finally.. some time to myself.. maybe thts why i haven been blogging.. maybe i am plain lazy.. to just open the windown and add my thoughts some where..
the last itme bloged was like.. on my birthday..seems real far.. and insignificant now.. why does yesterday seem so far away...

these days have been bz.. after foc.. is opening of school.. trying to figure out wat subject is wat.. mentally exhausted.. hoping to clear up all the mess i have created.. the junk in my room and my mind.. to many things to do.. never prioritize,, end uo neglecting many many things.. sch is a mess. trying to clear 6 subject this sem.. more then ever.. one presentation every week.. xound sucky.. when u noe that the ur pronouciation is wrong. i speak singlish, there is no correct pitchin nor projection. posture is wrong too.. practically.. when i open my mouth .. its wrong..haha like always.. have like 9 weeks to buck up till the final video tapeing.. going to be hard.. wat stage fright.. that thing is not suppose to be exisitence when u are well prepared..haha. u beg to differ..

well.. money is tighter these days.. its horrible the way i spend.. v scary.. i dun like it at all.. i dun noe wat to blame it on .. the wrong clothes sense i had from the v beginning?.. i just realised fitting in is soooo hard.. and maybe i am not finanically able to do it.. even if i am metally able too... wat to do.. i a bit detest wearing hall shirts to nbs now.. its funny how pple chanhe their perception so fast.. so funny..wat to do .. ignorance is bless.. bo chap-ness is even better..

haiz.. now there is dnd.. clothes.. makeup.. contact.. accessoeis... they cost as much as my text books.. i want to cry le..

must be strong.. do my tutorials..

purpose passion and drive
i will blog more i promise myself... that way i will knoe that whether i am progressing.. if not .. may actually be preocratinating my life away..