well i din expect i would be saying it soo soon but... I AM STILL JOBLESS.. this fact will officially hit me in less than a month's time... wat the hell am i going to do abt it..

serious stuff aside.. lets talk abt more fun stuff..
as some friends know.. i have taken on playing online computer games recently.. mainly on ntu bnet playing non-dota games such as tower defence mafa, civil war.. and getting scolded for being a noob lol.. its fun to peek into this other world where millions of guys(mainly) spend their waking time on.. the world of battles be it using their SnY on their SK or threads on their hum sniper or the funny turkey bird with its chickens or the lion with its ever powerful finger.. back stabbing each other and comparing creep kills..and the 'first blood!', double kill'.. triple kill!, 'killing spree..','dominatingggggg'..lol after entering the bnet.. ntu battle net.. i start to understand how guys can sit in front of the comp and forsake sleep and drink and food and toilet... wats new? its addictive u would say...yup i agree and there is more to that..there is passion for what they do.. and when u enjoy wat u do.. u dun feel tired or hungry .. just a simple game of mafa can get me playing till 6am in the morning.. lol.. i pretty much dun play other stuff.. so look forward to any mafa games.. and having recently been 'exposed' as the third GIRL on bnet..(which i find v ammusing.. surely there is more gals out there. just that they dun say so..).. the two other gals xiner and wendy are quite amused..lol.. well thats interesting right?
well.. look out for PAPERASH~... or just call me ash for short..lol

suppose to create an e-commerce website for a mod's project.. created some banners..

Age 3: Looks at herself and sees a Queen!
Age 8: Looks at herself and sees herself as Cinderella/Sleeping Beauty.
Age 15: Looks at herself and sees herself as Fat/Pimples/UGLY
(Mum I can't go to school looking like this!)
Age 20: Looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly"
- but decides she's going out anyway.
Age 30: Looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall,too straight/too curly"
- but decides she doesn't have time to fix it so she's going out anyway.
Age 40: Looks at herself and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall,too straight/too curly"
- but says, "At least, I am clean and goes out anyway.
Age 50: Looks at herself and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: Looks at herself and reminds herself of all the people who can't even see themselves
in the mirror anymore. She goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: Looks at herself & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn't bother to look. Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.

Maybe we should all grab that purple hat earlier....

i wonder how many pple have heard of Second Life here.. as popular as blogs in singpaore, second life is a virtual game where pple could have avatars and explore a virtual world. not to mention, create a business, make $$ off the virtual world.
and while surfing around today i saw something interesting.. Global community pet game. Gopets.. here is a screen shot. wat is the world wide web coming too? virtual worlds for humans.. now pets...

i was thinking..more of i was day dreaming.. how would i look like if i wore dresses. wonder if it would be nice.. i aint the more gentle/fairy looking like gal in the world..lol just wondering.. would be an interested sight.. hopefull when i go work next time..i can actully buy dresses and WEAR THEM.. cos i dun think i will wear any of that now.. cos pple will think i am crazy....really.. cos its not me at all...

Had a long day today.. in terms of hrs.. not realy.. but mentally i was having it real bad... today was the presentation of bm315, our project was on Potential ports on PSA. 30 min of presentation and 1hr plus of Q&A aka shooting aka Livefiring...
i was suppose to present the intro and beginning of Port of South Louisiana for our grp.. 47 slides.. 6 pple.. 30 min..and 1 idiot/coward backed out. and that was me.. i was freaking out.. in one way or another.. i dint want to present.but i knew i had to.. it wasnt a must.. but it was sort of a responsibility.. as part of the grp and having not presented b4. in the end .. shan.. the nicest person in the world presented my part on my behalf.. wats wrong with me? despite how sorry i felt abt the decision i made.. i was stuggling internal at wat i should be doing.. presenting my part. i am an irreponsible person.
i tried helping out in the QNA.which was still ok. only to know that Ian(the tut) wasnt v happy with out map( something i did) and slides structure..(another thing i did) in additional.. the guilt and tiring day left me a headache that lasted thru dinner until 11pm.. i believe in bad karma.. that was goes around comes around.. guess thats one example of that. though Ian felt we did ok on the overall.. if i coulf turn back the time.. i would present.. (so much for attempting to escape a presentation and succeeding) i would feel much better...


are u prepared?? for the big world out there?
I AM NOT.. i dun noe wat to do... met a hall mate on the sch shuttle bus on my way back hall.. he told me abt his application with P&G.. have gone thru quite a few rounds of interview.. and he is still looking forward to gd news.. and he is from engineering.. going to do CMK- consumer market knowledge

as i look at the webby www.intersg.com i wonder to myself.. where am i going to do that great leap of fate into the corporate world.. i remember the feeling of my PA. i wasnt the most well-liked person in the world.. mainly becos i was different.. and my effort to blend in din work and i gave up... thinking of taking an internship from may to july..looking at the Sale n marketing intership in Singapore Media Press and as a marketing intern in 1 Workshop Pte Ltd.. then i though.. i am prob not good enough.. i will never prob be good enough.. though a marketing major in ntu biz. i dun think the corporate world will be nice to me..wat should i do? perhaps i should be more reckless.. i realised i apply more jobs when i pms..and significantly become more ham ji (coward) when i am normal.. this is not working.. at all..

http://3ec.us/creatingfun/imgs/pon
found this Pon and Zi images on feizi's webby.. pretty cute sharing with u guys here. and hope it can brighten up ur day too~

这是什么东西来的？
打狗棒？插花棒？
是“招福元宝”棒！

腰酸背痛 敲一敲， 疼痛全没了.
儿女不孝 摇一摇， 儿女听话了.
金钱不够 挥一挥， 财路一定到.

招福元宝，万事好!
捶背插花，功效到!
家家户户，不能少！
祝您来年， 没烦恼！
生日快乐！

The above was wat me and bro wrote in the card for my mom's bdae present. see pic below. quite funni.. my mom was fairly amused.. and my sister-in-law though that we were advertising for the massaging stick..lol not se say it.. seems quite true..

its been a bz weekend.. had project meet at bras basah mac on sat morning at 11am.. so early.. brough my laptop.. but there was no internet access.. so disappointing sia.. dun do much.. felt guilt cos a fellow grp mate completed more than 1/2 the report of our part. will try to make it up to here.. then there was another meeting at same place again at mac with the rest of the grp.. din do much.lol.. maybe its me.. slack too much.. cant seem to do anything constructive.. haiz.. must jia you~

Next event up coming : SEXY BOMB BOMB PARTY( party for og bombers)
just realised there is segment pricing!! woah.. seniors more exp.. suppose to be a stripes party. stripes.. not strip.. is my spelling getting worse? cos i suddenly cant remember how to spell.. haiz.. nvm look forward to seeing u guys yeah..

and then my bro is going on a GRAD TRIP~~!!!
to taiwan he is planning.. abt $800 for tics, hotel and food!! thats like so cheap right?? NATA is coming to suntec this coming sun 26 march at hall 601-604 ( cos i keep starting at its poster on the mrt train.. effective advertising man natas!)who wants to go overseas? almost everyone i noe is going out!!
i miss the clean waters of phiphi island..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pv5zWaTEVkI



I think we will see this on the ren chi charity show prety soon

wat u are an undergrad, the best news u can get is a call to go for a job interview. however the worse news might be that on further research.. it wasnt the company u though it might be. yes it did it say its an mnc, doing marketing.. looking for managment trainee. but further research only showed simple website, no links.. more disappointingly.. street sales... extremely disappointed.. dun think i will look for work in a while again.. haiz..

what is my tigger and eyore peeking at? its a gift for my mom .. two back massageing thingy.. haha one a golden tael and one a cat beackoning happiness.. "zhao fu".. its her birthday on sat.. say it at mini toons. just cant help it but get it for her.. shall try to write someting nice.. hope she likes it.. as must as i do..hee

.. that is just one of the nicest thing u said..

probably to address some queries too..ha..

"i always thought zihui is a strong gal"
" how come u cry so easily now"

some things are easier typed than said.. rather than said than done..

i was a strong gal.. some of my friends who have know me a long time have hardly ever seen me shed a tear or two.. unless a sand were to do into my eye.. of course.. its harder then cos i always wore specs.. and once in a while.. i still do. perhaps being with u. i have learn to let loose and not be so 'tough' anymore.. there was no need to stand up to anyone.. no need to try to be someone else.. but sometimes i guess its just pms that i am really moodly and the slightest unhappy idea/message/intention on my mind trigger tears .. and no matter how i try to stop then.. they just dun stop. perhaps i have become sedimental. like a weed grown fond of the fence it has been leaning on.. once the fence is removed.. the weed falls... too easily it falls.. for a moment one could understand wat they mean when they say they wun bother if the sky were to fall on them as they had each other..

its only in front of the closest pple do i shed any tear.. still the tough and garang person i hope am.. be for my parents .. not being a good enough filial daughter, for my whole family.. not being a good enough child .. for my dear.. no being a good enough person for u.. but i will try my bestest!! lol .. happy 5th month in advance dear~

This website : http://sweetliquid.livejournal.com simply took my breath away. just got to intro it out to gals out there who like handmade jewerlly.. to those who are still trying it out. dun give up too soon. cos creativity comes from within.. (not advertising or anything cos i dunnoe the person. but just feeling that great talents should be celebrated!)

Pick up lines
those i like.. i bold..
those that make me faint are in italics..
i dare anyone to use them!

My name isn't Elmo, but you can tickle me anytime you want to!

Excuse me, are your initials M & M? Cause you look so good I bet you'd melt in my mouth.

"I've lost my teddy bear, will you sleep with me?"

If beauty were a drop of milk, you would be a cow.

If your left leg is Thanksgiving and your right leg is Christmas, what do you say about me spending some time between the holidays?

I may not be the best looking guy around here, but I'm the only one talking to you.

I'm Milk; I'll do your body good!!

Can I have a band-aid? I scraped my knees when I fell for you.

Hey, your lips look a little wrinkled! Would you like me to press them for you?

You should get to know my name now, because you'll be screaming it all night!!

You: "Everytime you walk into the room, you drop something."
Other: "Oh yeah? What's that?"
You: "My jaw."

Your parents must be retarded because you're soooo special.

Lick your finger and put it on her blouse and say, "We should get you out of those wet clothes."

You're like lice; I can't get you out of my head.

If I were Peter Pan, you would be my happy thought.

Man: Do you prefer strawberries or blueberries?
Woman: Why?
Man: So I know what kind of pancakes to make you in the morning.

If you don't want to regret this in the morning, we'll sleep 'till noon!

If you were a hamburger at McDonald's, you'd be a McGorgeous.

You might not be the best looking girl here, but beauty is only a light switch away.

The fact that I am missing my teeth just means there is more room for your tongue

It started me waking up 12noon. i went over to wake my dear up.. but as usual.. he reply back to me as though i was in dream land too.. ok guess i have to settle lunch myself.. went back my room. biscuits.. and slacked till 240pm b4 i head to sch to print by fyp report. who knew. the shuttle came at 3.04pm.. well i always said walking was faster.. ya climbing up the slope on such a hot sunny day. i old areadi.. no thank you

the stupid shuttle bus never fails to disappoint me ..HAIZ. a loooong wait


after one whole year of hard work.. my baby..

i reached late of course. so was nha.. but doesnt matter. its the last day. we were meeting her today to PRINT MY FYP REPORT. no more jokes, no more blaming each other, no more procastinating.. as i am typing this. i can believe it too.. my fial year is really coming to an end.. even my fyp is over.. thanks sarah.. i noe and u noe and we both noe that we have probs working together.. no one's perfect.. so hey.. i am glad we pulled thru.. to my nha... thanks millions and tons... without u i prob have not turned up for meetings le..ha.. thanks for handling the storms and fights that have taken place in the fyp grp intentionally and unintentionally..lol.. u make my ntu life colourful and international!.. nver see u as someone else other than a great friend!


no pain no gain.. the que better be worth it.. i can just smell it!!~

then there is the 20-30 pple que for BOON LAY POWER NASI LEMAK.the chilli saucse is sedup!! oiishi!! Hao chi!! ho jia!! soo good.. suppose got new outlet at causeway pt at basement. anyone go there and try b4? hope its jsut as nice.. then everyone can enjoy it!!

boon lay POWER nasi lemak!!!! FINALLY!

ah.. dun forget.. WANT MORE CHILLI? JUST SIMLE! :)

i am feeling hateful.
i am feeling desperate.
i am afraid that i will be unemployed.

covocation: last week of July
last exam paper: last week of April

Meanwhile wat will i do for the whole of May, June, July?
anyone out there know any temp/perm jobs availble. i noe its not easy .. thats why i start early. but the more the find.. the more dishearten i become. no regrets for wat i studied. cant complain abt the job market. i wish i am not so picky. i just want something i can be happy to do.. thats all that makes things a lot easier right?

Didnt i mention i went GARY CAO GE NTU CONCERT?..
Here are the pics:




And then right after the concert. we went to JP for dinner at subway..only to find out that our lovely banana yellow kangroo has a punctured tire!!!
my dear was so sad. and the tire was completely flat.. rolling around on that piece of rubber. With some sourcing, he bought a can of tire pump and sealer. suppose that can of thing (size of a 500ml bottle) can pump a tire to lift the car? amazing it is to see.. too bad the hole was too big... and it all flowed out when we tried to drive around... we were stuck with the alternative to head to the nearest 24 hr car workshop. which is in balastier.. bleah.. ok. all prepared for a long night

first we headed to the nearest 24 hr shell where we realised that one option availble to us was to use his spare tire .. but he had to borrow tools. now i never knew cars or vans came wth secret compartments to store tools so u can fix ur car up in emergencies like this.. who know.. but this kangroo owner have no idea where his tools are.. let alone how secret comparment.. hmmm and the saver of the day was a random van driver who was approached by us to ask if he could lend us a tool or two.. we approached a total of.. 3-5 van drivers and even got help from a nice uncle to change the tire!! yes. one friendly uncle.. or two.. well he taught us how to jack and screw it out .. and there the 4 of us got the first lesson of changin ur car tires.. v tiring. but fun. i even manged to slip in to take a pic of the memorable moments!!

yes a bored sunday night.or early monday morning.
remember my china trip last year december. some pics dun turn up in the post. here is some of them now! haha

9 YEAR OLD AND PREGNANT

By time Pri 3 girl finds out she's pregnant, it's
TOO LATE TO ABORT

'The baby couldn't be aborted because the, the girl was already six months' pregnant. She gave the child up for adoption soon after giving birth.' - Counsellor Sheena Jebal

its the end of the recess week already!!
but never fear..lol cos its e-learning week! muahaha.. but.. haiz.. it doesnt affect seminars.. or so i think..

its also the time of the month again.. getting all emotional i think.. was watchin Extreme Makeover Home Edition "The Wodfford Family" where the crew makes over a lovely family of 9. One hardworking and kind dad who had to take care of his 8.. yes EIGHT kids singlehandledly when his wife died 4 years ago. THe youngest child was only 12 years old and she had to take up the responsiblilty of being a mom... 8 kids. 4 boys and 4 gals. and they were well behavied kids who were neat and made do with wat they could and have!! i was just so moved that i couldnt stop crying..
..



then there is the first episode of ugly betty (pretty like The Devil Wears Prada!)
haiz.. if only i could dl ugly betty and watch it on my comp...lol. as i was watchin the show.. i could understood why millions have loved the show. cos it protrayed the theme of ugliness that was often treated with disgust in the work place. u have to look slick, cool, polished.but no everyone could do that.. i couldnt v well and like betty i felt out of place to. for a while.. i felt like ugly betty. as the show went on.. i though.. would pple only take a deeper look into human character only when they are ugly? i dun know how to put it well in words.. but for quite a long time i do not really believe in dressing to impress cos with that.. pple will only judge ur exterior. why would i want pple to think.. arh she is pretty or arh she can dress well. wouldnt it be better.. in some way or another, i hoped that i wun mind pple saying .. she got no dress sense! and then at least i know these pple are quite shallow..lol.. and if they dun come bother me.. i wun go bother them. cos its the characher u should look at..not her way of dressing!! but pardon me for stepping on my own foot. but i have slowly learnt that dressing well is a form of respect for other pple.. (who defines it anyway?) but then.. think of it this way.. who likes to see ugly stuff.. then u will say.. u are just LAZY.. well yes! i have my arguement and u have urs~
and i was thinking. wat the hell am i going to wear when i get a perm job.. does that mean my t-shirts are going to be trashed? i sincerly hope not..

曹格 燭光晚餐 ktv!

歌曲：燭光晚餐
歌手：曹格 专辑：曹格首张创作专辑


多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我

我担心一杯红酒
把我的真心透露
或许你早就该懂

冰淇淋在喉咙
能多冷静几秒钟
气氛在浪漫都不够

烛光晚餐像一场美梦
想这样望着你到永久
一束玫瑰交到你的手中
这一天这一刻这一切
你属于我

多想要留住这一秒钟
你每天晚餐都陪我
美味比不过你温柔
从此以后我爱你你爱我

多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是我爱你你也爱我

我不是个浪漫的家伙
却甘心为你这样做
想要什么都跟我说
从此以后我爱你你爱我

我是不是有一点别扭
从不曾这样说出口
太多的愿望在心中
重要的是我爱你你也爱着我...

just attended Cao Ge Gary concert in NTU... he is a wonderful singer..no airs.. humble. super cute n shy.. and one thing. he prefers to be a singer, not an entertainer.. citing his reasons for not intending to hold any concerts. he sings from the heart to share his music and ideas. he wants to get married, settle down. he is one decent guy!

look on! my new blog skin. attended dreamweaver training today in sch.. even though its recess week -_-||. only less then 10 pple turned up anyway. was quite interesting. jut a bit toooo chim le.. but along the way we were introduced to all the fascinating stuff css and htmls can do.. not to mention the great tons of pretty template availble online. cant just stick to that not so pretty blogger template. this new one isnt exactly v pretty. but hey i like it. some cute little stumpy things shouting out loud, quite cute!.. and i just realised that with the new blogger version cannot just paste skins le.. must revert back to the classic one. lucky its easy to revert, but seems that pple / or my friends in particular dun blog much anyway.. so thats like.. left with me?.. if u are reading this bloggie.. drop me a comment/ tag bah. ha.. mean while take care !!