sometimes i just want to be selfish
i just to have things go my way..

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

> this song is from the trailer of The Lake House. a movie i went to watch today with a friend
its been a rough day for me.. a long and rather lumpy day..
in the early morning.. it was dealing with joan's entry, coming to terms to wat i have done and wat i have to do now.
later around 10am that was bring my mom to ncc. national cancer center. to do a ct scan on her brain. she had been feeling weak the past few days, hence the visit. the liquid they injected into her arm made it worse. she emerged out of the scanning room trembling , dizzy, nauseous, and looking v terrible. she had colon cancer b4. now we all just hope is fine and the headaches these few days are just normal. nothing serious. i pray.i just want to grad fast and get a job
so mom and dad can rest early. no more work for them pls.

still met kenny for movie after my mom settled down at home.
on the train read ' tuesday with morrie'. a book gunni gave me for my bdae.. that talks abt death and surviving it when u know its inevitable (i think). well. that brought more gloominess to my day.. illness.. age.. sickness.. death..

watched the lake house.. i felt that i should not set him aeroplane. so i turned up while it was possible. the movie was nice.. the company was weird.. yes..its weird when half the theater is filled with couples cuddling up against each other in the cold over air-con room.it is weird. guess i dun think i will do it again. the movie's sad in some way too.. two pple who nearly couldnt meet. despite how unlogical it is.. i still think its v hard to find that one person. loneliness

after that. we went in look at bags. been wanting to buy one for quite some time.. and that dude also keeps commenting that i have an UGLY BAG- my yellow dirty deuter bag - haiz. somehow.. its so hard to pls everyone. for my good. he is trying to change me so that i will be accepted into the society more easily. its a never ending war against fashion for me and i have always though.. perhaps i can just sit on the side of ugliness and praticality and just pretend that if i dun mind, if i can live with it.. why cant u? is unsightly fashion a crime?.. maybe it is. come on which gal doesnt want to look pretty. feel good. be good. u noe wat. perhaps its not that impt u noe. if possible. i would really like to change my wardrop. the purpose is not to make myself feel good.. but just to shut pple up...lol. of course i cant do that.. so live with my bad dress sense till then yeah.
in case kenny u are reading this.. dun be offended.. i am grateful for a friend like u. so far.. ur reaction have been the worse so far. perhaps i just haven seen how serious it is..

now back at home. time to solve the prob that can actually break a 5 yr friendship..

lets not get too excitied here. but hey.. will be turning 21 in a few day's time. dun really feel v special. but glad to make use of the opportunity to meet up with friends..lol
birthday wish? best of health for all my family and friends. thats someting one cant buy.. so everyone take care of urself yeah!
happy birthday too to rachel, xuanming, lishan, ling... all the leos..ha.. we rock!..lol

so coincidental.. this comic strip that came today speaks a thousands words.
there should be more gals at the pool today...

for those who likes to go swimming and stay in the east. its time to check out the tampines swimming complex. went there today.. on impulse of course.. and alone of course. its one of those days when u just feel like doing something without any heck care of wat other pple think

i planed to go there in the morning.. end up couldnt find my googles. thats the third pair i have lost this year!! but i head down to the swimming pool anyway.. at the pool. i tried to find the small shop that usually sell expensive tidbits and swimming stuff. the place have completle refurbished and it was nowhere to be seen. the whole place was so much funkier. with two small slides and a few water raining red mushrooms..
i approached one friendly uncle to ask abt the shop. and he offered to get me one at $13 bucks from his collauges who had been teaching swimming. the sweetest thing was that he came back with three googles.. to let me choose colour!. so sweet right..ha..
and happily.. i went to swim a few laps in the 1m pool. lol why not the 2 m pool?
cos got so many guys there.. young and old.. bleah.. so decided out join a few kids at the near empty 1m pool.( and then it started to RAIN.... but like my blog.. theres always sunshine after the rain.. :))
after which i went to the sun tanning deck!! damn cool place. one whole row of sun chairs facing the pool at the second storey. direct sunlight.. but end up.. i still dint get a tan!! tell me why...-_-||| but got a great view of many shuai ges sun tanning till they were bronze!.. but i was just light brown.. bleah..
well ended the day with icecream outside the swimming complex..those giap by 3 thin wafer biscuits..lol and it was large enough to last till i reach home to share half with my bro. and to my surprise. my sleepy ill mom woke up thinking i was at home sleeping all the while

haha went out with peiyu today..
an outing with no specific directions or objective.. just walking around and fulfilling miscellanous errands..lol even popped down to orchard at kino. where on the way we met peien and kok at tamp mrt train..
on the way i also bought somthing..lol u noe metro.. its that 'just want to get something' like of feeling or mood.lol
this is wat i got.. its a frog. got some name.. cant remember. just like its slly happy look.. that looks like peiyu sometimes.haha.. its stands abt 10 cm tall , afro and all :> spent the afternoon fixing it together (it comes in small pieces like gumdam figureines- all parts are mobile, even the hair!)presenting~ AFRO GUNSO!


cute hor.. saw it on the drama 'the train man' being played by the otaku..haha..its pretty cute. reminds me of the psyduck i use to have.. hope it reminds me to smile too :> next time anyone see it.. remember to say hi to it..hee

Micheal Buble
Home

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

things are happening damn too fast..
or am i just a v short sighted person
- yesterday i was just a freshie, having fun night after night
- then i was a gl with a small little troop of freshies
- now there is only two sems left.
- will the next blog i start go like:..finally my exams are over.. not really looking forward to work..lol

i hope not
grateful for all the wonderful memories.. every sec every min of it.. dun understand every lesson that i have learn in life. but i know that eventually, one day i will.. blogging will at least keep me on track that time is passing whether u want it or not. the best respect for time is to remember it well and appreaciate wat it have brought for u .. lessons in life, family and friends.. and most of u .. make things irreversable.

monday afternoon. nothing to do.. or in other words, i dun want to do anything
here on my bed, feeling v v blessed that i have a break and that i have a laptop to use..

recently after i took over my bro's laptop, i realised something .. i used to have to share the comp with him.. if he wants to use it.. i have to end up watching tv with either my mom or dad like some good little gal..lol now a days.. after dinner, my bro will go back to his pc, i will be in my room watching anime on the laptop and my mom and dad will be in different rooms watching different shows on different tv. talk abt technology bring pple together.. it helps u live more independent lives i suppose.. guess everything have its pros and cons...

well the 3302 newsletter secret is out of the bag, after abt a week of brain storming and planning with rosie, columist of each secion was drafted out and the only thing left to do is prob discuss more and see how the creative juices will flow..lol
prob if any of u would really like a specific way ur column or of the template of the page to look like, feel free to pass me the site or even the image/teared out page of the article. pictures will also be greeatly welcomed in ur little sections. AND! Do think of witty or funky names for ur articles or column :>
getting a bit tired.. bleah.. prob too tired over everything *yawn*

some pple say
if u cant love urself, how do u expect pple to love u?
if u cant accept urself, how do u expect pple to accept u?

this prob goes for everything
once in a while, i am unwilling to accept certain trends.. and i sort or submit to fate and say.. prob this jus aint for me.. and prob disappear into the crowd, as the result, i miss out on tons of stuff..

during seniors camp.. i back out of many things i wanted to play..lol either with a huge excuse .. let the freshie play.. or its more fun to let the others play..lol.. guess i am still quite cowardly in some aspect... must learn to stand up to myself.. love myself more.. so pple can love me!

it was a good seniors camp.. looking forward to the real one!!

Finally today was the last day of work at Premiere..
at lunch hr, i even went to eat at sakae sushi with a few colleagues:>

sadly.. there was something missing. something i kept thinking abt.. and i am not sure whether i should continue to. it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling when i think abt it.. but i cant be sure. maybe its just me. perhaps so.. i think i shall keep it to myself until you mention something... but haiz.. *** is sure a big prob.. wat to do.. i am just a xiao mei mei..lol :)

thank you..i dun know why i notice u .. but hey u are really interesting... u prob wun be reading this. but just want to say thanks for everything . will miss ya..****

just a xiao mei mei

For the Dudes at Premiere

K is for Kelley
Who is really smart
Working very hard as well

Her heels are always very high,
Her dressing always in style,
Clients in lifts look at her in ‘wow’

J is for Joseph
Nutcase he is
Creating laughter wherever he goes

He is so good natured
Dress like a robinson uncle
No wonder he is all the aunties’ adore

A is for Alvin
Quiet is he
Always have a stomach for bak kut teh

Such a gentle giant
But always finish up our crackers
Next time make sure he refill!

A is for Alex
Sitting so far away
but can always be seen doing his rounds

Always cheerful and kind
Serious and fine
Makes a great catch for any gal~

This is just for laughs
Pls dun take offence
Just want to brighten up your buzy day

Y is for Yani
Last but of course not the least
My pillar of support here

I am her angel
And devil at times
You just cant get enough of her >.<

It was fun knowing you guys
So here’s a poem to prove it!
On my third last day~

~stef (^.^)

This week is the last week of my attachment in Premiere Global. Its been an enriching experience, and I have learnt more stuff about life than work actually.

One of them was ‘being myself’. Its practically impossible to please everyone u know, this include ur friends and even colleuges.
Very often, pple who do not know you misunderstand u, find u weird or even queer. Some of my collugues have found me to be a most unpleasing person. However lucky, there are still a few that actually welcome my presence..lol
Lets just say that u cant please everyone. I had always an easier time communicating with guys.. things are always more straightforward.. resulting in my blunt communication skills around sensative females.lol.. well have to brush up my international skills. Haha..
Special thanks to all at Premiere especially, Yani, Joseph, Kelley, Alvin and Alex. And my two bosses, Jas and Constance. And the beautiful rest: tien tien, lynn, annnick, virgina, Catherine and Karen 

was chatting to andy just now... and he mentions that he visits my blog now and then.. v honored here..lol
just a few months ago.. i posted my blog add on my msn nick. a desperate measure to invite pple into the little miserable world of mine.. but also of which i am proud of. its all i have, its all i make of it, its all i am feeling abit it.
i am grateful for this platform. should it one day (choy.. touch wood) accidently be deleted- which happened once-.. or blogger shut down.. everything will be gone. wats left will be just wats in our memories. which are of coure not going to be there for ever..
perhaps it will be like a person who have suffered a sudden loss of memory, to have everything wiped clean. Would u try to trace it back? or would u live on and write another blog/page of ur new life?.. some pple will prob give up and say... it took me so much to accumulate 3 years of blogging. now to start all over again.. thats too tiring.

something i posted on may 5 2005. i looked thru and feel that its so true, perhaps i will print it out oneday and out it on my notice board.

The Paradox of Our Age
By Dr. Bob Moorehead

WE HAVE taller buildings, but shorter tempers;
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints;
we spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy it less.

WE HAVE bigger houses and smaller families;
more conveniences, but less time;
we have more degrees, but less sense;
more knowledge, but less judgment;
more experts, but more problems;
more medicine, but less wellness.

WE DRINK too much, smoke too much,
spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry too quickly,
stay up too late, get up too tired,
read too seldom, watch TV too much,
and pray too seldom.

WE HAVE multiplied our possessions,
but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom
and lie too often.
We've learned how to make a living,
but not a life;
We've added years to life, not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street
to meet the new neighbor.
We've conquered outer space,
but not inner space;
we've done larger things, but not better things;
we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul;
we've split the atom, but not our prejudice;
we write more, but learn less;
plan more, but accomplish less.

WE HAVE learned to rush, but not to wait;
we have higher incomes, but lower morals;
more food, but less appeasement;
more acquaintances, but fewer friends;
more effort, but less success.

WE BUILD more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever,
but have less communication;
we've become long on quantity,
but short on quality.
These are the times of fast foods and
slow digestion;
tall men, and short character;
steep profits, and shallow relationships.
These are the times of world peace,
but domestic warfare;
more leisure and less fun;
more kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are days of two incomes,
but more divorce;
of fancier houses, but broken homes.

THESE ARE days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throwaway morality, one-night stands,
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

IT IS A TIME when there is much in the show window
and nothing in the stockroom.

chalet rates...
safra chalet rates per night - safra member:
off peak ( mon to thu exclude sch holi)$72
peak (fri to sun sch holi )$89
min 2 nights

Costa sands sentosa.
aircon hut - 3 beds : 2 nights.
$80

Its been a fruitful weekend.
i went to shuhui's bdaeon friday night, kiteflying on sat evening and went to 4k bbq tonight(sunday)

kiteflying - at marina bay.. near the seafood resturants. v v v cool.. and cheap too. the kite flew so high. and its was those kind homemade..lol v cheap but good.. hope to go there again sometimes... too bad i wasnt v close to the other gls from the other blocks. perhaps i was a bit unfriendly.
after the incident on thurs. i sort of decided to keep more quiet. perhaps the less i talk, the less i would offend pple. perhaps htat will work.so basically i kept quite quiet at the last two outings.lol .. think in the end i look abit anti social..

4k bbq. they even invited the teachers!! i was soooo surprised to see them.. mrs tan, miss chan and wang yong xin.. they look like they were still teaching us yesterday, still reminding us that o levels was just a 40 days away and we had to start rememebering the words and formulas or wat ever..lol.. haha.. the outing was good. the guys were really gentlemen.. lol cos long time nvr go bbq see guys cook the food le.. aybe i should learn to be late when go bbq.. i should change..
be less blunt, be less demanding, be less assuming, be more forgiving, be more happy, think aloud less..

hope everyone had a good weekend as well

looking forward to the end of PA!!:)

..

perhaps i AM as mean as i though
a very scary though. perhaps i should chain myself up
perhaps i am just that
perhaps its true.
its just me
am mean.

There are always times when i want to rejoice to the world that i have such wonderful friends.. yes there are such times.. not always.. ( not that i dun feel grateful everytime if i do so v frequently.. then i think u should bring me to the doc ya)
if i am always doing it.. wouldnt everyone be irritated?.. ya.. so once in a while..i want to let u guys know.. i love ya.. how to express? when i tell rosie i miss her so much( a bit extreme..) she rolls her eyes and says.. 'ya.. ok'....( hahah thats wat i would do too anyway) but heres a song i really like now..

- if cant view lyrics - go -View->encodings->unicode

一个像夏天一个像秋天 one like autumn, one like summer

for the benefit of my great malay friends yani and rosie:)

第一次见面看你不太顺眼 - the first time i see u, we dun see eye to eye
谁知道后来关系那么密切 - who knows we became so close later
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天 - we are like two seasons. one autumn, one spring
却总能把冬天变成了春天 - but we never fail to turn winter to spring!

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 - u rescued me from a love storm
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼 - i carried out of a broken dream
遇见一个人然后生命全改变 - to meet a person and have a changed life
原来不是恋爱才有的情节 - that does not happen in just love stories

如果不是你我不会相信 - if it was not for u i would not have believe
朋友比情人还死心塌地 - that friends can be more steadfast than lovers
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰 - even if i left u alone when i was in love
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句 - you wont hate me, only to scold me for a while

如果不是你我不会确定 - if not for u. i would not have been sure
朋友比情人更懂得倾听 - that friend listen more than lovers
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心 - that u understand my ambitions and my blunt words
我离不开darling更离不开你 - i wont leave u, darling

你了解我所有得意的东西 - you understood everyhing about me
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形- but u never exposed me in case i become yaya (lol)
你知道我所有丢脸的事情 - u know everything shameful abt me
却为我的美好形像保密 - but u kept quiet to help maintain my image


如果不是你我不会确定 - if not for u. i would not have been sure
朋友比情人更懂得倾听 - that friend listen more than lovers
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心 - that u understand my ambitions and my blunt words
我离不开darling更离不开你 - i wont leave u, darling



(paiseh for the bad translation- but this is wat it means to me~ )

i am happy today
just came back from shuhui's bdae..lol a fun one i would say..
there was rosie and gunni and jasmine.. wat more can i say!!
ur presences is anything to let me cheer up :>

shamelessly i took some things into my own hands when i realised that things arent going fast enough.. gunni u should have seen me!!.. they lighted the candles.. shuhui was in position. i ran to the light switch .. closed all of them.. and shouted, ' READY! 1.2.3!.. and everyone took the cue to sing happy birthday.. it couldnt have been more wonderfully exercuted i would say..muahaha. me and rosie and jas had a good laugh during and after the song.. it was simply something we all wanted to happen i guess..

had a good chat with rosie too.. she is so rosie man. lov her for who she is!!. lol and we are both upcoming organsiers for the first 3302 bbq cum chalet!!
look out for more info gals!

~6/7/06~
when do u know when things are really not going ur way?
when u want to blog and blogger is down and u have type an entry in a notepad

a few days ago i was simply ethu abt wat i want to get for my collegues when i leave..i was grateful for the guideance they have given me for the past few weeks. i must admit... i had not been the nice quiet gal they had usually expect an intern to be. i was thinking of making something., perhaps even buying special for one or two. in the end i did last night at tm. i could have easily said that i was the poorest intern in the company. and there was only two interns. the lowest paid being in the company. closely followed by the office aunty i think..

there was tt, lynn, kelley, joseph,jas,, constance, alvin, alex, ann nick, virgina, cath, karen... all nice pple. all v kind. and of course yanni. just want to write these names down.. so that i will remember. no money to give presents to all.. make care.. i wonder if they will like.. perhaps make me feel and look like a cheapo.. haiz.


well tmw is shuhui's bdae event. then there is rachel's and then there is yingling and then there is jasmine.. soo many..

and this is something i wanted to do.. so let me get down to doing it.. i am really bored..

pls do not continue reading if u feel tat the time can be spent on more constructive matters..

ABCs of crazyyuan's 21 bdae.


A - achieve better academic results
B - buy less unnecessary stuff
C - candies- less of it
D - do better in interpersonal relationships
E - enjoy time with family and friends
F - say less of the F-ing words
G - grab hold of someone to get married by 30 if still single by then
H - have a simple and good 21st.
I - be myself
J - jog more
K - kick up a fuss when i am feeling lonely
L - love my friends for who they are. no matter wat their faults may be
M - move out of hall and home soon
N - need more $$$$ - pls donate to posb savings acc no:012..
O - outfit - look presentable
P - put my stuff where they belong be neat
Q - quickly make more friends b4 i turn into a monster
R - read more books, learn more, talk less
S - stop being childish, and be sensible
T - take good care of my health and live longer than my parents
U - be grateful to all my friends. no matter who U are
V - vent my anger thru more constructive methods
W - work to earn more money to allow parents to live a good life
X - find the treasure or win toto or big sweep
Y - yield to social expectations
Z - Zzzz less. do more constructive stuff

haiz. only left around 6 days le.. and i have to know this kind of news.. well its not really bad news, but its not good either

i remeber not too long ago, just a few nights ago, i spoke to gunni. and i felt bad for the stuff i said soon after.

then during foc last year, xuemei commented tat i was getting v tactless and rude.

and then on joan's blog. i was cutting and blunt.

and then when i was in secondary sch. there was writings on the table to tell me to be more tactful.

tact. or the lack of it. i hate it.

well i just want to say here that i have a bunch of friends who accept me for who i am .. even my flaws. i must thank you all.
perhaps from now on. i shall remember to keep a smiling face for everyone. be kind and sweet and polite. isnt that wat everyone wants? isnt that wat everyone expects? like wat xuemei said. its wrong to have bad eng. and i said so is it wrong to be fat?.. i wonder. possiblty xuemei must be one of the few pple who actually know and experience my tactlessness.

its ur tone.. its the way u say it..

perhaps so.. if u must say it.. say it in the say pple will be able to accept it.. not in such a matter-of-fact way i would think.. perhaps.. that jsut wat pple want to hear.. that u are humouring them.. lol

tone..of ur voice
like different tones of colours, different hues..

i dun understand.. i really think i dun..

wats worse than being rude..i would say.. to know that u are rude..
or more worse.. to know that u are rude and pple hate u

*rejoice*
the laptop is fixed. its now mine. my laptop is fixed.
urs.. mine.. does it matter anyway.. possessions.. who gives a damn. we all started out with nothing when we are born right..

well to say someting new.. life is goodnow hearing my playlist.. some jap song.. suddenly think its v nice.. cos i have know idea wat it saying.wat it means to me.. doesnt matter. wat it means to anyone . it doesnt matter. haiz.. sians.. wat a life. urs mine..pple.. perception. all these stuff..make pple unhappy only.. why..tell me why..haiz.. is happiness somthing u can control..something u can control. something u can utilise, like hope?.. like there is not fake hope.. cos hope is hope...

prob just feeling a bit empty... everyone feels like this once in a while.. just waiting for the time to pass.. tick tick tick.. do i feel satisfied after that?.. not really.. i dun know..

empty
empt
emp
em
e
.

i am a good gal today!
:> i woke up with much struggle and left the house without waking up my mom..ha.. usually she would have woke up to fix me breakfast..lol yes i am quite spoilt, and did i mention?.. she hates to wake me up every morning. cos i sleep like a log..and she makes me go the schs near my house so that she dun have to suffer the fate of waking up in fear that i will be late every morning..lol

yes.. so the weather was damn nice today. it was a v short drizzle and the air was fresh and light. the feeling that i was on time and not rushing made it even better.

finally at home, my bro got the wireless network going as well.. now i can hve internet almost whenever i want..yes! was chatting away last night, felt wonderful to catch up with old friends again. its then i felt grateful for having so many good friends around me. sometimes they do not have to be close.. they just have to be there when u need them. and they are always willing to lend an ear to my boring complains.

foc.. thats my biggest thing on my mind so far.. still not sure whether i did right. but since i made the decision, no pt ,lamenting over it right. its not a v bad thing anyway.. just a personal preference.lol. some say its just the name, some say we will just be an arm's length away.. haiz.. i dunnoe. one part of me wants to help. one part of me want to rest, since its the last year, why not.. just take part, having a senior around means u can slack also.. so the aim, to make sure they have a good foc, the method, to help then have a good one..that means getting rough and dirty..lol.. they dun call me garang for nothing ok ..hee

well last thing on my mind is my PA intership. two more weeks left. i am sure i will have a good time.. (collegue jsut looked at this!!) ha.. will miss these bunch of guys.. will describle them in detail soon.:>

and to meiqiang!
happy birthday again, paiseh we had to leave early. 21st bdae are usually like that if u ask me.. lots of pple. i hope u enjoyed us. cos i feel happy to see so many family and friends come with so many well wishes. have a beautiful and sweet 21st!