Wednesday, June 30, 2004
10:38 PM

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http://positivepause.com/

posted by crazyyuan

The best thing you can do for the future is to live with everything you have in the present.
Right now, you are in a position to create real, lasting value for the world in which you live in. How do you do that?
By following your heart.
By being the you that is really you.
You may have wandered away from yourslef.
Now is the time to come home.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
4:48 PM

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someone's blog

posted by crazyyuan
was updating myself on pple's life(blog reading).. and then i came across ianyeo's bloggie.. find it rather interesting.. could not imagine how rosie talks crap to this person at first.. now i think i do.. well something he said was very interesing and got me thinking....

"I realised that trying to be a nice person is actually wrong because thats not who you are. Even though you may appear nice, you may actually not be nice inside and in the end, all you are doing is deceiving people. Haizz. So when I tried to be nice before, apparently I was wrong. Oh well, I guess being myself isn't so bad. I think."


well.. thought that this person is pretty straight to the point in this thoughts..funny sometimes ..but then flipping through his archives.. one will think differently

4:34 PM

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doing things for the sake of doing...

posted by crazyyuan
well... my fingers are still crossed abt the NBSFOC... hopefully i dun get in..

in my last entry.. actually said that i dun really like sharing or complaining.. but the next thing i knew i was complaining to a senior xuanming on the phone.. paiseh sia..i guess i was that tired that i just didnt care anymore...but then it was nice talking to u after breaking contact for so long... well hope to see u around~

this week.. i think me having off on all the weekends..I THINK.. hopefully they dun send an sms to tell me togo to work tmw.. me got plans.. at least i think thats a plan.. go wildwildwet with MQ.. why do i have a feeling its going to rain tmw?.. how many more fingers have i got to cross?

but i had two amazingly smooth days yesterday.. maybe i was just lucky..yesterday i woke up at 12 plus for brunch and went out with MQ later in the afternoon with her friend.. on my way home me bought giadarno's dry tech clothes.. two bra top and a sleeveless tank top.. which totaled to 67 bucks.. still cannot believe i did that.. and i purchased the items without thinking more than twice.. was thinking.. it fits.. i need it anyway.. buy it... woah.. could have waited till my birthday.. but i dun think that will be very possible.. cos the sizes would hve ran out by then..or they have new line of clothes.. watever.. excuses excuses.. i used to think that i was the type of gal who was not into retail therapy.. but i guess not... but maybe its not.. cos i dun really feel better getting that stuff.. not that i will be beaming the whole week cos i got the items.. just that i will feel that i feel like spending some money.. and since i am earning some.. i can afford to spend on myself.. wat kind of thoughts are that?.. well since its my own money.. noone should complain except me.. but why should be?.. i dun noe.. just wanna..

today went to pay my phone bill.. amted to a shocking $40.35 .. dun noe wat i have been doing with my phone other than leave it lying around....and then bought a small pouch to protect my mp3player frm all the hard knocks it can get from my keys and pens and phone in my bag.. i suddenly realised..that i dun really shop to relax or anything.. its like pple who cut themselves to feel pain to know that they are alive.. well i jus to slap myself to remind myself who i am.. but know.. me have resort to anther method unknowingly.. siao.. and that spending money.. to buy new stuff.. to own new things.. to know that i am alive.. i am actually shopping for stuff... cos i am actually spending money....

when to the lib just now.. borrowed 3 chinese books and one david eddind book and another nora robert book... dun really noe wat i am doing.. just knoe i am borowing books.. wats the content of the three chinese book?.. compilation of online love stories.. the other two english books?.. how would i knoe.. have not read them yet...but i think i have really been doing things for the sake of doing ..really.. so that i wun be slacking around at home like a pig all day...

i saw a nice sight today when i was cycling to tm.. saw a leaf float down from the tree top.. reminded me of a story where a peasant boy catched a bag of fallen leaves to give to a princess who never smiled to make her smile to win her hand in marriage.. suppositly.. the each leave that has fallen from the tree and is caught will bring the catcher happiness.....

hey rosie.. your book Autobiography of a One-Year-old have mysteriously disappeared from my room.. dun worry.. my brother took it.. have is having much fun reading it really.. he likes the book and is amused by the old macdonald nursery rhyme crime..haha.. he says his gonna post something on his blog abt it or somthing.. can check it out if he ever got to doing it...

well thats all for today.. its back to my bed and teenage romance short stories..
Monday, June 28, 2004
12:19 AM

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NBSFOC.. to go or not to go...

posted by crazyyuan
should i go NBS camp???
..5 july to 9 july
.. to know pple
---50 bucks
--- lots of fun...
looking forward.. not loking forward.. part of me wanna go see see..
5 days 4 nights.. woah.. can die man..
friends have adviced me to go.. MQ and rosie and yingling.. say.. dun think too much~~.. well.. i guess must look on the bright side.. at least i wun noe anyone there.. hopefully.. .. no image to worry abt.... i think i am crazyyyyyy!!!!!..crazy i think i am..
ok.. going to go for it... ok nbs freshmen orentation camp..here i come~~.. i noe there are limited place.. *cross my fingers that i dun get in!!*
Sunday, June 27, 2004
10:36 PM

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Sorryz.. i know i stink...

posted by crazyyuan
well thats wat i have been thinking aloud about very day when i return home from work.. when i am on the train or at the mrt station.. really.. i dun need pple to rub their nose or give me funny looks.. i noe i stink from all the bK smells.. well i did try to reduce the air pollution by changing into another t-shirt.. but some times it doesnt help.. well pple.. sorry anywayz..

tmw is monday!!!~~
well me so happy cos no need to work tmw!!yeah~ :)..yap just wanted to say that.. cos its been so tiring lately....looking forward to having a break.. its like work and sleep eeryday that i dun noe wat else is happening in my life.. well.. its gets so tired sometimes that i just want to complain really really really loudly.. to some one hear me out hear me shout,hear me complain and hear me cry.. not that i really want to cry out loud.. i figure that i just want the attention .. i need that warm fuzzy feeling that someone is there for me.. but at the same time .. i dun want to open my mouth.. well hopefully someone who can understand me without me saying anything comes along.. i noe i have great friends.. but just cannot bear to just call them up jus to let them listen to my deafening silence.. cos i noe no one likes to hear the other line complaining and speaking like a wimpy person 90 % of the time.. well if i was the person.. i would say like.. hey go get a life.. why bother me with your problems.. maybe thats why i turn to my bloggy.. cos it cannot turn away from me..
fav song now :- 柠檬草的味道
fav line:-
我要的 我现在才懂得
快乐是我的 不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责
我要的我现在才懂得
选择是我的 不是你给的
幸福要自己负责

hey but dun worry... me not hinting here .. not that u guys cannot call me and talk or something.. ha.. but my good friends will noe.. when they call.. usually they do most of the talking.. with hey i dun mind a bit.. glad u all wanna let it out on me.. a problem shared is a problem halved.. but for me.. its jus so diff..

me woke up from a dream lately.. meiqiang will understand wat kind of dream is that for she was in a similar one too.. well.. i woke up..in disbelief.. but i guess.. i am glad its over.. it was a dream.. despite how beautiful it was... lets live in reality now
Thursday, June 24, 2004
11:23 PM

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where are u guys?

posted by crazyyuan
hey u all go arts camp right?.. i dun noe who.. but it sure is quiet around here!!!!!!!!(echo comes back)..sian ah.. luckily i just saw yingling on msn.. she says u all are coming out tmw.haha.. coming out.. like from jail.. anyway. hope to see yah around soon.. prob meet up with u guys and shuhui and jas as well!

oh ya.. xuemei.. wanna take up any minor in anything?.. how abt lit.. psychology?.. wonder if i can take it.. how nice would it be to be able to study lit again..miss those days man..

me got this ocean Ou De Yang cd.. tell u guys its really really nice.. the songs are scenic and close to ur heart when u hear them.. his voice is mature and strong with a hint of boyishness.. the songs like 'wu wei xiong' and "xing fu lie che", "xu xu xu" and "Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu" are ones that simply melts ones heart when u hear them and really believe how he mean it when he sings the songs.. highly recommended

got the Won Fu cd also.. haha.. one thing have to say.. its so ah Q.. thats its low iQ-ed.. really.. happy becos not becos u are.. but simply becos u want to be happy..
thats perhaps why i bought the cd.. would recommend it to pple who want to hear the voices thats are not troubled by love, traffic or even rain... only the no of goose in the sky and how the sheep felt when its wool was taken and rain puddles are so amazing.. simple things in life :P
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
11:12 PM

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wats my name...

posted by crazyyuan
- at the shop i answer to many names.. the aunties just cannot spare a little memory space to remember my beautiful name...but they rather..
xiao mei~.. xiao hui~.. ah hui~... jia hui~..hui!!~...and last but not least... errr!! wats ur name?...

this afternoon.. my brother's friend called the house like more then five times looking for Steve.. and my mom keep saying..mei you zhe ge ren!(dun have this person!).. until like after dun noe how many times..she finally remebered..haha.. poor thing..
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
11:09 PM

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http://www.inspirationpeak.com/life.html

posted by crazyyuan
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.


Mother Teresa
Catholic Nun, Missionary
Nobel Peace Prize Recipient

10:38 PM

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off day thoughts

posted by crazyyuan
had a quiet off day today...stayed in bed till 11.. woke up to eat br-unch... read rosie'd book and listened to cds unil 3.. called meiqiang on the phone.. chat until dunnoe when.. had nap until 7.. woke up for dinner..bathed.. watch tv until nine.. now at comp...

well.. just have to say its a nice break .. also a day to send all the ntu forms.. throw away the nus pamplets.. clear my table.. read my book.. there is something nice i want to share from the book i got from rosie: Autobiography of a One-year-old

"(the XVI month old kid(go figure how old is that) just woke up in his crib)..i stretch out a foot and encounter the bars. They are hard and unyeiding. But there are spaces between them. I have long thought that in this arrangement of bars and spaces there is a metaphor for life.Whatever we try to achieve in life, there are always bars barring our way. But there are also always spaces. In pessimistic mode, i wallow in the knowledge that the spaces are invariably too small to crawl through..When optimism prevails, i tell myself that there's always a big enough space somewhere. I just have to find it...."

something i figured out recently is that.. there is often no right or wrong in the things that happen in life.. watever be it something we have done to others.. or something pple have done to us.. its just whether we can accept it our not.. and this depends the ruler we just to measure our morals.. and since everyone have different rulers.. we all judge things differently.. and a thing can be sweet and cute to some.. and ugly and disgusting to another.. just becos that kiddo just cannot accept it..well... i would say..
~if u cannot accept it.. leave ur comments to yourself..unless u want to attract the attention of the whole world to u that u cannot accept just another rival matter...
~if u can accept it.. get over with it and get on with ur life...

someone who knows a lot would figure out that there is still out there in the world to discover..
on the other hand.. someone who knows little would not realise wat he have missed out.. but still think he have noes a lot..
so the best things is say.. i dun noe..haha


considering whether to continue the part time job when i start school.. will be only working on fri, sat and sun then.. woah.. wont that be very tiring?... i have no idea wats that gonna be like.. must really see my timetable before i make any decisions.. but my mom seem full approval to that kind of life( which seems to be to be having NO LIFE..)..haiz.. how? she did specifiy.. with that extra allowance of abt 400 a month.. i will probably afford to eat more.. for the daily allowance of 10 dollars will definately leave me hungry for a meal or two.. and then the books i have to buy?.. my bro says that biz books arent going to come cheap...yikes... and then there is going to be the medical check up on thursday.. it just reminds me that school is going to start real soon.... and then the yucky orentiantion.. so shity man... i hope that i will be in a good mood then.. or else i will be so super antisocial.. then pple will see my black face.. then i will have no friends...boo hoo.. and then speaking of friends.. all my good friends.. yes u all... yingling, rosie, daidai, eunice, jas, hami, meiqiang, peiyu.. will not be there....woah... i cannot say that i am really looking forward to a new school year...
but i dun think its gonna be that bad right?.. still got msn... technology .. wonderful..
Monday, June 21, 2004
1:11 AM

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tired...sia.. but bloggie must go on..

posted by crazyyuan
hey bloggie.. i took back my words...my job is not the easiest one i have ever done.. recently.. ok.. just for the last few days.. me been working the mid shift.. 12-8.30...the shift which is the busiest cos got the most pple cos got lunch crowd and dinner crowd.. wah sia.. usually.. when time to go home...me cannot remember wat my name is..that usually.. i just stomp me way all the home from the shop...tired and stinky...

something nice happened this morning.. me managed to get a seat on the mrt cos today is sunday.. was feeling quite restless cos its sunday and me was going work.. while everonee else was swarming to orchard .. well.. at the bedok stop.. a couple with a stroller came into the train.. the mother had very dark eye rings and sat opp me while the father with a stroller sat in the empty seat beside me.. and kid.. i think abt 2 or three years old.. started crawling at me.. very cute boy~.. except it was trying to grab everything on me.. my shirt.. my ear phones.. my specs.. my bag..my eye chain..my handphone.. well i settled that by giving my phone to the baby..haha.. to the shock of the father ..haha.. well the good thing is that the kid did not throw the phone away.. though i dun think that can do any more damage to my phone... but then.. later when the baby.. whose name which i later came to know as Matthew..calmed down.. me talked to the father.. who was quite amused that i allowed the baby to grab everything except my spects and that i was going to ntu buz... and he explained that he was a buz graduat frm nus...we talked to me abt how exciting hostel life would be ... how uni life would be... and then actually advised be to get involved the clubs and soceities....cos the cca record will somehow help when i am getting a job... i did not really thought it would matter.. but some how i am not totally convinced... but then he said something that a company would rather employ someone who is well rounded.. than someone who only studies throughout 3 years in uni...
well.. how do.. u like someone who joins the othello and netball club...for 3 years...ok..just think..
Friday, June 18, 2004
3:11 AM

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Posts from CanUtellme.blogspot.com.. shortlived

posted by crazyyuan
Thursday, June 17, 2004
is my life just a play?


when to watch a play yesterday by the nus drama.. was quite interesting.. cos it was at the bedok library.. hence the crowd it attracted ranged from 60 years old ah peks to 3 years old kinds who mumbled very loudly..maaameeee....!!.. everynow and then.. it made me realise the importance of having an audience.. when u are actually having the play.. its all abt conveying a message to the audience.. or else there is no purpose in having a drama or a play.. well.. its the same as being yourself.. u are the main character... with all ur friends around u playing the story with u.. and the story is called life.. and who is the audience?.. everyone.. maybe thats why we are self-consious of wat we do.. cos everyone is watching.. prob if no one is watching.. we all can be very different pple.. doing things we really like.. or is it simply the image we all trying to protray.. the image we are trying to keep as ' my image' in other pple's mind... i dun noe.. its like writing a blog.. for self entertainment.. also to entertain other pple as well for some.. well.. if there is no audience.. like writing in your very own personal diary.. well... one should have nothing to hide.. no need to conceal anything.. but of course.. u can also try to escape from the real world by writing stuff that are not as they seem.....


my blog.... my table...me....messy life well.. after much cutting and pasting and figuring out the unknown language of html.. i finally attempted to salvage the look of my old blog...it wasnt much.. just that with this site looking like the old one.. maybe i wont miss the old one so much.. but then.. ironically.. withit looking like the old one.. its hard not to think of the old one...

it some how occured to me that my blog was like my study table at home.. untidy.. heaped up with stuff, dark.. with many old stuff and most importantly.. it has a lot of things with can be rendered useless but things that i would not throw away.. and i would leave lying around.. really.. coming to think of it... its like that harry potter and the something stone ticket stub which had peiyu's hp no behind.. did u remember peiyu?.. thats when u first got ur hp..haha.. well and the old post cards..ntu brochures.. nus booklets.. files.. bills and a bunch of highlighters and pens here and a stack of rough paper there.. things that i think i would be using some day and just leave on my table.. which results in a mess which my mom is always nagging abt.. well my blog is the same.. hey.. who really go and read the archives.. to go see wat the hell u were busy abt last year this time?... and any way.. ur blog is really a whole of crap.. to others.. like ur mom;s reaction towards ur mess on the table.. but hey.. these things actually have some value lor.. does not mean that they sit there and collect dust.. mean that they are useless... well who am i trying to convince.. maybe the only thing i can say is that those entries were wat i was really experiencing in the two years of jc life in tj.. be it tears or joy or frustration or anger.. since i dun keep a diary.. thats the only record i have.. well i am GLAD to say that the only things that i am left with after those two years is not just a bunvch of certs, t-shirts and testimonies.. ..yap...

yap.. anyone wanna go medical checkup togther at ntu on the 24 june?


Wednesday, June 16, 2004
i feel sad leh..

basically i am now just feeling very sad.. should i?..
i dun noe.. feeling sad over a lost blog..
what could i have done with it anyway?.. i dun noe..
i dun noe...i noe wat i need now.. i need to scold someone.. myself..


THIS IS TERRIBLE....
I WANT TO CRY.....REALLY...

I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY BLOG OF CRAZYYUAN!!!
CAN SOMEONE HELP ME???
I SO WANT THIS TO BE JUST A DREAM.. I WANT TO WAKE UP AND I WANT MY BLOG BACK
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO ITCHY FINGERS AND GO AND TOUCH THE STUPID BUTTON??
WHY DO I HAVE TO ASSUME THAT I WAS DELETING THE RIGHT BLOG?
WHY DO I KEEP AN EMPTY BLOG THAT I NEVER USED AND WOULD ONE DAY WOULD WANT TO DELETE AND END UP DELETING THE WRONG ONE!!??
WHY DID I NOT GO TO SLEEP JUST NOW.. BUT WANT TO WAKE UP AND CREATE A PERSONAL BLOG..
WHY??.. IS IT BECOS I WAS TOO SELFISH AND THE IDEA OF HAVING A PERSONAL BLOG HAD PUNISHED ME BY DELETING MY OLD BLOG??
I WANT MY OLD BLOG BACK..SOB.. I REALLY REALLY DO...
I JUST WANTED TO A BLOG TO MYSELF...WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN?

SUDDENLY A NEW CHAPTER(BLOG) OF MY LIFE DOES NOT SO NICE...
CRAZYYUAN.... WHY?..... NOW WAT AM I GOING TO DO???.. I HAVE LOST ACCESS TO EDITING THAT BLOG.. I SUDDELY HAD A HOLLOW AND SOUR FEELING AS I HAVE PUT SOOO MUCH OF MYSELF INTO THAT BLOG .. MY THOUGHTS MY IDEAS MY CRAP.. ALL THINGS THAT I FEEL THAT DUN NEED TO BE SAID OUT LOUD IN FRONT OF MY FRIENDS BUT I FEEL IMPORTANT ABOUT.. ALL AND ALL THE STUFF.. POEMS.. IDEAS.. ME ..MYSELF.. ITS PRACTICALLY WHO I AM.. GONE..... *FROWN*

WAT CAN I DO?
WAT WILL I DO?


3:05 AM

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CRAZYYUAN IS BACK!!!!!

posted by crazyyuan
i cannot believe it till now... me was just chatting with my cousin huixin on msn.. and the msn mail icon popped up to inform me that i had mail from blogger support.. i had mail to them eariler(u can see the pleading letter below) for help.. and help they gave me..they help me get back my blog.. which i suspect for them is just at the effort of a click of a button.. but anyway... oh so thankyou!!! me so glad..
and now armed with renewed knowledge of blogger... me combined some of the new features of blogger with my old bloggy and all these add up to one thing... blogger rulze!.. thanks to blogger support!!.. haha.. xuemei.. those pple are not not so mean after all!!

2:53 AM

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my cries were heard !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cannot believe it!!!

posted by crazyyuan
From : Blogger Support
Sent : Friday, June 18, 2004 2:46:48 AM
To : "crazy yuan (1664351, )"
Subject : Re: accidentally deleted my blog!!!!...sob


Hi there,

I have recovered your deleted blog. You should see this blog listed in
your Dashboard the next time you log into Blogger.

Best regards,
Blogger Support

Original Message Follows:
------------------------
From: "crazy yuan (1664351, )"
Subject: accidentally deleted my blog!!!!...sob
Date: Tue, 15 Jun 2004 10:59:40 -0700

i accidetally deleted my blog : www.crazyyuan.blogspot.com .
and i dun noe wat to do??.. i am terrified as i have a huge portion of my
life in my blog and i love that blog very very much.. i very much want to
get it back but do not know how.. can u help me..pls.. i really love to
get my blog back...pls help...any instructions..anything..or can i
retrieve my archives or files from anywhere??...




Tuesday, June 15, 2004
11:37 PM

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short hair.. after so much effort to grow long hair....haiz..haha

posted by crazyyuan
yap.. as i said .. i got a hair cut yesterday.. the moment i stepped into the shop today.. the aunties cound not recongise me.. haahaa.. the the usual questions, why u cut your hair?.. why cut until so short?.. ni shuo le shen mo da ji?(wat blow did u receive that made u cut ur hair?)...

well eunice said that its some stylo-milo hiar style..haha.. the thing is that she have not seen it yet... well.. i can simply say its the shortest hair style ever since i was a baby.. and the most drastic one so far... when i look at the mirror.. i think of - the monkey king when he just popped out from the rock where he was imprisoned for 500 years.. the jungle boy.. from the jungle book.. 'harry potter'.. quote from daidai.. some kid who who never comb his hair and played at the void deck all day long..hair very big.. shaggy.. just wake up.. uncombable.. me....haha
Monday, June 14, 2004
9:38 PM

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happy~me happy~:P

posted by crazyyuan
happy~me happy~:P

just came back from my 5 day trip in malaysia on saturday night..haha...it was a real fun trip just a bit too rushed cos have to follow tour group.. like.. how can u have enough of shopping if u are only given one hour to shop in a five storey shopping centre ?..well.. can only say that the trip was quite tiring as well.. cos there was nothing to do except sleep in the bus when they travel from destinations to another.. its like morning.. breakfast..get on bus sleep...go some temple pray.. then sleep.. go some local bakery to buy produce.. then sleep.. then lunch.. then sleep.. well the days went on like that...how can one not get fat? .. amazingly.haha.. i did not.

came back on saturday.. and meet up with rosie, yingling and daidai and eunice and joan to watch football at yingling house.. although me not some euro or any football fanatic... but i had fun.. haha.. all the nonsense like laughing at dai dai (our fav past time now.. can never be amused how long it can last..haha).. and every other stupid thing we said... i can only say that i enjoyed myself very much..haha... when it came to the match btw france and england.. it wasnt quite exciting during the first half.. which soon after i fell asleep.. haha.. to be occasionally awoken by the screams of the gals downstairs... hey yingling.. did u parents said anything?..hopefully not .. much.. anyway.. we woke up the at about nine or ten in the morning in a semi-awake state and remained that way till afternoon.. bumped around yingling house and met daidai to have lunch and collect her cert.. haha.. all four of us in black clothes were like bodyguards protecting a little innocent gal in pink..well.. it went smoothly... and we went back to TJ to collect our A'level cert(it was nice to be back.. except for the empty feeling inside me.. and the weirdness of an empty school).. and then ice kacang at the hawker center opp the school!!.. where we sat in 'comfortable silence' while we slavoured our dessert on that super hot afternoon.. afterwhich..we then to bedok interchange to cut my hair.. snip here snip there...haha.. and there went my pony tail... no more.. now wats left is just a very boyish short hair cut..very cooling.. when i look in the mirror.. i dun recogonise myself.. doubt any body other than my close friends will too.. but its good getting a new hair cut.. its like cutting all the worries away.. suddenly everything is lighter... no more innocent guai guai sweet little gal image to maintain or keep up with.. ah...now my next plan.. get new specs...haha... till i get my pay first of course...

hey guys.. really had fun with u all today !!.. have not laughed that hard since like.. very long ago.. i look back and when i saw the bunch of us all 6 of us sqeezing into yingling's bed and floor.. i think that our freindship is really great.. one that i will never forget in a long long time..


Lisa Beamer on Good Morning America - If you remember, she's the wife of
Todd Beamer who said "Let's Roll!" and helped take down the plane that was
heading for Washington, D.C. on 11 September. She said it's the little things that she misses most about Todd, such as hearing the garage door open as he came home, and her children running to meet him.

She's now the Mom of a beautiful little girl, Mary. Lisa recalled this story: I had a very special teacher in high school many years ago whose husband died suddenly of a heart attack. About a week after his death, she shared some of her insight with a classroom of students. As the late afternoon sunlight came streaming in through the classroom windows and the class was nearly over, she moved a few things aside on the edge of her desk and sat down there.

With a gentle look of reflection on her face, she paused and said, "Class is over. I would like to share with all of you, a thought that is unrelated to class, but which I feel is very important.

"Each of us is put here on earth to learn, share, love, appreciate and give of ourselves None of us knows when this fantastic experience will end. It can be taken away at any moment. Perhaps this is the Powers way of telling us that we must make the most out of every single day." Her eyes beginning to water, she went on, "So I would like you all to make me a promise.

From now on, on your way to school, or on your way home,
find something beautiful to notice. It doesn't have to be something you see, it could be a scent, perhaps of freshly baked bread wafting out of someone's house, or it could be the sound of the breeze slightly rustling the leaves in the trees, or the way the morning light catches one autumn leaf as it falls gently to the ground.

"Please look for these things, and cherish them. For, although it may sound trite to some, these things are the 'stuff' of life. The little things we are put here on earth to enjoy. The things we often take for granted. We must make it important to notice them, for at anytime it can all be taken away."
The class was completely quiet. We all picked up our books and filed out of the room silently. That afternoon, I noticed more things on my way home from school than I had that whole semester.> Every once in a while, I think of that teacher and remember what an impression she made on all of us, and I try to appreciate all of those things that sometimes we all overlook.

Take notice of something special you see on your lunch hour today. Go barefoot, or walk on the beach at sunset. Stop off on the way home tonight to get a double dip ice cream cone. For as we get older, is not the
things we did that we often regret, but the things we didn't do.

Remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Monday, June 7, 2004
12:06 AM

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Take me to your heart take me to your soul, give me your hand before I'm old, show me what love is-haven't got a clue,show me that wonders can be true

posted by crazyyuan
well i jus wanna share something with all of u!!...me will surely (stamp plus chop confirmed) be very happy for two very important moments everyday if i need to go out.. especially when i need to travel all the way to the MRT ...haha

as some of u may know me got a mp3player.. i will always plug it into my ears when i go cycling frm my house to the mrt station.. on the 5-8 min ride there.. i am in my very own person in my very own world..be it linkin park rocking the world down with Numb..or Collin Raye 's Love, me... i can always imagine myself to be like in a mtv.. or more like in my own world..with the whole world just passing by me.. and me in the middle of it all...on the bike.. with the wind in ur hair.. with pple and traffic just buzzing pass u like own the entire place and ur bike can take u to any destination.. i juz love that feeling man.. and when feel like singing on top of ur lungs.. u can jus do it.. cos no passerby will hear u for more than a sec..haha..


>Artist: Michael Learns To Rock Lyrics
Song: Take Me To Your Heart Lyrics
>

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

(Chorus)
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend

Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
(Chorus)


Sunday, June 6, 2004
2:03 AM

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Just for laughs

posted by crazyyuan
Will be out of town frm 8-12 June.. Dun miss me!!~~ :P..

Well.. if my mom wakes up down.. she will surely try to kill me or attempt to send the computer flying fifteen storeys down..wat can i say..i am suppose to be sleeping.. still got work tmw at 12-7.. i must say.. a crazy person got to do wat a crazy person's got to do.. so while i am waiting for my pony tail to dry...cos it got wet will i was taking a shower.. i might as well blog and update u guys on my life..

ok.. have been working night shift for the past.. two days.. quite fun.. on the first night.. when i was getting tired and started to yawn.. i looked at my watch and gave a loud gasp.. for it was only eight!.. siao man.. the time was crawling like it was competing with the snail who could be slower.. but then when it got late into the night.. at abt nine thirty to ten.. me started to become hyper.. yes.. become very high and start giggling over stupid stuff.. that always seem to happen when i am too tired... just now.. a colleague nearly accidentally poked me in the eye with a pair of tongs.. and i joked loudly the if that happened.. the customer would have bak kwa and eyeballs to jia1 liao4 ( as a special ingrediant) in her pack.. well .. only one person tsked.. dun remeber who.. but i think the rest was speechless..haha..

and it seems that the pple at the shop really are not tired.. we only close until the last customer leaves.. which is usually at 10 30.. when offically.. we should be closed at ten.. stupid.. at ten plus... i can still be seen smiling and chatting with the customers who come in to see see look look ..

' hi mdm!.. want to buy bak kwa?... today got discount leh! the chili pork usual 40 per kg today only 31.50 dollars!..a very good buy u know.. or u want 600g?.. only 18.90.. usual 24.. how much would u like.. how about trying some first?..'

and believe me.. i sound like a super-sweet and-act-cute little gal..the voice which luckily i think is only comes out when i am standing behind the counter.. or all my good friends out there will die of laughing...of course.. how can they not?.. i quote from my good friend kairu:

as long as Zihui is around.. every body else is gentle( wen rou) / ladylike..

Well.. wat can i say..nothing..

while i was giving out pamplets for BCH in the evening.. i have learnt many new lessons as well (crapping begins here*.. but its wat i really think... some a bit stupid though..)

1) dun ever give out pamplets at the opening of the station at which the direction of the crowd is leaving the area... the pamplets will be useless..
2) do not hesitate to smile at the pple u are giving out pamplets to .. cos some pple are really nice.. even if they dun take it,, and they often smile back!.. cos when u smile.. u pin point a person and show .. and not just shoving stuff into their hands.. that u are really happy to give something away.. and pple are happy to take too!
3) it does not hurt to to say something abt the promotion or watever stuff u having on the pamplet.. cos.. i realised that when u speak.. pple who r really interested will react and take initiative to take the pamplet.. of course make ur life easier... and u pin point pple who actually see u standing in front of them.. at least u have their attention..and u do not have to flap ur pamplet in front of their faces.. they would usually jus wave no.. which i think is much better than ignoring ur existance..
4)stand at a crowded place.. like outside a shopping center.. their exit.. the crowd walking into the direction of ur shop.. the idea of u in the middle of a crowd is better than a deserted corner.. never be afraid that u will be surrounded and die od suffocation... cos there will always be an automatic invisible barrier .. by pple who will avoid pamplets gives like their second nature
5)make friends with the security guard .. at least u will save urself from any embarrassment and the security guard from getting a pay cut.. which i have learnt.. if i stand too near the entrance..haha
6)enjoy ur work! enjoy wat u do!.. it may be saturday night!.. pple are out with their family or friends shopping like crazy.. chionging the life out of them.. at least u are not alone.. although u may feel jealous that everyone is having a great time except u with ur huge stack of pamplets.. hey look at the bright side.. u are getting paid for going to orchard everyday.. and u have seen all that can be seen at the sales.. and ur getting paid for it.. and when work is finished.. the shops are closed.. save u money cos u dun even get to spend a cent!
7)and a very impt point.. pple tend to take pamplets when they see pple in front of them take one.. especially aunites and children.. so be fast and make use of the kiasuism in singaporeans to give out the pamplets more quickly..haha

well after giving out abt a thousand pamplets.. i can say.. i can a bit understand their life .. quite sad sometimes when pple look at u like an alien when u hold out a piece of paper to them.. why?.. i still dun understand.. well . i will be nicer to these pple from then on.. it hard work to give out pamplets.. really.. u all should try it some day..


referance: *( 'crapping begins here' is a special catergory for my special friend like pei yu.. or anyone like her out there who thinks my blog is to damn crappy.. too long.. dun really want to read all the stupid stuff..u get the point.. so.. u all can stop reading here.. at ur own lose of course)
Thursday, June 3, 2004
11:30 PM

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posted by crazyyuan
ho~

get the ndp ticket!~> http://www.ndp.org.sg/
check out this Moblog thingy ~>http://moblog.ndp.org.sg/main/index.asp

me just watched the news.. can start getting NDP tickets!! Yeah.. me gonna try and get them.. i think i would be really nice for the whole family to go out togther. Cos in my family.. we only go out altogther the four of us only during Chinese New Year.. and that is like two days out the whole of the whole year.. yap.. cos my father is always working and never returns home before 11 every night...
so hopefully.. i can get the tics.. then we have a family outing!! Now that me and brother are getting older.. and my parents are getting older.. and that me and my brother are going to live in the hostel in uni.. i simply think we need to spend more time together and not always indulge in our work and studies.. sometimes.. i just wanna grow up quickly and make lots of money so i can give my parents a comfortable life.. at least fulfill their dreams of going overseas. and all others.... to places like china .. well till then .. can only be a filial little gal and spend more time with them.. dun want to have any regrets..

the day passed very slowly today.. very slowly.. at the bk shop.. there were pple occasionally dropping by.. but usually they only buy very little.. and with so many full time pple there.. there is hardly anything for me to do.. except like.. pack pork flos.. some exciting job..well just when i was thinking of how to survive the long and boring weekdays , my supervisor reminded me that today is thursday!! I had thought it was wed all along.. how dumb.. cos i dun keep track of the days.. but then i am happy.. cos weekend is near!.. hopefully there will be lots of pple at the shop... and then i will have lots of things to do and time will fly!!~

praying for my dear friends that hopefully they get news from the uni of their choice....