked by another customer who called up the hq to confirm our identities..haha..which didnt work..becos the person at the customer service centre was just as rude as the customer...i thought all of these was part and parcel of a day's work..but supposedly...not..it was the first time they have meet the police...

wat can i say..this job is getting very interesting..the tactics used..going around singapore..(went clementi..boon lay..lakeside..ang mo kio..bukit timah..) meet all types of pple (engineers..lawyers...business analyst..ah peks..)..can really say that most pple are not as friendly as they seem or as rude as we can expect them to be..there is aways a few households who are willing to spare a few minutes to listen to wat ever crap we want to say in order to convince them into getting our product..and of course!!..how can i forget!--> many many cute doggies (beagles..terriers..labradors..poodles..)..and babies as well..all shape and sizes...at one house..i couldnt remember the houseowner's name...but haha..i can still remember her dog's name: blacky and jojo...! two terribly cute terriers...kawaii ne!

me at home on mc today..suppose not to take mc on monday one..but no choice cos my tummy really cannot take it..me couldnt sleep for the whole of last night due to the rumbling pain ... now me have taken off on monday..i wonder if i still can take off on weds to go ear piercing with my friends...hope to see u guys real soon!!

me so sian at home...
me found a job..the one at chubb...not exactly my dream job..but heck lar..just do it..or else i will be rotting at home all day.
but help me...me always get into a nevous breakdown at home...i wonder if anyone of u have that as often as me...me getting it every now and then!!
arh..no appetite...no mood to do anything..can't sleep..must be giving myself too much pressure i think..but i just cannot think of anyway to get out of this sticky situation. Maybe its pms..every emotion is magnified 100 times frm wat it was actually is...

got fever recently also..dun noe if it is due to the job or the stupid weather..oh shit..i tink i have got a cold too....*sick*..ah...

"hello..can u come down for the second interview tmw?"
(-_-) my heart started to pound like siao.. me nearly went speechless..

this is very scary
i have not felt this way since the econs paper and the PW presentation last year.
there are ten million butterflies in my stomach...oh help...i dun noe if i can make it..
part of my mind is saying..dun be scared lar..like u gonna get through the interview..being scared will only make things worse..while the other half is wailing...'help me...(about to burst into tears...) i dun noe why i can act like a fool in front of strangers but i just cannot behave normally and calmly before pple i know..even though i only know them for about ..3 hr?..oh.. '
i am not a timid person..only in front of myself i have to say..
i am just an 18 year-old kid..i have no idea whether i should take up this weird job...but hey i may not get it anyway..
wats the big fuss u dumbo..u are not as influencial as u think u are..which u think u are not at all..oh..*cross fingers and toes* i pray that the interview will go smoothly tmw..

It would probably be one of the last place I would think of, to look for a job.

Yesterday..i was feeling bored. Me wanted to get out of the house, so had to think of some stupid reason. Not to tell my mom, but to get my butt of the comfy chair and out to get some fresh air. Since I was going out, decided to go ‘play’ around…haha..mean do something unserious..so I just flipped open the newspaper..circled a few ads and called to enquire about them. All of them requires a walk-in-interview and mostly at some ulu ulu place which I cannot locate on my outdated map a home, nor in the transitelink bus guide….but I found a bunch of companies situated in paya lebar and Aljunied. Me was thinking ‘ aiyah..since so near..just drop by for the interview lah..like u gonna get selected for the job straight away..gain more experience from the interviews may prepare me better for the right job that my come along the way..’

So…I set out to paya lebar to the weird orian building..for the ad in the newspaper.. supposedly for some Christmas event..the person which I called refused to give any details ,only the address of the place.. So when I reached there..about 3.30..(briefing is from 2-4)..me saw a bunch of other pple..leaving for home..me so pai seh..come so late..me started looking for the place…haha…cannot find…the person never give any other information other than the building name!! me tried not to be grumpy..can only blame myself for being stupid..wat else could I do?..me got pride to keep (hah like real)
I couldn’t make myself tear down my face and ask the bunch of hip-dressing and gold-dyed hair12-13 year-olds where the stupid place was..so I headed for the next destination..some XXX building..which was suppose to be just across the road the mrt station…should be easy to find ..haha..just read on..

The moment I finished tapping my ez link card..me approached the big map at the control station. i could spot the the building on the map..was really near..it was along the road parallel to the mrt track. How easy can it get?. But most pple who know me will know..i have a terrible sense of direction..me couldn’t figure which direction to walk..left or right?. The building was either on the left or right side of the mrt station..but me got real confused..lucky me never panic..cos me always say..duuno ask pple..so me stepped out of the mrt station to look for any intelligent-looking target…

So funny..me just walked less then ten steps from the mrt station..this person approached me with a survey form and asked me to help..ok..since I was not in a hurry, me agreed.. he asked whether I was employed..and I joked that I was not and was on my way to a job interview..that is if I manage to find the building..then he said something like ‘my company is hiring pple..would u like to come down for interview?’ he looked pretty decent..was wearing a t-shirt uniform..he asked whether I have heard of his firm: “chubb”

And I said “no”..quite stupid conversation we had..about wat kind of job I ws looking for and whether I was interested in going to his company for an interview..the firm was about 4 blocks away..seeing that I had no hope in finding the XXX building..me followed him to his company…now thinking of it..i had been a little reckless, maybe too trusting..but I remember asking him all sort of questions..but then..me ended up at the company and even filled in a form regarding my particulars ..and when I wrote under the ‘education background’ Temasek jc..’they raised their brows..and when I wrote that I have nil working experiences…their brows went even higher…. So when I finished..he called his boss who was somewhere to come and conduct the interview..while waiting, me played with the luo han fish they kept in the waiting room. We (me and mr luohan fish) were both every bored..the poor fish was swimming in circles..and circles..

After about hmm..5 mins..the ‘’boss’ called me into his room..woah..very young..abt early 30s or late twenties..and then he started to ask questions regarding the jobs I would like to take up and my mentality towards working in a competitive business like theirs…woah..then he started on their company history ..blaa blaa… only remember it is a MNC..got in many countries ..got investment of 3 million ..blah..blah…then after a whole lot of crap on aggressive sales and the training that was going to be provided..if one gets through the first application..(which I think is highly unlikely for me)..he asked “ so are u willing to take up the challenge and apply for the job?”..for the particulars had to be sent to some hq first…me hesitiated for abt 10 secs…and agreed.. I can only say now..wah cow man..wat was I thinking?.....me..sell security system? ..yes me got no nil zero confidence in my convincing powers ..but then..why not give it a try?...that wat u get when u r too adventurous I guess. And supposedly..they provide training to help u with that problem…which is good also..one really need that kind of skill to be better at ur career..
And so..me left the company with two person..who accompanied me to their firm. One was that surveyor..the other was his friend..hehe..the super cute guy I told YL abt…so kawaiii!..19 years old..very sunshine…. Hopfully I dun get the job..cos me not sure whether me prepared for the complicated world of sales..and I want to work with my beloved friends!..on the other hand..one should be contented with wat I given to u..complain too much…everything will be taken away..

did not sleep much last night cos got chalet.
came home and slept from 2-7pm..when i woke up, me felt so energyzied that i could run a marthon..
me got new computer moniter!! it was spolit a few days ago..which explains how weird the pictures came out when i editied them to put on my blog..

tmw going hami's house..and at night..dad gonna treat us out to dinner!!
when was the was the last time our whole family went out for dinner at some restraurant together?...very very long ago..so long in fact..i have no recollection...but tmw is my mom and dad's 22th wedding anniversary!!..haha...hope we all have fun tmw..

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haiz..me just went to collect the grad night photos..in total it costed a bomb..
the photos turned out quite good, non were blur, which was wat i was fearing for i had shaky hands.
but my brother insisted that i dun look gd..the make up wasnot nice...my mom was amused with all the pictures and keep asking me which one was my bf..haiz..i should have took a nicer pic with jiadai and show my mom... tmw got guitar chalet,and some volunteer thingy..and the time clashes..dunnoe wat i going to do...

You're an INFP
INFP
You focus deeply on your values and devote your life to chasing ideals... you often draw people together around a common purpose and work to find a place for each person within the group. You're creative and seek new ideas and possibilities. You quietly push for what's important to you, and rarely give up. You might be somewhat gentle or have a good sense of humor, you could be hard to get to know and overlooked by others...you like to make the world more in line with your vision of perfection.

If you're a teenager, you probably have a bit of a rebellious streak. You might argue with others who hold different values than yourself..you probably have a small close-knit group of friends...you can relax around these pals and be pretty entertaining, since you see the world in a different and special way... that's why your posts on the Storm Palace are so great!

Inner harmony is the most important thing to you. You're sensitive and loyal. You have a strong sense of honor concerning your personal values. You'd rather communicate your feelings in writing...

You do best in a flexible situation where the teacher/collegue takes a personal interest in you...you like to interact with your peers, but not TOO much ...you have both creativity and flexibility, and you like that about yourself....you don't get bogged down by details...your job must be fun and it must be meaningful to you....you don't wanna feel conspicuous so you'll sell yourself short just to avoid the spotlight...

You can be a gentle and subtle leader...being indirect and inclusive of others...you don't confront people head-on, but rather work with 'em to get the job done....you lead with your values in mind and let these guide you...you don't like conflict, so you don't confront situations directly.. you'd rather wait for a situation to work itself out....

Leisure and kickin' back is really important to you. sometimes it is hard to separate work from play, huh? when you find a new recreational pursuit, you do a lot of reading up on it...most of your leisure things are done alone, like reading, listening to music, and even BBSing....when you want to be sociable, you can be very charming and outgoing..

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INFP: "I Never Find Perfection"

Ok….i did say that the first thing I am going to do when I reach home is to go to sleep.. before updating the blog tonight. But I decided that I should write it first before I go to sleep, scared that my dreams will make me confused..wat rubbish, but wat ever, I am going to talk about the grad night like wat everyone else is going to.

Firstly I would like to say that it is a very troublesome event, and expensive too..the hair, the make-up, the facial, the dress, the accessories, the bags, the tickets, the shoes, the cameras (obviously I do not like to do myself up)…woah, everything add up together costed a bomb..long time never have to spend so much money and have to worry about how I look on one particular event.

In short>did my hair at jean yip.$38.cousin did makeup for free. Take taxi to RC.take a lot of pictures at the lobby, haha..me and shuhui finished 36 shots just about before we started dinner.
Yes the dinner…I have something to say about it.
It is worst than I expected. Pls lor..the MC har…dirty jokes, the use of dialect make me feel as though I am NOT anywhere near a students function, more like some ah pek coffee shop. The food arh,, cold dish ok..the rest sucks. The mango pudding nice lah..but not exactly very delicious lor..i think the marigold mango pudding cum jelly is even nicer.
Like I agreed with rosie, the nice food, they give in mini proportions, the rest(not so nice, where the school canteen, kampong delight can cook nicer stuff) they give so much..big disappointment for me ..
The worst thing is the miss and mr college pageant aiyo..pls lor..u think u want to choose a miss college by the way and her ability to sashay on the stage and blow kisses…and the mr college….i have nothing to say, I had more fun taking bimbotic photos at the reception area with my friend until my face cramp. Really took a lot of photos last night..until my face like sagging this morning. By about 1am, my eyes was blood-shot and my make-up make me look more gothic than anything.
Ok..i should not be complaining, for I did have fun ..cos I saw many many friends and took pictures with them..and plus I was wearing a dress…long long time never wear something like that liao…makes me reconsider whether I should add more dresses or skirts to my wardrobe.

After the grad, which ended (in a flash..haha..or a lot of flashes -_-|| ) at about 2, all of us, chenzhen, yingling, joan, jiadai, shuhui, rosie, jasmine and me went to shuhui’s house to sleep over.hmm..i have to say..i was fun! Although we did not do much, I must say that I really enjoy cozying up with u guys, and talking till the wee hours in the morning. We play “truth or truth”…haha..the other version of truth of dare.. haha..it was mostly about the guys we have crushes on.haha..each of us revealed a few..of course me not going to say anything here cos everything we said were not supposed to go out of the door of that room.
Ok ..looking at wat I had just written..i think me still a bit tired..so cannot see the hyperness in my words..maybe that’s why this entry is so short…and uncrappy..maybe I just want to keep the happy moments in my mind..or just that my mind is feeling cranky.

I have no idea when we going to see the girls again..maybe pretty soon(ear piercing). I just want to tell all of u :Everyone of u is very special to me. Hope all of u take care!