going to talk abt x-men 3 .. SPOILERS HERE.. from the poster..everyone knows jean grey is back
yup its abt jean.. actually i did not mean to talk abt her.. but i have no idea why she came into the picture regarding some thing i want to talk abt later..
jean.. level 5 mutant. possible the most powerful one. as gentle she can be and love and protect the pple around her.. there was a dark side of it keep under control by prof X. when it came lose.. it was all too powerful for anyone. at some pt, the tame side of her wanted to kill herself, knowing how her powers had gone out of control. whether she shares the memory with the evil mind, she looks in pain. my pt here is not that u should suppress the evil side of urself, or even controlling ur own powers, even though we all have the power to influence, but then when u have s spilt personaity and u see how destrucive u can be.. and when the evil side is soo horrible.. wouldnt u want to kill urself? thinking here.. i would. cos the more u understand abt urself, the more scarey u noe wat ur powers can do to pple around u .. thats my pt..

oh ya.. roomie, hope ur wrist is better.. done strain it more yea.. i dun think u have v strong joints..

on the side note.. saw somehting v v v v nice today.. v nice.. stood at the store for like .. 20 min? look and look and look.. cant decide..
go draw money? choose design? choose size?.. pick one decide later?.. buy next time.. i want. but so hard to choose.. if only i can ... haiz.. but i just cant.. haiz.. waiting for pay day.. where are u !!

"We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing." George Bernard Shaw

the toils of working is getting onto me
i am now looking forward to the halfday on thurs. to go back sch to reg subjects..
and then there is ACID camp to look forward too.. keep wondering.. perhaps ther is really not enough pple for GL. perhaps.. dun really like to think i am a v helpful person. skipped two id sessions, felt terribly sorry for it.. but to think that i am not a v kind person in anyway. volunteering is prob the only way i can make myself feel less preoccupied with my own stuff.. too selfish le.. go id also must have reason.
the more you learn , the more u will realise that there are things that u have not learnt , the more learning to be done.right now, the more i want to be grateful for the things around me , the more i feel that i have not done enough.
the earthquake in indonesia, pple dying, children hungry, maids here worried, here we are. like a mouse in a cage with an exercise wheel to run on. we are bounded by our cage, can only burrow in the saw dust .. to nowwhere still. just hit plasic bottem and head up again. work is like the exercise wheel. round and round, no end no beginning. it starts ur day, it ends ur day. pple say its a rat race. i figure the only one in the race is u and u choose to be in it.. chasing after urself.

hello pple!!~
yuan v happy today. cos got many things done.. can really get things done when u dun go out..
1) got down to the meeting details with fyp tutor
2) caught up with helena on taking soci minor
3) chat with dapeng, and we going to be SAs together at the next foc!
4) planned my subjects for next sem.. hope i get them
5) decided to go back sch to reg..lol a bit far.. but i still wat to take half day off.. hope my boss agrees
6) will do my logbook later..lol its 2 weeks late!..lol

Yesterday went to watch The Da Vinci Code.. v disappointing, too long. not enough content. did not feel the thrill or excitiment. Is it becos i read the book?. too high expectations? the book was writen v cleverly. but it was not protrayed cleverly enough in the movie i think. those who did not read the book couldnt catch many stuff/ideas that it was tryin to put across.. but well i am still grateful to catch it..lol at least i noe it sucks..lol ok lah.. not v good tahts all.. i just like the book. After the movie screen. i attended joanie's church interactive workshop. Its the first time i attended somthing like this.. i discussed the main issues of the da vinci code.. and pointed out the facts and fiction. we all prob read the book as jsut a novel. so many bbooks and documentary are made to clarify and educate readers that many stuff in the books arent really true. but how many of us really go and find out for ourselves.. thats the mtv generation.. we just too lazy to think.. just take and accept.
the workshop was pretty nice. reminds me of the literture movies i have watched..like much ado about nothing, othello, girl with the pearl earing, we discussed the themes there after.. jsut that in davinci code.. it really related to the christianity. somehing that we should be sensitive abt i feel, not bcos its a religion, but becos we are living in a mulitracial society

and then before i watch davinci. the night b4 i watch XMEN III
muaha.. enjoy it so mch.. not the best seats in century square,( second last row), i watched with my colleague, Yani, a pretty cute temasek poly malay intern working in the same company with me.. she is amused at the way i laugh/snort.. the pple at work are. i dunnoe why. basically i bhb-ly said i was her angel sent from her bf from thailand cos he having attachment there.. and i am her companion for the next few months.. she herself is an angel for she is such a companion for me..thanks yani for tolerating my nonsense..lol

i realise i am pretty single minded.. for things i chose not to observe.. i practically blur them out of sight and focus on stuff i am interested in.. is everyone like that i wonder.. but i am always amused with findings tat i chance upon unknowingly...

watching Da Chang Jing- the korean drama shown on channel U @ 10 every night.. i realised something! u guys noe the jean yip advertisments?.. all the differnt ones.. be it hair cut or skin or sliming.. its all shoot / featured the new national Library at bugis.. yes one with many glass windows.. there is even one of the bridge at level 5!. i think.. i am so amused..lol..

lol found this on rosie's blog.. v interesting.. lov to draw.. reminded me of the time when we all played isketch on our comps.. miss ya gals.. try the personality test out! this is wat it said abt me..lol

'Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.'

well. wat ya waiting for?

$$ makes the world go round

when u have money - wat is most likely the next thing on your mind.
1) make more money? < work more)
2) how to spend it?
3) how to save it? < increase the Saving - decrease interest rates>
4) how to invest it? < increase I in the eqns: NI=C+I+G+(X-M)>

muaha..

then somehing else stupid came to my mind..
everyone noes the movie " wat women wants" right.. by mel gibson i think..
it talks abt all the different one million things that women want..that make it so hard to understand them..to love them.. then wat abt men?

why is there no movie 'wat men want?'...lol the answer is pretty obvious.. they only want one thing anyway..lol why make a movie abt it when theres so many already?..lol no offence..lol

like all uni students .. we all have to interview pple at least once in our life time.. lol as i was doing my fpy research(writing a case study) i came across this article:Being human, interview subjects are unique. But I have noticed a few underlying similarities that suggest some basic types of subjects who might require certain responses. My typology is one example; many others are possible. After you gain experience as an interviewer and case writer, you may want to develop your own.

1. The Resister. Some interview subjects participate at the behest of their superiors. Others present some information readily, but become shy when the interviewer asks probing questions. Whatever the source of the interviewee's reluctance, the writer will find that setting an explicit contract of behavior is invaluable. Reassuring an interviewee that the case will be not be released without a suitable disguise, that he or she will have the right to review it before publication, or that it will not be published until some stipulated time can often overcome potential blocks.

2. The Paper Doll. Some interviewees want to cooperate, but in conversation (perhaps about uncomfortable moments of decision), they speak stiffly. Their words are flat and without "juice." One technique to overcome this problem is to ask that the interviewee go over an episode several times requesting more detail each time. "What did he say then?" "What did you think?" For the first several iterations, you may get analysis instead of story. I suggest that you keep asking simple, factual questions and back away from the "whys." Questions that call for analysis steer the interview subject are thoughts away from the guts of the story-and that's where the energy is.

3. The Fountain. Some interviewees can drench the case writer with their loquaciousness. They enjoy the attention, have near-total recall, and love to talk. In these situations, I suggest focusing on distinct threads in their conversation-aspects that you think you can use in the case. Try to concentrate on these and let the rest" of the stream flow by. When the informant wanders off the topic, interrupt gently with a remark like, "Could we get back to that later? Right now, can you remember what Constance said right after you asked her to come up and write her question on the board?"

4. The Innocent. Occasionally, case subjects become so involved in telling their stories that they provide too much personal information-intimate details about themselves, families, or students. Academics can be open and candid. Sometimes they fail to see potential problems that airing such material might raise in class. The ethics of case writing dictate that the writer give thought to such sensitivities, even if the case interview subjects do not. It is the writer's job to protect sources and make every reasonable attempt to ensure that their stories will appear only in a form and a venue that cannot hurt them. Given the choice between writing a juicy case that might embarrass an interview subject and writing no case at all, drop the case.

5. The Painted Window. Some people have so indelibly acquired the habit of analyzing that they have lost the ability to reconstruct the data on which they based their assessments. They remind me of painted shop windows: there may be a lot going on behind the surface, but you can't see it. Packaged insights like, "Jeremy behaved inappropriately when his opinion was questioned in class" do not make good case material. As an interviewer, you hope that a subject can reconstruct dialogue and action-something more like, "Jeremy jumped up and shook his fist at Seth when Seth said, 'Look, Jeremy, shouting doesn't prove nuclear power is unsafe."'

i find the painted window particularly interesting..lol

wat are friends..
i find it weird that i start asking myself these kind of this qns once in a while
perhaps recently i have learnt not to take things for granted..not just to accept things the way they are..and pple are not always obliged to do the things they do.
Just tat day.. i was amused that a banana split contains only one banana that was split into two. seriously. i really dint know.lol.. i was quite amused.
Then recently, i was rather amused by jasmine's post on 21 bdaes.. or was it just bdaes.. it reflected a few of my thoughts and reminded me how i felt abt jasmine.. that she was always able to put ideas/comments into words i cant.. pple are all different.

Saw an advertisment on the road on my way home day. It shows a thumb print and a line' u are different' or someting like that.. i was like,,. indeed.. thats so true.. perhaps that we are all so preoccupied with stuff in our minds that we for get basic stuff.. however.. does anyone expect one to remember these stuff all the time?.. then i remembered... theres somehing such as values..lol somthing that u believe in and follow in ur way of life..

attended jovin's party.. it was ntuc downtown east. it was suppose to be a surprise.. and i think she was nicely surprised. it was pretty nice of her bf to go thru the trouble.. although i dun think he went thru much.. saw pretty much work assigning to diff pple.. dunnoe ..but thats wat i saw.. which is gd..lol and then i left early. its was just one of those heck-care-dun feel-like-staying feeling. perhaps by oily habit of cooking at bbqs got me abt bored.. shuhan left quite early too.. she just stood there quietly the whole night.. and i was just .. bored.. lol dun worry jov.. its was a great party~ had some fun.. have a great 21 st birthday gal~.

perhaps the next bbq i attend.. i will jsut keep my hands to myself. and just stuff myself with the food. ya perhaps then i wun feel so empty..lol wat a pun..well then again..

oh .. to actually end on a happy note..
anyone wants to go watch Over The Hedge with me?
and then.. any one wants to go sun tanning recently?...

一リットルの涙 aka One Liter of Tears
"Kitou Aya is a young highschooler who finds out that she has Spinocerebellar Atrophy. This disease causes the person to lose control over his or her body. Because the person retains all of her mental ability, this disease is like a prison. Through her struggles, Aya finds words to inspire herself to become strong and cope with the disease and has subsequently inspired millions of readers to overcome their own strife. This is her story"
The site to read her diary.. be inspired..

These are two of her poems..

The other side of suffering
Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals
With life, it's like that for everyone
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow og happiness awaits us.
That will definaitely become a treasure
Lets believe in that

Step by step
Ikeuchi Aya

WHen my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best i can
From now on, i'll deliberate slowly
I wont be impatient
I won't be greedy
I won't give up
Because everyone takes things step by step

before there were blogs... there were diaries.. and this diary shows how a normal teenage gal struggles true life bravely.. soemhing we can all learn from..

New Poll!~
News Flash too..lol CNA... for all on the go.. but the colour abit off hor..lol site that provided the stuff

Today is casual Friday. End of PA week 2.Muaha.. now me wearing jeans and my fav black tank top.. i think abt last night..
last night me met up with Meiqiang, Yuxin and Liyan. It was an interesting meetup. for those who noe me.. when i usually say interesting, i dun really mean postive, or is it terribly negative. It was a bit weird..

I thought to myself. perhaps the best way to find out if u have changed over the years is to go out with your old friends.. and i realised.. i changed.. i was so so so much more sarcastic.. even meiqiang looked abit uncomfortable when i said some nasty stuf.. then u would say here.. why did u say them even though u think they were nasty? i am sure i dun want pple to say nasty stuff to me too.. u think u are trying to be funny. but its actually hurting.
hmm then i came to the conclusion.
if u cant say anything nice, dun say anything...

i am boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
sianz now in company...calling and calling n calling n calling.. haiz...
contact me @ stef.yuan@premiereglobal.com.sg .. lol..

How many of us are like that? to all whole have trouble sleeping.. its not the posture.. its not the position.. its ur state of mind..

For the fifth time this week, my mom threatened to wash my 臭 臭 aka my smelly goofy.. last night she mentioned that she will fulfil that action when i go off to work.. perhaps its time.. its time to lock it somewhere safe..

todays mother's day.. lol nvr in my 20 yrs of life have i tried to think of somhing so hard to give her.. she also said. its all the works of the retailer. u dun have to buy anything.. she rejected the idea of an osim ipamper.. now i am looking at cooking cream corn for dinner.. have nver tried b4.. but wat can go wrong? at most get scoldings lor.. anyway.. the corn she left on the table was suppose to be for us to boiled and munched on b4 dinner.. how boring right.. 4 corns mind u..
so i surfed the net for cream corn recipes.. and came upon this blog...lol think i found wat i wanted.. and was pretty glad to find this little treasure.. for it has other food links on the blog as well.. a must check it out for foodlovers..:>

this is an except from a book recommended my classmate eddie:

It was only money , after all. And what was money?
Nellie signed, remembering what her father had told her about money when she was a girl.
Those who dont have enough of it are only aware of wat it can buy them, When you finally have enough of it you become aware -- of all the things it cant buy.. the really important things .. like youth, health, love, peace of mind..

- F.Paul Wilson , the Tomb

it has to be so coincident. his gd friend's trainee is his trainee as well.. wonder wat his gd friend will think..

actually today was pretty ok.. got some weird looks from pple.. i tried not to be bother.. cant u tell?.. i treat u all the same.. can i just be nice to pple and lets just stop at that..u dun have to be nice back.. really u dun have to.. its irritating .. like back to when i am in yr one.. i made the mistake of being nice to u.. wtf.. i do not hope to hurt anyone.. perhaps its just wrong to be nice.. i just dun learn my lesson.. or just perhaps .. i just cant understand how can u get into trouble for being nice.. haiz..

YEAH!!!!!!!!
Its A LOOONG WEEKEND!!
and guess wat.. pple around sg are taking leaves and going on vacation/holidays to take advantage of the long break.. just oo worthit.. i noe cos the pple i am suppose to call is not around! and my real boss on is on 4 days leave.. means from last sat to this sun... freaking long!! thanks to the long hoildays
So how is everyone?.. me still the same
met up with yingling aand shuhan and jovin.. was really happy to see them .. caught up with miss mq also..ha.. on the phone.. she still sounds the same.. which is good
two years have past le.. since we all grad from jc.. time really flies.. now going on to final year.. its freaking scarey to think of it when i talk to xuemei abt it some time ago..a moment we were just freshies.. then she was my roomie.. now we are going seperate ways..the time together was so short yet so long.. lol

did anyone watch the vesak day special last night.. though it was pretty special and nice.. to tell pple the values that are important and that we should not forget about.
i only watched a bit.. but there was one part (the story telling) where the little gal was scolded by her mother or somehing and ran away.. she came to a noodle store and was given a free bowl of noodles by a guy. she expressed gratitude for that bowl of noodles and the guy said:
i gave u a free bowl of noodles and u expressed so much gratitude..
you mother feed and clothed you for the past 20 years ever since you were born, did u ever express gratitude for her?
and the little gal felt bad
and i felt bad too...
i too have been complaining pretty much.. abt my mom and her nagging.. perhaps after living in hostel for so long.. i no longer stand pple breathing down my neck..
on my way home yesterday i though abt wat i want to do for my mom.. for the past few years. we really did not do anything much.. me and my bro.. at most we told her.. happy mother's day.. i was thinking. perhaps.. i can..
bake a cake?(hmm), make a card? (hmm) buy a small osim massager with a limited budget?(hmm) buy somehing decorative..(arhh) flowers?(big nono) cook a meal?(inspired by a meal in 30 mins show).. wat do i do?.. wat are u guys going to do? perhaps wats more impt is the xin yi i would say.. if i had the money i want to treat my mom to a good meal.. but guess wat.. all bookings are full already and i ant that rice either.. my mom wouldnt want that also.. xin yi (the sincerity).. its so hard to measure.. so easy to estimate in terms of money.. bcos of all the advertising out there.. its become an shopping occasion out of necessity.. ITS THE MARKETEERS U HAVE TO BLAME.. telling u that its time to give ur mom a treat after all the hard work she had put in.. its time she deserves a XXX or a XX .. WAT CAN U DO FOR UR MOM TODAY?/ GETTING SOMEHING FOR MOTHER'S DAY / TIME TO GIVE SOMTHING IN RETURN TO SOMEONE WHO GIVE HER URS EVERYDAY?/ WAT CAN BRING A SMILE TO HER FACE?/ IS'T IT TIME TIME TO DO SOMETHING IN RETURN?/ TO THE ONE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR U EVER SINCE U CAN REMEMBER. ITS TIME FOR U TO SHOW IT TOO..
gosh wat an amt of slogans i can think of.. and how affected am i by those? very.. haiz..

and ya .. too all who read my blog.. hoped that it has entertained u for a while .. be it during exams or when u are bored.. thanks v much for ur support!! :>.. happy vesak day~

today first day of pa
let me not bore anyone with the boring details. in summary, it will be telemarketing for the next ten weeks.. lucky the pple there are nice..

mr brown is v funny.
if u haven heard abt the 'the persistently non-political podcast no. 6' its a must hear!!!

u say u tell me u don't want de gua when u never tell me u dont want de gua!

dl-able at this site. ..
well.. be it that u are a blog hopper or someone bored.. check out mr brown.. v funny..
http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/
or just heck everything and check out his podcasts !!
http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/podcast/index.html

i am happy
cos i am sian!
i have got nothing to do!!
perhaps this was wat i wanted to be link the past few months.. i was so buzy i totally couldnt sleep properly.. nowadays, my mom just lets me laze in bed till 12 noon.. and i would hear my dad ask her.. what time is she going to wake up?.. and my mom would say.. let her sleep.. see how long she can sleep..ha. and soon after ..i will wake up to the timing of the groaning tummy.haha..
so is life indeed gd when u have nothing to do.. that u can literally just sit there and watch the clouds go by?
i have no idea..

met lidia online.. wanted to meet up with her for dinner b4 going to dnd meeting at 730..end up.. hmm have to find someone else.. she recently changed her blog skin.. to a nice cool black.. i want to have a black blog too.. ha.. abit lazy to change mine leh.. me take so much effort to actualyl have the current skin i having now.. made so much modification. despite majority feels that its too orange ..hey.. dun just look at the things according to appearance yeah. blog bu ke mao xiang..lol..ok shall stay orange till i learn somthing new..


want to

i woke up this morning.. under my mum's nagging again.. have to go iceskating.. but the weather is just oo good to sleep in.. and my mom's nagging is jsut too noisy to get out of bed..
i figured that i can pretend to ignore her than try to compete over whose right.. not only does it saves energy, it tells me that i am a gd daugter..lol that i dun go making her more angry..

so in my bed, i replied to joanie's mes on who isnt going to the iceskating.. then replied to the rest that its cancelled.. and the gals nicely replied that its ok...
yups.. then i went back to bed for 5 min.. for my mom's nag topic have changed from using too much electricity to i been sleeping too late to its time to wake up to breakfast is becoming lunch..
i hate bring a spoilt brat..lol i think i am one at home.. thats terrible isnt it.. i am not the spoiltest brat.. but i do think i am kind of bratish in somewat.. then i though
wats worse than being a spoilt brat who noes he/she is a spoilt brat?..lol
i am v sian at home. there seems so many things to do.. yet i am sian cos i dun want to do anything.. my future looks misty.. look blury.. looks lonely.. i must go out more often .. despite how wonderful my mom is as a housewife.. i dun think i want to be .. and i dun think i am the sort of sucessful women kind.. wat am i? am i just the jester.. the clown?.. lol the idea is sad and happy at the same time.. making pple laugh..

today went to feizi's bdae.. i was like the devil's advocate.. suggesting all kind of evil stuff.. yes i am evil.. and i do not doubt it myself. maybe i am just more willing to expose it to my dear friends..lol
we had a gd time at the mind cafe.. which is situated at 68 boat quay.. somewat like the settler's cafe.. only its rival. yup u play board games there.. was there to celebrate a gd friend's bdae.. feizi~.. in uni yr one.. i was a very lonely gal.. couldnt fit in v well.. however in uni year 2 first sem i got to know feizi better.. and she is always there to cheer us up.. and motivate us too when things got v hard.. and when she was done with us.. it was her turn to worry..lol she is such a sweet thing.. she was a friend who would remind u to do ur readings for different classes and i was the sort who could not tell the difference btw the classes i was attendin.. i was grateful.. she and ningjia let me into their little world and allowed me to understand that its ok to be blur. but u need friends around u to support u when u do so.. then u will go far.. friends like taht are hard to find.. but i am glad i found one..
yes and so soon in uni year 2 sem two.. i found the blur one in my class..lol .. u noe who u are..lol i took on feizi's motherly role and felt extremely tired after 6 weeks.. thats half a sem for u .. lol so i am glad .. that i have so many friends around me.. blur or not..we take turns yeah!!

after the party.. joanie talked to me abt blogging.. her bf mentioned that bloggers are self centered..which i see no wrong in saying that .. except that ITS A SWEEPING STATMENT. lol.. as i had said.. everyone need an outlet to vent thier anger, share their joys, spread their happiness and bury their troubles..

lets take for eg.. was talking to shufen abt the sg election.. i though that in many ways.. framing of our minds was involved.. the way they said ' the pple know how to think for themselves',' the pple know who is in the right and who is in the wrong', the pple knows the real reliable pple'.. some how the politcal party is trying to enpower the pple to tell them they have the choice at their decisions.. however at the same time.. they are trying to 'manipulate' u to think in that specific direction.. taht pple should be in different categories..
shufen commented that the pple in our generation arnt really perceptive to thier msg the way they want us to .. instead.. we may be more concern the way they put thier msg across.. like in lit.. every sentence and punctuation has an intention behind it.. be it intentionally or unintentionally.. of course ..perhaps everyone noes it.. an i am jsut stating the obvious.. but thats wats politics right..

now wat does it have to do with blogging?.. paiseh i got carried away.. i think i was trying to say somehing like the generation is different.. imagine.. if i was in ur father's generation.. and u tell him.. dad i can publish ur diary or just ur thoughs into an article everyday.. ur dad would prob think that u must be planing a revolt or somthing..
perhaps its jsut part of our generation to be attention seeking.. we just like to see ourselves being heard.. whether we actually being heard.. does not matter...

so are we self centered?.. why do u actually read pple's blog everyday.. but not actually take the opportinity to know him better using the time u sit at the desk?.. is it we are too buzy? or do we jsut fear to commit to a r/s .. just being friends take up time right.. if u dun have time.. then its hard to keep up with ur friends right..then why do u want to read someone;s blog?.. perhaps u just want to see whether life is any more exciting than urs.. wherther his /her life is moore or less boring than urs..



somehing interesting too...

yoz yoz...
miss shua ku went out with shufen yesterday.. went to bugis street..woah so nice there liao.. got second storey .. got many things too .. but did not complete the aganda for buying pa clothes.. dunnoe is i dun dare to buy or. maybe i am picky. i dun see anything that fits mee.. how.... but bugis street is really really big and cool now..lol

now on vcd craze..currently watching fruit basket.. noe that is an old show liao. ha.. but i find it rather interesting.. one of the concept in episode 3 happen to answered my qns to my previous entry..

this is somewat the conversation that happened btw the gal and another guy (who was suppose to be the rat):

the gal : u have the power to draw pple in
the guy: i am only nice becos i want to be liked by them
the guy: maybe i am hypocritcal
the gal recalls wat here mom told her: people are not born with kindness. things like our appeite or material desires are that wat we are all born with - thats our instinct for living. Kindness is something that developes just like our bodies do and the heart that grows inside us is our conscience. Thats why they take different forms depending on the personthe gal notes: kindness is somthing which pple have to make for themselves, hence it is easily misunderstood or taken to be hypocrisy
the gal: pple have kindness of different shapes: round, pointed...
the gal recalls again: doubting is easy, its something all of us do. tohru (the gals' name), you believe , believe in the others - that will surely hend strength to someone

when i saw the anime.. for a moment.. i though that perhaps my qns was answered. like the adam khoo talk.. the first thing u should always have b4 u can suceed in life is to have the belief that u can do it. to believe in urself.. for some reason.. i dun really have that.. sometimes i just feel that its much easier not to do so.. so much easier to just believe in other..
perhaps its really easy to just live in a shell pple create for u.. and wat u protray..lol sounds empty..lol..

wats up pple.. hows life?
me just move back home yesterday.. had a whole day of packing and unpacking. v tired.. v MESSY.. so ashamed of myself.. i must be the messiest person i have ever seen.. no.. i am the messiest gal i ever seen

so wats my plans these few days?.. today go shopping with shufen.. should be more of window shopping..
tmw got shopping with shufen and ningjia. more window shopping for me..
then on wed.. a good friend's special day.. a secret
then on thurs.. no plans... yet. perhaps go hang out with the 3302 gals.. wonder if their exams are over
then on friday.. iceskating.. or ktv with uni classmates.. wonder if its still on.. nha and carmen.. how are ur exams going?? .. must jia you for ur chinese paper!
then on saturday.. election day.. i aint 21 yet.. so i dun need to vote..lol will be going to help my cousin move room in hall..
PA starts on 8...

i miss hall already.. i miss the freedom.. i haite coming home and having to make my mom stress out over my own mess... haiz.. but still i am home now.. must try and get used to it..
and then.. there is no internet connection in my roon.. now currently using my bro's comp .. so guys u want to contact me.. SMS.. yup.. will reply when i can think clearly.. my phone giveing me some probs.. so may have some delays..