i am suppose to be sleeping. but i just want to jot this down before i forget everything tmw

met bq and amy and mel and kh just now. the long talk was as confusing as shocking it was the inital news. i tried to put myself in their shoes.. and for a moment i could understand why they came to such a conclusion. the environment the pple, ur situation, the agony, the pain, the love the loss and the lost.. the lies and the promises the hope and the truth. if there is a simple explanation for everything, would u except it ? or would u disregard it.. for it was simply too good to be true. then again. i would say it was the easy way out for everyone involved. let nature take its course. maybe its becos i chose to believe what i hear, i believed.
all the best.

i was in quite a HIGH state just now.. ian thought i was on honey stars.. and yes i do get high on them. but the real reason was that i finally plucked up enough courage to move out of my comfort zone.. and boy did it feel gd. Dear told me that i could do it.. and that meant a lot to me.. why think u cannot do it even if u have not tried.. everyone got to start somewhere. everyone got to fail and learn and fail and learn again before u taste the sweetness of success. like a seed in the wind, i dun knoe where i will end up, but i am sure if i put in effort, keep being positive things will be better

new year resolution:
- find a new job. marketing related. events/fmcg, somewhere i can learn and stay for the next 2 years at least
- be more positive
- love my family and dear more
- keep in touch with my classmates and work mates..
- be a better person.