just in case no one noticed. my fav phrase of the moment is : then again..

i think i think too much.. then again.. thats better than not thinking at all right?

impossible is nothing. thats adidas's new tag line.. i was just surfing around looking for jobs. then i came across adidas's career page .. it reminded me of all the job sites i been looking thru. looking for mkt managers, pple with exp.. 2-3 years in A&P. like where the hell do u get that in the first place? maybe i am not looking in the right place at all..
its all a dream.. that mkt job. that mkt illusion.. then again.. aint all dreams like that? its all LIES. U LIE AT THE INTERVIEW, THEY LIE TO U AT THE INTERVIEW, WHEN U START WORK, U REALISE THAT THE WHOLE JOB IS A LIE. THATS THE REAL WORLD. if u dun lie. most prob u wun get a job. the world is no place for a honest fellow. i am not saying i am an honest fellow. but is the dark side so acceptable??
i dun understand...

每天张开眼睛第一件事就是想你
空气有草莓的香气
每天幻想柳橙色的为俩盖在草地
让我们发明最美的约定

had a good time with the gals last night.. really hope for many more 6 years to come. it feels go just to see everyone well. daidai's cuteness, rosie's seriousness, eunice's cheerfulness, hami's ladiness. jasmine's gorgeousness, shuhui's princessness yingling's motherness and joan's your highness..lol

其实你 是个心狠又手辣 的小偷
我的心 我的呼吸和名字 都偷走

你才是 绑架我的凶手
机车後座的我 吹着风 逃离了平庸
这星球 天天有五十亿人 在错过
多幸运 有你一起看星星 在争宠

这一刻 不再问为什麽
不再去猜测人和人 心和心 有什麽不同

一二三 牵着手 四五六 抬起头
七八九 我们私奔到月球

让双脚 去腾空 让我们 去感受
那无忧的真空 那月色纯真的感动
当你说 太聪明往往还是 会寂寞
我笑着 倾听孤单终结後 的静寞
看月亮 像夜空的瞳孔
静静凝视你我 和我们闹嚷的星球
靠近你 怎麽突然两个人 都词穷
让心跳 像是野火燎原般 的汹涌
这一刻 让命运也沉默
让脚尖划过天和天 地和地 缘分的宇宙

一二三 牵着手 四五六 抬起头
七八九 我们私奔到月球
让双脚 去腾空 让我们 去感受
那无忧的真空 那月色纯真的感动

when i see this i feel xmas is here all over again!!
http://www.madbaker.net/

i am suppose to be sleeping. but i just want to jot this down before i forget everything tmw

met bq and amy and mel and kh just now. the long talk was as confusing as shocking it was the inital news. i tried to put myself in their shoes.. and for a moment i could understand why they came to such a conclusion. the environment the pple, ur situation, the agony, the pain, the love the loss and the lost.. the lies and the promises the hope and the truth. if there is a simple explanation for everything, would u except it ? or would u disregard it.. for it was simply too good to be true. then again. i would say it was the easy way out for everyone involved. let nature take its course. maybe its becos i chose to believe what i hear, i believed.
all the best.

i was in quite a HIGH state just now.. ian thought i was on honey stars.. and yes i do get high on them. but the real reason was that i finally plucked up enough courage to move out of my comfort zone.. and boy did it feel gd. Dear told me that i could do it.. and that meant a lot to me.. why think u cannot do it even if u have not tried.. everyone got to start somewhere. everyone got to fail and learn and fail and learn again before u taste the sweetness of success. like a seed in the wind, i dun knoe where i will end up, but i am sure if i put in effort, keep being positive things will be better

new year resolution:
- find a new job. marketing related. events/fmcg, somewhere i can learn and stay for the next 2 years at least
- be more positive
- love my family and dear more
- keep in touch with my classmates and work mates..
- be a better person.

its christmas.. and indeed a very different one for me this year. Its my first working xmas and work life dun really add to the atmosphere. people are rushing to beat dateline, targets and KPIs. (sales drops for B2B. but there are millions of sales out at the mall.. talk abt a commercially-over-hyped-up season)just base in last week and this week,i din do much calls as pple were all clearing leave and stuff and noone was interested to entertain a telemarketeer like me..

over the xmas season, met up with my cousin-in-law whom works as a senior hr consultant. wonder woman with two kids, great career, loving mom and great daughter-in-law. until u step out in the society, u will not tend to notice where pple are working in. ok i dun. and u dun have name cards to exchange. itd like facebook. i need to build up my list of contacts. back to my relative. she understood i was into marketing.. or think i am ... ( so few around me is doing mkting) and immediately asked wat my job scope was.. further probing just smashed my illusion of my first marketing job as the work of a common telemarketeer where they are employed my thousands at much lower cost prices in the neighbouring countries surrounding singapore. she says: marketing should be , marcom, branding, marketing anaylsis, advertisng and promo, talking to agencies and ads companies.. all too familar to wat seems to be wat some of us set out to do.. (i admit.. i am not very clear with my options.. if i can blame it on my education in ntu.. yes i am doing it now) then again, in uni.. they never trained us in this area.. or they never intended to anyway.. such specilised areas of marketing.. all vaguely passed thru with case studies and textbooks that assume that the moment u finish the course, u are armed with a ten million budget and a pool of marketing specilist at ur hand to do ur ads, promos and pricing. wow.. that so did not happen..

how unpredictable can life me... i quote from a friend.
things happen.. and more often than not.. we try to identify the prob.. who is right, who is wrong.. but often.. its subjective, relative and hurting to know the true answer. i would tell the gal.. as i would tell any gal in a r/s follow ur heart. dun stay for the sake of staying, if u see a future.. if u see urself in that future, stay on. if not.. find out why.. ur reason will tell u wat to do.. doing that may actually cause u less pain in the long run. and since i can speak for guys, i cannot only say.. if u still love her, go for it.. if it really hurts her that much.. let her go.. if u dun love her at all.. dun drag and waste each other's time..

will this words one day come to mock at me.. i really hope not. matters of the heart are unpredictable. as much as the clouds in the sky, no one knows where they come from and where they go.. ok except for some stupid scientists.. as we spoke abt wat happened.. we are all deeply saddened.. and more shocked. as we relived the big plans they had, the home, the family, future.. the amt of money he would limit himself to spend daily to save up for his family.. we just couldnt believe that the r/s would be over so suddenly. maybe that just human..

had a slugish day today. woke up at 10 plus.. watched tv thru out the day till dinner.. and one of the programs was the 25 year drama special shown on channel 8.
that show moved me to tears a few times.. may sound a bit foolish to sum.. just v touched by the many actors and actresses in the show..

for some part, it occured to me that mediacorp is just one big company. and this year event is like an annual dinner, only more special, becos it 25 years and its connectivity to the audiences in sg.

i had always grown up a tv lover. never had scv at home. channel 5, 8. 12 and occasionally tv 2 was enough to keep me entertained. its something i look forward to after school, after work.. and used as a treat after hw down or as a punishment around the exam period. i practically grew up with the telly, as one can tell with my glasses.. but there are shows i do not watch as well. however there are shows which i can remember clearly wat i was doing when they were screen, their songs ever popular and me humming with my classmates.. then again .. that will not happen again since sch life has ended for me..

here's a card i made for all my friend. may everyone have a merry x mas and a very merry new year!

after so three plus years of so called marketing.. i came to know wat is a creative, wat is a copy.. or do i still not.. then again.. a copywriter writes copies..yes

something i created today.. and its not accepted.. as its not going to see the light of day in the marketing world.. might as well have it here..lol..



and here is something i am quite proud of.. lol


then here is another one that will never see daylight again..lol my boss din like it v much.. cos he 's the guy in it...



there is such a thin line between doing something u like at work and doing the work u like..
even if its something near what u like to do.. there is still a large grp of pple u have to please..

actually.. i did not expect this .. but for the past few weeks, i have actually been very happy at my work place.. i would attribute this to two reasons.. one is myself and the other my collegues

recently the small it firm has expanded.. lets say to 5 more pple... now the head count is .. 16. exclding the big boss who is seldom around...lol .. my daily work will start with the normal email check, gebiz tender checking.. then some admin work .. then back to my calling... and in the middle of the day when we get bored.. we blast music on our comps.. ok my comps usually and hum. sing... occasionally wobble to the music we like.. ( when the boss is not around) and if i do not manage to sneak off before my boss comes back.. more work to be done.. cracking our head over wat to write in our marketing reports and explore on new ideas to inflate our creative portfolio...yes.. recently i have been doing more of my work.. which resulted in an asounding good amt of appts.. which is quite pleasing to everyone but my boss who is aways not satisfied..

then the other reason would be my new collegus.. more or less everyone have settled in.. got used to the life here.. each other and their jokes.. with a admin staff on board. its good to see amy less stressed on admin work, with a new marketing personnel doing the same shit as me.. i reacted to the peer pressure and worked harder.. but i must say.. we both tried to use the peer pressure postiviely... constantly pushing each other to work harder/smarter and rubbing off creative ideas in the most amazing way.. no more doing being left alone in the office and grumbing like an attention-seekin child whose both parents are out at work all day.. now i got two more siblings to play with!.. really.lol.. indeed v interesting when u look at it..

so am i still changing job.. some part of me just wants to say.. GIVE ME A PAY RISE!!!!!!!!!! THANKS!

its the xmas season and its time to share.. just some sites u guys can try visiting!

http://tualobang.blogspot.com/ - sg lobang, sales.

http://sgbestdeals.blogspot.com/ - sg lobang, sales.

is that really my damon?a chimp... answer the qns... to go to the next qns, click on the dark brown area on the bottle right hand corner

i was thinking of this phrase that goes along of ' learning to love urself b4 u love others'. have heard this phrase v often.. but what does it really mean?

http://www.planetmagnus.com/why-you-must-first-love-yourself.html

"If you like yourself, you will like the people you naturally meet, and they will like you. If you don’t like yourself, you will waste energy trying to get with people who aren’t like you, or you will settle for being with someone you don’t like.

There are two solutions to this. The first, and most important, is to learn to like yourself. The second, is to turn yourself into the person that you want to be.
If you want to like yourself, one way to do it is to realise that you are the perfect You that anyone could be. No-one else can do the things you do quite like you. No-one sees the world quite the same way. No-one has precisely your talents, ambitions, or lack thereof. No-one screws things up the same way, no-one makes the same mistakes and faux pas’. At being you, for all your faults and weaknesses, you would get an A+. It’s ok to be the way you are - it must be, because the way you are IS the way you are.

Once you adopt this philosophy or one like it with regard to yourself, you will start seeing others the same way. The truth is, you probably are attracted to the opposite sex equivalent of you, it’s just you’re also turned off to them, for the same reasons you’re turned off from yourself. Accept yourself, and you will accept them.

Many people think that their drive to improve themselves stems from the things they don’t like about themselves. Feelings of inadequacy, dissatisfaction, or just dislike and hatred for yourself actually won’t change, no matter how much you improve yourself. It is the feeling that needs to be dealt with, not whichever reason you rationalise at the time for feeling it.

Once you accept yourself you will realise your true motives for wanting someone you can’t have. If you want to be with them to compensate for your own shortcomings, you will no longer want them. If you want them because you want to be like their ideal partner, then you will become that person. So there is never a need to change yourself for someone else."

then again.. it doesnt really occur to me if i like myself ( then the above would be totally irrelevant.. or i am just blabbing rubbish).. i do accept the way i am .. but in one way or other. i am more bothered abt pple's opinion towards me .. especially when they are closer family and friends. its sad to disappoint them, and i try not to set too high hopes.. i just cant stand being a wallflower in the corner.. i must somehow make a musing of myself.. laugh or be laughed at. i am not all that good for nothing.. just that there are tons of pple out there better than me.. and i noe its no good at all to wallow in sorrow all day..perhaps i thought its easier for everyone that way to think of so and so to be not so gd.. non threatening.. and perhaps in someway 'degrading' to oneself.. but there is not much affect on oneself right? i am heartened when one was sad abt me being so pesstimistic abt myself.. the way i invite critisism on myself.. always thought thats the easiestbut not really the best way-for-oneself in a conversation...

its true.. all talk .. but no effort is seen.look at it simply 40 appts a month.. 10 appts a week. in the last 6 months. i am nowhere near that. give me 40 creative ads to do a month. i think i can do better.. i prob need to dig out that fighting spirit in me.. something that tells me that i am worth much more than that.. and stop living on in my comfort zone.

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those who folow my blog prob knew i was in a baking craze recently.. then it died down a while... but i baked something today.. and i finally understand why it should die down.

1) i dun eat wat i bake.
usually i eat the first cupcake/cookie/ugly crumb out of the oven and leave the rest to the familt.. not v healthy for them...

2) i dun follow the same reciple everytime.
every cupcake i bake is diff.. i got so many recipes off the net that i just can keep track which i tried and which are good. thats a greedy baker.. make that extra kiasu

3)i dun follow instructions well
i started out with my sense of aga-ration.. which got me quite some scoldings from my mom..lol then i started measuring more merticulously.. i tried.. but often i am too lazy..

4)i never know if the cake/cookie is done.
why doesnt food come with ' done ' indicators so we know when they are cooked?
i have not the slightest idea when my cookies are done or my cakes is in the oven long enough.. then again thats why my moist chocolate cake today turned out.. a bit hard...

5) i dun do frosting
i dun do decoratations such as buttercream and such.. lazy plus. not that think anyone is missing them yet.. so i have not been making cupcakes.. i was just making mini cakes.. cupcakes without decor/frosting aint a cupcake!!

damn... so what have i been doing.. ?

Hi pples.

are ur exams over? hows work so far? xmas is coming. time to get presents, or at least cards. the 3302 gals have comed up with a diy present/store bought present theme.. lol quite interesting..and thats something to look forward to definately.

been quite bz at work lately.. too bz to think abt other stuff. after the 7 day taiwan trip and 1 day melaka tour.. i am exhuasted of traveling. and more. exhuasted of trying to please pple i need to please. perhaps thats in me.. the more it is necessary for me to make the person happy.the more i feel i cant do it..that includes my big boss... and my dear's mom..lol wat the hell.. i just have to get around with fake smiles.. zzzzzz

otherwise i am thankful.. grateful for all my friends and family.. shall pause my complaining for a while and be happy for all the pple around me.. love everyone !! take care and leave me a tag ya!